It was the third day after we agreed to not talk that I figured out who it was that put the pictures up on the bulletin board.

I was simply minding my own business as I went to the bathroom as I overheard someone talking about me and Taecyeon. I hid behind a corner to continue listening in on the conversation. There was a girl talking to a boy.

"God, I can't believe she would do that to Chansung and Taecyeon. Who does she think she is?" The girl said.

"I know. I would hate to be either Chansung or Taecyeon," The boy replied.

"I really don't understand what Taecyeon sees in her. I've been trying to tell him that she's not good enough for him and he really needs to move on from her. Think about it: he's hot, smart and charismatic. He's basically perfect, and she's.... just not," She was ripping me to pieces.

"Mhmm."

"I was hoping that after Taecyeon saw the bulletin board, he'd see that she doesn't really care about him... but he's a bumbling idiot. I need to figure out a way to get that message to him."

"You did that?"

"Well. Not directly... I asked someone to take the pictures.... and I simply put them up."

"Wow. So no one knows?"

"Nope. Don't tell anyone, okay?"

"Of course."

As the conversation ended, I was trying to decide whether I should humiliate whoever it was now or if I should do it later after I told Taecyeon.

Without thinking about it too much, I stepped out of my hiding spot only to see Ji-Eun walking towards me and away from Jonghyun. I didn't say anything, though. I only glared at her and walked past her. She looked extremely shocked and worried.

After math, I texted Taecyeon.

"Hey. Can we talk?"

"Yeah. Of course! But.. I thought we weren't talking this week..."

"It's urgent. I'll be waiting for you on my porch."

I sat on the bench on the porch staring into space. I can't say that I wasn't surprised that the person behind the bulletin post was Ji-Eun, but I was surprised that someone could consciously make the decision to do that to someone else. If Taecyeon liked someone else, I wouldn't do that to her. It's just so illogical and y.

Taecyeon was running towards me.

"Hey, whats up?" His voice quivered with worry as he wrapped his arms around me. 

I hesitated, "I figured out who put those pictures up."

"Who? I'm going to kill them."

"Please don't do anything too brash."

"Just tell me."

"Erm... Ji-Eun"

"I can't say I'm surprised." He put his hand on my cheek, "Does she know that you know?"

I nodded.

"Don't worry about it. I'll fix it." He got up.

"Taec..."

"Just forget about it, okay? Oh.. and one more thing. Are we still not going to talk for the rest of this week?"

I didn't know how to reply.

He sighed and sat back down, "Stop doing this to me."

I looked into his eyes.

"Please."

Honestly speaking... this week, I've thought of Taecyeon more than I've thought of Chansung. Don't get me wrong. I have thought of Chansung.... just not as much as Taecyeon. It's actually become a problem how much I think about Taecyeon everyday.

"Tiffany.." He put his hand on the back of my neck sending shivers up my spine.

I swallowed.

He leaned forward as if to kiss me, and I was waiting for it, but he stopped before he could touch my lips with his, then quickly, he leaned back.

"Sorry. I forget."

I'm happy that he's being so respectful. It's strange though. I'd expect him to have a little less self-control than that. I pictured him to jump on me and kiss me, no matter how much I resisted.

"Just... text me... if you want to talk again. And... I'll fix this mess with Ji-Eun. I don't understand why she's so clingy. Ever since I ended things, she's been going insane."

"Maybe you should just talk to her nicely and tell her that she should just find someone else."

"I have."

"Oh.... okay..."

He hugged me then got up and left.

Throughout the rest of the day, I couldn't help but to continue thinking about him. It's like a disease, eating away at my mind. I craved his kiss and his embrace. Thoughts of being in his arms filled my mind. 

After school, I decided that I was fit enough to get back into swimming. So I joined my team for practice.

When I got to the pool, there was a sign that said that practice was cancelled due to scheduling conflicts that the coach had. We were supposed to do dryland instead of actual practice if we wanted to, but I decided to rebel. I went to the lifeguard office to check that someone was there to save me if I drowned. Then, I hopped into the pool and made up my own work out.

I swam for two full hours before hopping out. My muscles were sore and my lungs felt weak, but it felt good. 

When I walked out of the changing room, I saw Jonghyun sitting on the bench waiting.

Not thinking much of it, I continued to walk. I didn't want to associate myself with someone who was friends with Ji-Eun.

"Tiffany, wait," he said.

Out of courtesy, I turned around. "Yes?"

He got up, "About this morning... I don't want you to think that I was involved in that whole bulletin board thing."

"Cool." I tried to sound non-sarcastic.

