Part 10

You'll Regret It

I woke up in the morning with tears that had been running down my face all night. I reached towards my face, wanting to wipe those pathetic tears away, however, my hand hit something.

I looked down to find Taemin with his arms around my waist, sleeping.

He must've sneaked into my bed last night. I probably had a ton of nightmares, was thrashing all around, and screaming.

I touched his serene face. He appeared so young, as if he was a couple years younger than me. He seemed to innocent, like an angel. However, I knew that Taemin had a selfish, devilish side. I caressed his cheek, careful not to wake him up.

“Don't leave me,” He mumbled in his sleep.

A surge of sadness blasted through me. His feelings towards me were true and pure. Mine on the other hand were tainted with my filthy want for Jonghyun back, but my desperate need for Taemin's comfort.

I carefully slipped of his hands and got ready for school.

After School

I told Taemin to go on ahead to the apartment without me. Waiting at the gate patiently, I heard that high-pitch giggle that I despise so much.

I turned my head towards them before they passed me, “Jonghyun,” They two of them stopped in their tracks and looked over at me.

“What do you want?” He made a snide remark.

“I just need to talk,”

“Again?” He announced, annoyed.

“Yes,” I firmly stated.

He brought Se Kyung's lips towards him, made out with her for a few seconds, and told her to go to their room without him. She obediently nodded, glared and me and reluctantly let go of Jonghyun.

I just rolled my eyes, “Follow me,” He followed.

I led him to the lake. The one where we confessed to each other. The one were I was automatically cast under his spell. The magic. The landscape. The beauty of it all.

“Why are you bringing me here?” He snapped.

“I don't know. My feet unconsciously led me here,” I mumbled.

“Can we just stop and talk already? I have a girlfriend waiting for me at home,” He sat down against our old tree. I sighed and sat down next to him.

“Did you really love me?” I asked him.

He stared at me wide-eyed by my straightforward comment. I just looked at him with serious eyes.

He cleared his throat, “At the time I confessed yes. But people change as time goes on. So did my feelings,”
 

“So since your feelings changed you decided that the best way to end it all would be to cheat on me,”

“Well it wasn't the best way,” He replied, “It just happened naturally. I didn't really mean to cheat on you. Shin Se Kyung was just the opposite of you. What I wanted you to be like,”

“So I wasn't good enough for you?” I calmly stated.

He sighed, “If you want to look at it like that, then yes,”

“And you don't have any attraction towards me now, what-so-ever?” I looked him in the eyes.

He stared back, “No. But I know that your feelings for me will never change,”

“How can you be so sure of that?” I asked.

“Because that's just your personality. You were in love with me. 100%. It'll be hard for you to let go of that,”

“Really Jonghyun?” I replied, “Is that how you viewed me as? The desperate submissive girl who would do anything for her boyfriend. Even cling onto him whenever he leaves?”

“That's what you're doing now isn't it? You want me back,”

I sighed, “That's what I wanted when I waited there at the gates,” I saw Jonghyun stare in shock at my honesty, “But as this conversation went on, my goal for it changed. I'm talking to you right now to close what he had completely. Since obviously you want to end it because you cheated on me. You want to end it because I'm not what you wanted me to me. You want to end all of this because you want to go back to Shin Se Kyung,” I stood up, “If that's what you want Jonghyun then I'm fine with that. But you're going to regret losing someone like me,”

With these words that escaped my mouth, I walked away. Once I was out of sight from Jonghyun, I sprinted, with tears escaping my eyes.

The Apartment

I cried to Taemin telling him everything, hating myself for telling Taemin all this when I understood his feelings towards me.

I could tell from his dull, gloomy expression, he hated the fact that I didn't tell him I was going to see Jonghyun. Like the understanding person he was though, he pulled me into a gentle embrace, soothing me as I sobbed.

He pecked me on the lips and placed something in my hands.

It was a piece of paper. I stared at Taemin's handwriting which spelled:

Someday He'll Realize

The Steps to Getting Over Someone.

I smiled up at Taemin who gently kissed me on the forehead and left to start cooking dinner.

Jonghyun's POV

I watched as the sunset, flashing colors across the sky. It was like the time I confessed to her. However, this time, it's different.

If that's what you want Jonghyun then I'm fine with that. But you're going to regret losing someone like me. Her words echoed in my head. I smiled.

There's no way that will ever happen. I was her world. Without me she has nothing. Her adoration towards me will always last.

I know that no matter what happens, she will always be mine.

OooOOooOO~ The bubble loving Jonghyun thinks you are all his.

What do you think about that?

Undestanding Taemin or First Love Jonghyun?

Again,

Comments are very very motivating~

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