Chapter 11:  Be your...WHATT!!!!?

“Aish, this girl! Why is she so late today? Does she even know what time it is!?” I yelled in frustration in my head and continued walking back and forth in the living room, like an idiot for god knows how long. For some reason, I just can’t understand myself. Why am I so worried about that girl? She is nothing to me! Why can’t I just stay in one place at peace, instead of walking back and forth like an idiot? Why I’m I so concerned about her?

“THIS. IS. SO. FRUSTRATING!”

“It's two o'clock in the afternoon already, so where is she?” I asked no one in particular as I glared at the clock, watching the long hand ticking as if it were mocking me. “YAH! Park ____, you know what? Forget about coming back to work, I’m not accepting you anyway..."

“Aish, it's almost three, why is she not here yet!?” I scratched my head in irritation as I couldn’t stand waiting for her any more. Grabbing my jacket and the car key I got ready to go look for her. “____ watch what will happen once I find you, you brat.”

Twisting the knob of door, I opened it and stood frozen. To my surprise, I saw ____ standing in front of the door way, looking back at me equally in shock.

“Y-Y- YAH! DID YOU WATCH YOUR TIME? WHY ARE YOU SO LATE?” That was the first question that I could come up with, in my messed up mind. I waited for her like a stupid idiot, who can’t stay in one place from seven o’clock in the morning until now and I swear, during that time, I had planned everything I wanted to say to her when I catch her. I would tell her to stop her from coming to work because this is not acceptable, and I would give her my harsh words like I had done to every others that that had worked for me, but yet, in reality, seeing her like this for the first time in my life, I admit that I... I failed? I... actually failed. I have failed miserably and just didn’t have the guts to give her the cold look or the harsh words I wanted to spit out, but instead, my concern and worry.

“So you’re finally decided to talks to me huh?” I could see her forcing herself to smile as she begins speak. Hearing her, I could see where she is coming from. It's true that I have been ignore her for this couple weeks start from the moment I saw her and my long term friend, Jonghyun together at the party. It was not just ignore but I have treated her very harshly to the point if I put myself in her place, I would have been hurt very terribly. But yet for a girl like her, she had endure the pain very well, no matter how harsh I had treated her, how many ugly harsh word I had said to her, she could still able to put on the brightest smile on the face, and laugh cheerfully like nothing had have happen . And Even in front of my parent, she still have the gut to tell my parent what a good boyfriend, I am to her. But somehow today it quite unlike her, she had never come late to work before and she definitely never has this type of attitude toward me.

 “Yah! I ask why you are here so late?” I yelled at her not knowing the reason why, but I just hate when she ignoring my question

“Don’t you see, I’m trying to find a way to make my boss to be mad so that he can fire me?” she replied with no emotion

*fire! What? She just said what?*

“Fire? Yah what are you talking about?” I question her innocently. I do understand what she tried to say but I just can't put myself accept the fact I know what she tried to tell me.

“It is not free to dream, especially not for a girl like me”

“Yah PARK _____! Why are you acting like this? Is there somethi…” I yell at in confuse, getting frustrated, but got cut off

"KIM MYUNGSOO! I’m trying my best to make you mad, why can’t you just play along and fire me. Why are you keep asking question, aren’t you suppose to yell at me and should be fire me by now!!!? You hate me right? You have always hated me before! Why not firing me” I was totally stunning by her word and what makes me more confuse is the outburst of her tear. Is this a new side of _____ that I didn’t know about? Looking at her I couldn't help but pull her to my embrace as I could not bear with her crying

My hand shaking not sure whether or not I should pat her and comforting her. I’m confused. Is like my heart telling me to do it but my pride holding me back. The Kim Myungsoo doesn’t do this kind of things. But in the end when looking at her crying, I couldn't help but finding myself comforting her. And as much cheesy as it sound, I wanted to be the person, who will be there for her through good and bad. A sigh escape from my lip as I use my hand, pat her head slightly “If it is not free to dream, why not dare to dream. The Park _____ that I know, even when she is in hardship she still able to have the most beautiful smile on her face, and instead of crying and showing her weakness _____, is the girl who would do anything just too proved they are wrong” pull her out the hug as I continue “That what I learn about you when I first meet you at the bar and this last couple weeks of ignoring you. _____ I dare you to dream not just dream but dream big” I said as I using my thumb wiping off the tear from both of her check but in a while she use her hand prevent me from  wiping off her tear. I don't know what has happen to _____ that made her been like this. Seeming her in tear, somehow my feeling doesn't feel right, it like I'm hurting almost. Weird right?

Her face bright up into a smile as she look up to me, wiping off her tear and joke " haha I'm a strong girl remember, I can do it for myself" Looking at her, I roll my eyes. I can tell that she is faking, again I repeated myself for a girl like her, she can e