"Really, though."

He paced towards me, and I backed up... into the wall. Then suddenly, he kissed me.

"What are you doing?" I pushed him off of me.

He kissed me again, pushing me into the wall as I struggled, but I couldn't shake him off of me. I felt his hand snake up my shirt. I squirmed; he was too strong for me to push him off of me.

Suddenly, he pulled away from me. 

I opened my eyes to find Chansung beating him to the ground.

"Chans-sung?" I stuttered.

Chansung punched him again. "Who do you think you are? You think it's okay to touch a girl without her consent? What, did Ji-Eun make a deal with you to ruin Tiffany's life even more?" He hit him a few more times.

"You'll get into trouble, Chan. Let's just leave."

But he didn't stop.

I pulled Chansung off of Jonghyun. I didn't want Chansung to get into trouble for using violence in school.

"Stay away from her," Chansung said coldly as he held me tightly.

Jonghyun got up and began to say something, but was cut off by Chansung.

"What is it with you and being prone to drama?" Chansung scolded me. He kissed my forehead, still squeezing me around my waist tightly.

I was still in shock from the unexpected kiss. He led me out of the building, leaving Jonghyun standing there.

"Good thing I've been keeping an eye on you." He patted my head. 

"Chan... We need to talk," I said quietly as we walked towards the observatory hill.

"So... we're not going to continue with this week?"

I shook my head.

"Good."

"Ermmm..." I didn't know how to begin. I wanted to tell him that I really did like Taecyeon more, and that it wasn't fair that I was keeping the both of them waiting. I sighed.

"What is it?" He asked kindly.

"I...." I looked away. "I don't know how to tell you this. But let me start here. I'm really glad that you're always here for me, though I feel like you should really care about yourself more.... um... In these three days, though, Chan.. I've just... realized something."

He stared into my eyes.

"Though I really like spending time with you and having the stability that you provide.... I just... can't recreate the same atmosphere that Taecyeon and I have with you. I'm sorry, Chan. I--"

He sighed. "I feel like we've had this conversation more than five times already."

"I'm sorry, Chan. I really am," I looked into his eyes to let him know that I was sincere. "I don't think you quite understand how much of a jerk I feel like. You're always watching after me and pulling me out of difficult situations."

We stood in the middle of the empty road, silent. Minutes began to pass, though it didn't seem that way. 

Then he spoke." Go to him, then," He said as he held me tighter.

"What?"

"You'll be happy with him, right?"

I nodded cautiously. I would be happier with Taec... I just didn't want to hurt Chansung by letting him know.

"I'm happy when you're happy. If I'm the one that's stopping you from being happy, then I wouldn't be a very good friend, let alone a boyfriend."

"Chan..."

He sighed. "If he hurts you. I'll be here."

I didn't know what to say. Chansung was being too nice to me. I was the one that was deliberately hurting him; the massive that just kept toying with his heart.

He kissed my forehead.

"Go on," He let go of me and gave me a light push towards the front door of my dorm. "I have to go and talk to Taec."

"Chan--"

"It's getting sort of cold. Get back inside," He smiled at me.

I ran to him and hugged him, snuggling my face on his chest, "Stop being so nice to me."

He patted my head as I let go of him and walked back into the dorm.

"Good night, Chansung." I tried to use my aegyo as I waved to him and walked up the stairs.

I'm such a jerk. Chansung just saved me from Jonghyun, and this is how I repay him: telling him that I'd rather be with Taecyeon. I hate myself so much. In my own defense, however, I don't think it'd be fair to Chansung to be with him whilst thinking of Taecyeon all the time. Maybe, in time, like Chansung said... I'll realize how childish my decisions are and go to Chansung. At this point, I don't think I want to. I'm so infatuated with Taecyeon.

I sighed and pulled out my homework. Even when I was stressed out about a big test, I still couldn't get him out of my mind.

My phone buzzed:

"I heard about Jonghyun. He is so dead. Also... if it makes you feel any better, I talked to Ji-eun."

"What happened?"

"She said that she only wanted me to realize how I was way out of your league."

"Oh...."

"You're alright, right?"

"Well... not really."

"Chansung talked to me about what happened."

"Oh?"

"So... We can finally be together, right?"

I smiled. He was as eager as I was. ":)"

"Tiffany, I promise that I'll never hurt you again."

"Don't make promises you can't keep."

"I don't."

My grin grew wider. "Let's do something fun this weekend."

"Sounds great."

I put my phone down and got back to work on studying for my test. My phone buzzed again:

"Can't wait. :)" 

He's such a dork. I love him.

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