A painful week passed by. Going through each day felt like I was swimming through molasses. It was good that I got to see Khun four times a week in history or else I would've gone insane. The only thing that I'm feeling uneasy about... is.. neither Taec nor Chan have texted me in this week. Have they been to busy with work? or have they forgotten about me? I don't want to smother either of them. Boys need room to think and to be by themselves. 

But it's been a week. and it's Friday afternoon. I know Taecyeon is at soccer practice, but what is Chansung doing? Maybe I'll just go for a run and see how I feel after that.

As I walked out on to the porch, I took in a deep breath of air. This'll be good to just clear out my mind. I walk towards the main street to start my running trail, but just before I could reach it, someone called out my name.

"Tiffany!"

I turned around to see who it was. I felt like I've heard the voice before, but couldn't tell who it belonged to.

"Hey, are you going for a run?" shouted Jay.

"err. yeah."

"Do you mind if I join?" 

"uh.. no. Not at all, but just a little warning: I'm really slow."

"It's fine. I'll adjust to you."

"Okay."

And we were off. We ran through the suburban surrounding of the school. Making sure to not become roadkill, he and I always slowed down as we neared crosswalks. We were in sync, it seemed like he wasn't slowing down for me and I definitely was not speeding up or slowing down to him. It was nice. I guess that means I'm fit, right? I mean.. he is an athelete.

"You're not slow at all... Unless you're putting a lot of effort into this..."

I laughed. "No, this is just the right speed."

"We should do this more often," he suggested, "I mean, if you have free time."

"Definitely." I smiled at him.

We finally looped back around and made our way back to campus. A chilly breeze blew by, and with my t-shirt slightly dampened with sweat, a shiver was sent up my spine. 

"Do you want my sweatshirt? It's sitting right on the porch of my dorm."

"It's fine, I'm about to go back to my dorm anyways."

He looked at me with disappointed eyes, "I was hoping that we could.. maybe.. sit outside for a little while?"

"Oh... well. I mean in that case.. if you don't mind lending your sweatshirt to me for a little while..."

"Not at all."

And so he handed me the sweatshirt and immediately I felt warmer. We sat on the grassy lawn in front of my dorm talking about our first week and the stress that we were already feeling, socially and academically. As the sun started to set, he suggested that we continue this conversation over dinner. So we went to the dining hall to grab dinner. Surprisingly, I didn't feel so nervous around Jay. 

"There's a movie showing tonight in the school theater if you want to go see it with me," he suggested

"I--," I hesitated. What if Taecyeon or Chansung wanted to hang out with me?

"You're worried about whether or not you'll be hanging out with Taecyeon, aren't you?"

"What? No. It's not just him that I'm thinking about."

"Chansung, too, I'm guessing?"

I let out a deep breath. "How did you know?"

"Well; I wasn't so sure about Taecyeon, since you guys seem so close. Like friendly close. And your crush on Chansung is so obvious. I'm surprised Chansung hasn't figured it out yet.."

"Actually. I think he has. He sort of hinted at it last week at breakfast."

We sat in silence for a few minutes.

"So do you like Taecyeon?"

"What? No. I already said. We're friends! He's a big brother to me. Plus, he's such a jerk sometimes," I defended.

"But don't girls like that sort of thing? When guys are mean to them?"

"Uh. I don't know what girls you've been talking to, but that's not the case here."

"Okay, but you know, there are some emotions and feelings that you subconsciously feel, but others can see."

"I like Chansung."

"Okay. I get it."

I looked at Jay. He looked unsettled.

"What's that look?" I asked.

"What look?" Jay mumbled back.

"That disappointed look you're giving your food. It's either that your food or I said something you don't want to hear."

"Nothing. I just think that you and Taecyeon would look good together. That's all."

I looked at him and thought about being with Taecyeon. It doesn't seem too bad. But I feel so attracted to Chansung, it'll be so hard to just switch over like that.

"Do you want to hang out in our dorm tonight?" asked Jay. "It's not like you don't know very many people in our dorm. You already have seven people in it that you're quite acquainted with."

"Yeah. But I'm supposed to be working on getting Taecyeon with Jessica."

"I don't think it'll matter very much after tonight."

"What do you mean by that?"

"Nothing. Just come over. And if it gets boring. I'll even you back to your dorm."

"Who said I wanted you to me to my dorm?"

He silently looked at me. Maybe I went a little overboard with my y act.

"I mean... I guess I have nothing else to do tonight. Are you done eating?" I tried to sound sweeter to make up for what I just harshly threw at him.

"Yeah. Let's just put our dishes away and we can go."

Wait.. we he said "I don't think it'll matter very much after tonight."... what exactly did he mean?
Is he trying to hint that Taecyeon likes me? Maybe I'm just overreacting. I'll just have to wait and see, I guess...

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