Sober Thoughts
Fatal Love, Pretty Foolish Love, Puppy LoveHyejin's POV:
I didn't get enough sleep; my mind kept replaying my conversation with Byul-unnie last night.
I didn't know if it was because of the anxiousness or excitement but I was looking forward to what will happen the next morning, so you can imagine the dismay that I felt when I woke up with an empty bed and a note saying a simple 'Thank You'.
Usually, getting a note like that from Byul would've made the butterflies in my stomach go wild but instead I felt my heart sunk. I shouldn't have expected anything really, but I was disappointed nonetheless. I couldn't help it.
The night she was drunk, I felt something inside me ignite, maybe it was a flicker of hope. I couldn't help but be aware of the possibility that we could be together as a couple. It was an idea, a dream even, that I have always pushed aside because I never deemed it possible.
But last night, the way she looked at me...I couldn't help but believe.
Believe that there's a chance for us.
Byul's POV:
I was at the cafeteria when I saw Wheein making a beeline towards me.
"You shouldn't have drunk that much." Wheein approached me. I didn't know if I should be happy or disappointed, because this is the first time in a long time that she acknowledged my presence willingly, and its to scold me.
"Look who decided that I'm finally a person worthy of their time." I remarked before I could stop myself.
I know I don't have the right to be mad at her for protecting herself; for trying to move on from me, but my feelings can't be helped.
"Byul." She said sternly. "I'm not here to pick up a fight." She disclaimed. "Besides, we talked yesterday." Wheein notes.
"Of course, how could I forget?" I asked nonchalantly.
"Byul-ah." She repeated, she sound defeated, but all I could care about was how safe my name rolled out her lips.
"I'm sorry. My head is aching from last night. Its not really the best time to talk to me." I replied honestly. I want to continue talking to her. I want to talk to her all day if it were up to me. But these days, when we do talk it ends up with an argument.
"Look, I'm just here to say sorry." She stated; looking at the ground as if she were afraid to meet my eyes.
I didn't have to ask because I know she was referring about what she told me yesterday.
"You have nothing to apologize for." I replied truthfully. "Whatever is between you and Taehyung should be none of my business anymore." I reasoned. "Whatever I feel about it; you shouldn't be sorry for trying to move on from me." Saying those words feel like I'm stabbing myself, but it's the truth.
I shouldn't have the right to be jealous because I did worse when we were still together.
"I don't want to hurt you." She said sincerely, looking directly at me while reaching for my hand.
"I know." I said just above a whisper. How can she expect me to move on when she's only proving to me that letting her go was the biggest mistake of my life. "I know that."
"Next time don't drink more than you can handle, okay?" she squeezed my hand to get my full attention as if she doesn't already have it.
"Okay." I said, reassuring her with a smile.
There was a pang of pain when she let go of my hand but then I felt my heart jump when she suddenly wrapped her arms around my waist. "You really had me worried." She said burying her head at the crook of my neck.
I was too taken aback to hug her back, and before I could return the hug she pulled away.
"I'm sorry. I didn't- I don't m-" she rambled.
"It's fine. That hug is much welcomed and appreciated. Besides, friends hug each other." I assured her. "I better go." I said before I could realize what I was saying. I don't think I could ever let her go if I stayed with her any longer.
Sowon's POV:
"I saw you with Wheein earlier this morning." I stated when I saw Byul-unnie at the cafeteria during lunch time, just as I sat beside her.
"And?" she asked. I already know she's playing innocent so I asked her directly.
"I'm guessing it has something to do with why Hyejin is a no show today." I said. Hyejin was uncharacteristically absent today, and knowing that Hyejin stayed at their house yesterday, it only makes sense to think that it has something to do with Byul-ssi.
"You really jumped on that conclusion?" Byul asked with an amused smile on her face. "I texted her this morning and she told me she doesn't feel well."
"Hyejin was with me earlier and she seemed fine." The minute I told her that, her smile turned into a frown.
"Really?" I couldn't read what's on her mind but its probably because there's a lot going on it.
"Yes." I affirmed.
"Then why did she go home?" she asked.
"I don't know; that's why I'm asking you." I reasoned.
She rested her arm on the table and buried her forehead on her palm.
"What happened last night?" I asked but this time out of concern and not just curiosity.
"We just talked." Byul-unnie casually replied, but she obviously, there's something she doesn't want to tell me - as always, so I stared at her inquisitively for good measure. "I didn't do anything stupid." She said defensively.
"Then why do you look so guilty?" I asked crossing my arms leaning back at my seat.
"Last night...I told her that I liked kissing her." She said just above a whisper that if I weren't paying attention I wouldn't hear it.
I raised an eyebrow matching my widened eyes to make up for my lack of words.
"But I didn't, okay?" she clarified. "I just...when she asked me what's stopping me, I told her I didn't want to kiss her when I'm drunk."
I nodded in approval.
"I actually don't remember clearly, to be honest." She confessed, I'm not sure if she's just saying it so I would stop prying b
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