@SNSDbias4lyf : Just in time. =) UPDATED. ^__^

          For the second time in my life, I felt it again.   The feeling of being abandoned.   The feeling of being left behind.   The feeling of lost.   This is exactly how it feels when I lost Mom during those terrible years.   I felt very incomplete.   And now, I thought it will never came back, but here I am, I can feel them again.   But this time, I'm feeling different.   I was incomplete before.   Right now, I'm not just incomplete. I am already nothing.   Nothing. As if my life is nothing anymore.       I feel damn useless.   It feels so damn useless sitting on this uncomfortable white chair doing nothing but starring at her.   It feels so damn stupid when all I can do is cry and cry for her.   I feel so damn weak. Inside and Out.   I'm emotionally suffering. I'm mentally drained. I'm physically dead.   I can't do anything for her.       Her.   My Taeyeon.   It pains my heart everytime my eyes lingered on this thick bandage near her heart.   I so want to avoid them. Can my eyes do that?   Near her heart.   I thank God for not making the bullet went straight to it.... or else...   I don't know what else should I do in my life without her.   At least. God has mercy for her.. For me.. For us..   But, what if...                                                             What if she won't wake up anymore?                                                             FLASHBACK         "Oh, I remember. It's not in the table. I've gotta tell Taeyeon. Wait here sweety okay?"   Before Tiffany can nod or say anything, Mr. Hwang immediately went out the car.   Leaving Tiffany dumbfounded... But she just let it off, and shrugged.   She was checking on her phone when she saw at the corner of her eyes that her father is still standing outside. Just standing outside.   Tiffany lifted her head and took a clear view of her father.   Indeed, he was just standing there.   Tiffany looked left and right to see if there are cars passing that'd prevent her father from crossing but there's none.   The place looks so neat.   No cars.   You can even possibly cross in slow motion without getting hit by anything.   "Is he spacing out?" Tiffany murmurred. Unbuckling her seatbelt.   She threw her phone at the back seat and stepped outside the car.   While she was about to close the door, she called her father.   "Daddy!"   But seems like Mr. Hwang didn't hear her because he was still standing there.   She grunted in annoyance before succesfully slamming close the car's door.   When suddenly....         As the door made a loud sound.           There's another sound she heard.         A sound that she believes just meters away from her.           She lifted her head.             And she saw her worst nightmare.                                                               "TAEYEONNNNNN!!!!!!!!!"                                                               Is all she can say while running towards this bloody petite girl lying right in the middle of the street.   She knelt in front of her unconscious body and roughly shook Taeyeon's shoulders.     "T-taeyeon!!! W-w-wake up! PLEASE WAKE UP!!"     Tiffany cried rivers. A long continous heavy river.   Who won't?   The love of your life is unconsciously lying right before your two confusing eyes.   A big stain of blood at the part of her heart.   Who won't?   Who won't think she might be dead now because she was technically shot by a gun!?   Tiffany's shaky hand touched where the injured part, trying to stop the blood from escaping too much.   Tiffany's trembling. Not because of the cold wind. But because of Taeyeon's fragile merciless body.   Then suddenly she remembered something.     Who shot her?             Tiffany lifted her head and looked for anyone who has a gun.     Then maybe God is indeed playing tricks on her.             She saw her father.   Standing still on his position before.   Her eyes lingered on his hands and she saw something that she wished she was just seeing things.   A gun on his hand.     Tiffany's eyes would about to bulge out from their sockets as she went back to look at her father in the eyes.   She was uncontrollably shaking her head while mouthing 'No'.   She turned back her attention to the bloody girl and hugged her very tight.     "Tae! Stay with me! Please! Don't leave me! Taeyeon!!!"   Suddenly, she felt strong arms around her, trying to lift her.   She didn't budge at first but when she realized she was slowly taking away from her girlfriend... she went crazy.   Kicking in the air.   Elbowing this young man behind her.   Shouting for Taeyeon.   But maybe because she was a girl she can't do anything.   She's weak. How can she be strong anyway?   There's her strength.... on the ground.... dead or not, she's gone.   She didn't care how much tears she would waste now.   All she wanted is just to be beside Taeyeon.       "Get her in your car."   Tiffany heard her father spoke.   Before she can react she was already thrown inside the backseat.   "DADDDY!!!!! DON'T HURT HER!!! PLEASE!!! I'M BEGGING YOU!!!!"   It's not because her father can't hear her... Her father doesn't want to hear her.   She looked back at Taeyeon and she saw someone approaching her unconscious body.   She blinked a few times to ease the watery sight she's having now to have a clear view of the man.     She thought it was someone that'd hurt her Taeyeon.   But who would hurt someone when actually, you're hugging them.   The man lifted Taeyeon and was about to escape but..       Again, something happened that Tiffany wished she was quick enough to just close her eyes and not to witness every single nightmare.   Her father's car making it's way towards them.   It hit them.   Making them thrown mercilessly because of the impact.   The man didn't let go of Taeyeon.. Instead, he took all the damage and remained Taeyeon secure.                                         ------------                   Situations like this, she doesn't know whom she can lean on.   Taeyeon is not here now. And all Tiffany can rely on is her bestfriend, Jessica.   Hesitantly, she stood up on her seat and kissed Taeyeon on the forehead before leaving the room.     She was heavily dragging her feet towards this room where she believes Jessica is.   She was about to knock when she heard her bestfriend cold voice.       "I will be the one to tell her. "       Jessica turned around and was surprised to see Tiffany standing at the door.   Even it's dark, she can possibly guess those swollen eyes are still visible.   Without thinking twice, Jessica approached her an