Thirty Eight – The Ending

Ahyoung’s point of view

“Oh, about what? You know that I hate this situation.”

But he laughed, “No way, did you think that I will say something stupid?”

“Yes, because you always do that.”

I’m afraid that he will say something to break my heart in this situation because he always did that before! After he made me happy, then he would make me feel like a piece of trash in a second. Yeah, that’s what he did to me.

And I don’t want him to do that thing to me anymore. I’m so in love with this sweet and understanding Jongin like, I waited for this to happen since forever! And he shouldn’t break anything into a little piece of anymore.

Just do something right, Kim Jongin.

“We are going to play the question and answer game. I will ask you some questions and you have to answer it.”

I nodded.

“Do you remember when the first time we met?”

Again, I nodded. “When the first day I moved to your school we ended up being in the same class and you saved my life when I almost being hit by the… what was that? The trolley?”

“Do you remember why we ended up slept together?”

“Yeah, I was drunk and messed up so I told you to sleep with me. When my parents decided to divorce, you listened to all my problems on that night.”

He smiled, but then the smile faded quickly. “Do you remember when the first time I made you cry and hurt?”

“When you made me felt so cheap by ing me roughly in the toilet then you just left, leaving harsh words on me like I’m your .” The memories really hurt my heart for all this time, but with the new Jongin on my side, I felt proud. Because he became better than before, a lot better. Much better that I couldn’t believe myself.

Time flies so fast with our memories, both sad and happiness.

“I’m sorry..”

“What is the next question? You sure have so much on your mind, huh?”

“Oh… do you remember when the first I made you happy?”

This is a hard question, I think? Because I couldn’t remember when the first time he made me happy, I couldn’t even count it. Because just by looking at his smile, I’m already happy. But, if I had to choose,

“When the first time you waited for me in front of the door, playing with your feet because you were shy. You asked me if I was okay, and you gave me a piggy back ride. It was the simplest thing that I will never forget from you. But the truth is, everything that I did with you, it made me happy already.”

My tears almost fell down to my cheek but I held it. What is he going to do by making me remembering about our memories?

“And, what makes you stay with me?”

“Because I love you. I can’t tell you the whole reason because truth to be told, I don’t even know about it. I just simply love you.” That was truest thing I’ve said to him, I just simply love Kim Jongin even with all his flaws. “Hey, can I ask you questions? It is not the same as your question though.”

He nodded while sipping up the coffee. “Sure.”

“Do you feel any regret when I tried to change you?”

Jongin laughed a little, “Of course there is no regret. If I didn’t meet you, I probably not going to the collage right now and just enjoying myself with that dark world. I will never feel the feeling of loving you sincerely, and I will never know how to make someone happy like you are. And I want to thank myself.”