#np Hui's Maybe

2019

I didn’t know what came into me that time.

All I knew was I didn’t want to listen to that bastard’s name coming out from Bona’s lips any longer. I thought I could shut with a kiss but it went too far. Each second our lips touched, I only yearned for more.

And I just couldn’t stop when she also responded to my kiss.

She wore a lovely light blue dress that went a bit too high from her knees, her long hair was let loose. A bit too pretty for a meeting between an employee and her boss. All day, my thoughts were preoccupied with what the two of them could possibly be doing. And when I couldn’t reach her on the phone, I started to feel more anxious.

I… I was just worried about her…

Then I started to wonder, did that feeling meant nothing more than from an older brother to his careless little sister?

But it didn’t feel like it does.

Bona was gone.

As soon as I open my eyes that morning, I immediately searched for her figure but all I could see was nothingness.

Did I make a huge mistake last night? Did I hurt her yet again?

That’s all I could think of as I was staring at the empty corner of my room. But it didn’t feel like a mistake... It was different from all my ex-girlfriends I used to spend the night with.

It was surreal.

And I wanted to feel that kind of feeling again and again.

Thank God she was only at the kitchen, gobbling a bowl of cold rice by herself, clad only in the shirt that I wore yesterday. Well, we didn’t manage to have our dinner last night because of what happened, so I guess she was very hungry.

A bit too hungry that she didn’t bother to take a shower first and wear her own clothes…

But I had to admit, she had never looked this tempting. Her milky thighs, the way her long messy hair fell so perfectly behind her waist, her sleepy façade…

I never knew Bona could be this beautiful…

It took her a while to notice me. When she saw me by my door, with cheeks full, Bona just showed me her shocked face and looked down to her food without saying anything that I started to feel worried all over again.

Did she hate what happened last night?

The ride towards my parents’ house in Gimpo was quiet too. I just didn’t know what to say to her after all that happened between us. Everything happened too fast, too sudden.

It was our first night, definitely hers too.

What could I possibly say?

Sorry?

But it was not a mistake.

“You look troubled, Wonho-ya.”

Shaking my head from my little daydream, I turn to my right and try to pull up a smile.

“I-I’m just worried about Jiyeon back at home.” I answer with a sigh even though it was not in my mind. I don’t know what’s happening at the kitchen of my parents’ home right now but since Bona didn’t get the chance to practice yesterday, I think the dinner will be made by my mother again today...

“Don’t worry. Your mother won’t be too hard on her.”

A weak hum escaped from my lips.

The waters before us is still calm and so are our fishing poles. It’s been quite a while since we’ve been here, blame my busy schedules and my parents’ constant travels but today, the two of us went out to fish at the fishing park to let Bona and my mother have their ‘bonding’ time.

Well, more to a test for Bona and her cooking by my mother.

“You’re taking a good care of Jiyeon, right?”

I’m taken aback by my father’s sudden question.

“I met Attorney Kim a couple of days ago at his home… He appears to be very ill, so different from the last time I saw him months ago... I’m worried.” My father said while fixing his fishing pole.

“Y-Yes. I’m worried about him too.”

“He mentioned something to me… About you and Jiyeon.”

My heart starts to beat faster by my father’s remarks.

“W-What did he say?” My voice’s shaking.

Did he mentioned anything about the conversation we had on that night?

“He just thanked me for raising such a good son.”

Something hard hits my chest. How could he say that when I did nothing but disappointing him ever since I got married to his daughter?

“He also apologized to me... He also said your wedding with Jiyeon shouldn’t have happened in the first place. He regrets it. He just wanted his daughter to be happy.” My father’s voice cracked.

My heart broke that instance.

“W-What?”

“I was surprised too when he told me that. I-I’m sorry, Wonho… I know it’s tough for you when Attorney Kim and I decided to marry you two off but I’m sure you can turn to love Jiyeon. She’s a lovely girl. It hasn’t even been a year… Both of you just need time. That’s what I told him in return.” He said and turn to look at the