Hyejin's POV:

"Someone's in a bad mood." I stated after minutes of watching Yongsun-unnie play with her food, and not just any food.

"Mind telling me what's wrong?" I'm sure she was expecting that question. She should because she called me to meet up to eat tteobokki.

"I'm just bored to death." She reasoned plainly.

"You do know you're playing with your tteobbokki, right? Your tteobbokki." It's her favorite, her comfort food. "Just tell me what's bothering you that not even your comfort food can comfort you."

She her lips before she speak. "Remember the time when I told you about my first kiss?"

This is interesting. "Yeah." I leaned on the table so I could hear her better; giving her my full attention.

"Well, the person in question; we've been seeing each other lately. At first, I was really happy, but later on, even when we're together, I couldn't really be with that certain someone because there are unsaid words between us."

"And...you couldn't tell him that?" I simply asked.

"That's the thing. I told her." She sighed in frustration. Wait...did I hear her right?

"You told her?" I repeated just to make sure I heard her right.

"Yeah. I told her." So I did hear her right. And she realized it too based on the unreadable expression in her face.

And now, we were both speechless.

The feeling was mutual: awkward. Not really, just...I think we were both not ready for that moment.

And now she's biting her lip and I was playing with my fingers, and there's that silence in the air.

Until she cleared , then took a deep breath, then opened , then closed it again, then sighed, then looked at me, then spoke. "Genius hermit."

Now, what did she say? "Genius hermit?"

"In our last conversation. You referred to her as a genius hermit." Oh. Her. Oh. Her.

Now, I surely don't know what to feel.

I mean, it isn't...right? But I... I don't know why I feel like it is such a bad idea, when I'm friends with Seulgi, and I accepted that she likes Irene; it is okay. And at times I'm actually, genuinely happy for her when she gets the girl that she wants.

But Yong and Byul...together?

"Ugh. I wasn't supposed to tell you that yet." Yongsun snapped me out of my trance.

It was my turn to clear my throat and take a deep breath, and open my mouth although I still don't know what to say. So I closed it again.

She shook her head. "You don't have to say anything."

Hyejin's POV:

It's important to know what you're feeling...

It is important to know what you feel, because the only way to heal it is to feel it.

But the thing is; that's hard for me to do. For someone like me who's been told to 'Fake it till you make it' or 'Smile to the world and the world will smile back at you.', of course, I would think that if I ignore these feelings, it might just vanish.

I just found out that Yongsun-unnie is in love with our friend. Our girl friend. And it should be okay to me, because I was okay with Seulgi. But it isn't...

How come they make it seem so easy to love that way? Because when I felt it; it sure was not easy. When I felt that same feeling; I refused to feel it. And Yongsun and Seulgi made it seem like it was so easy to feel that way and suddenly I was lost. And it wasn't fair.

I did my best to neglect those kinds of feelings. I did my best to not acknowledge that feeling, I struggled to become adept at denying and repressing how I feel.

"But why?" I thought to myself not realizing I actually said it.

She furrowed her brows. "Sorry, what?"

"Why her? Why would you fall for her?" I repeated my question clearer.

She shrugged.

"Are you asking me? Or are you questioning me?" she simply responded.

It was my turn to furrow my brows, although I totally knew what she meant. "Both, I guess." I shrugged. It was not the time to beat around bushes. I know that Yongsun would actually give me answers.

"I don't know." She said with a smile on her face. "I honestly don't know." Then her smile grew bigger. She didn't know why she loved somebody and she was totally okay with it; in fact, she is happy. And I didn't quite understand why. It was hard enough for me to try to understand why I have to have those kinds of feelings, while she's sitting there, and doesn't mind at all.

"You don't know?" I just felt like repeating her answer.

"I think the better question is: why did I pursue it. Why didn't I fight it? I'm much capable of answering that question, Hyejin-ah." Yong stated.

"Why didn't you fight it?" so I asked her, because that might be a better question. The opposite of the question I've been asking myself.

"Because I've never felt a feeling this strong. I kept asking myself why I have these feelings, then one day I woke up and I rea