Two weeks. Sehun oppa has not come home for two weeks. I am going crazy. I can't stand the loneliness in this house. Even though there is Sera, the house is not complete without Sehun oppa. 

It's another sleepless night. My head is pounding from the lack of sleep I got for the past two weeks. I opened my drawer to withdraw a bottle of sleeping pills and pop two pills ito my mouth. But immediately after I swallowed the pills, I rushed to the bathroom to vomit as the nausea attacked my stomach again. 

I looked at my own reflection. I could barely recognise myself with dishevelled hair, pale lips and the dark eye bags under my eyes. Is this what losing someone I love felt like? Soulless like a walking dead. Baekhyun and Soojung called me a couple of times but I rejected their calls. All I want right now is to apologise to Sehun oppa and beg him for forgiveness. 

Feeling all the energy drained from me, I dropped onto the ground and leaned my body against the door with my eyes shut. 

Sehun's POV

It has been two weeks since I went home. Even though I was pissed, I felt really guilty for all the harsh words that I said to Jinri and her crying face in the back of mind doesn't help to alleviate the problem.. I guessed anger got the best of me. I didn't mean whatever I said that day. It's true that I love Joohyun, but that was the past, I am really committed to creating a happy family with Jinri, but life is indeed full of surprises.

Rubbing my temples, I looked at the photo frame on my desk. It was no longer me and Joohyun, it's a photo of Jinri, Sera and me taken at Jeju Island few months ago. We were so happy back then. What happened now?

There was once I called back home and Sera said Jinri hasn't been talking to her for a long time. All she does was to go work, get food for Sera and she would return and lock herself in the room until next day. Sera started crying that she felt really scared because Jinri looked like she is dying. 

I am a complete . 

A knock on my door snapped me out of my trance. 

"Come in."

It was Joohyun. I smiled. She looked better than before and I am really glad that she is moving on.

"What brings you here Joohyun?" I left my seat and invited her to sit at the couch. 

"Sehun, I heard from Soojung that Jinri hasn't been picking up her phone. Are you still not talking to her?"

I have told Joohyun everything that happened that night. Initially, Joohyun was slightly happy that I will file a divorce with Jinri and reconcile with her but I told her that I was just angry with Jinri, I didn't plan to file a divorce.

Seeing Joohyun being all well now, I assumed that she has finally given up on the thoughts of us getting back together. Most importantly is that she has moved on and she didn't shed a tear for me anymore. 

We have remained as friends and I really appreciate that.

"I don't know what to do... I am angry but I felt really guilty to just blame everything on her."

Joohyun let out a chortle, "Hun..."

I actually miss that nickname.

"You are at the denial stage."

"Huh?" I shot her questioning look.

"You love Jinri, but you are not aware of it," Joohyun continued, "And frankly speaking, it's not fair to blame everything on my sister. She was just too eager to find love because she has always felt unloved since young. Furthermore, remember what you told me that day? You kissed her first. Sehun, you started the mess. Just because you are drunk, doesn't mean you are incapacity. You were attracted to my sister back then to allow this mistake to happen, but you were too dumb to realise it."

As if Joohyun was speaking in alien language, I understand no .

"Do you feel happy spending time with Jinri and Sera as a family?"

I nodded.

"Do you feel happy whenever you see Jinri smile from all the things you have said and done?"

I nodded, "I look forward to going home after work to be greeted by her face the first thing I came home from work."

"Do you miss Jinri after not contacting her for the past two weeks?"

I nodded, "Terribly. And I felt really horrible to say some harsh words to her when we fought."

"You still don't see the picture Sehun?" Joohyun challenged me as she shook her head at my slow-witted brain, "Are you so dense to not know your own feeling that you need your ex girlfriend to help you reaffirm the fact that you are in love with Jinri?"

"I..."

"You kiss me first..."

"If there isn't Sera, we are not possible at all, right?"

No, if there isn't Sera, I will woo you and we will create our own family when we get married. 

I turned my head to Joohyun who looked at me with a smile on her face. She is still as beautiful as the first time I saw her at campus.