#np Jooyoung's N/A

2019

An odd feeling hit me when I recall back our high school times. Thinking that she was holding a special feeling towards me during those whiles, I start to feel guilty all over again. Her liking me… That thought have never crossed my mind, not one bit.

Now, I’m sure she must’ve hated me so much. I’ve hurt her countless times since we’ve known each other, and I can’t blame her. When I suggested for a divorce, I thought it was the best solution for both of us. I couldn’t see her face clearly when she agreed to it but when I kneeled down to meet her eyes, I noticed her eyes were red. Tears pooled in her eyes yet again.

There was sadness all over.

She always cried since we got married, I did nothing but hurt her.

Maybe this is the best.

“What do you want, Wonho-ssi?”

That question... That time, when I try to think of an answer, I stopped.

It’s because I also don’t know what I really want.

For now, I have to admit that my heart is finally at peace. Seeing her smile when she looked at me, I feel happy.

Maybe that’s what I really want.

The sound of roaring thunder snaps me from my little daydream. My gaze roams around the huge area, trying to search for her figure. There she is, still snapping pictures like she always loves to do. Again, the thunder claps from the distance that I hastily call her name.

“One moment!”

“It’s going to rain, Bona…!” I utter, having my hands on my waist.

I let out a tiny sigh when she ignored me and turn her attention back to the view before her. A drop of rain suddenly fell on my cheek that I look up to the dark skies above me.

Soon, it starts to pour.

Bona is the first thing that came into my mind. She can’t get sick. I immediately rush towards her and pull her to the nearby shelter. I didn’t bring any umbrella today, what a disaster…

Sighing, I turn my attention to Bona who is busy brushing the rain off of her sleeves. It poured so heavily out of the blue that she’s already soaked wet.

“It’s raining quite frequently here... Is it rainy season?” She utters while huffing.

“I told you, Bona. We should got back to the hotel earlier.”

Her face is wet. Without much thought, I gently grab a hold onto her shoulders and push her petite body to lean onto the walls beside her. I have to keep her dry in any way…

“Look, you’re all wet… You’re going to get sick.”

I pull her chin up and brush the raindrops off of her wet face with my already wet sleeves. My feet impulsively take steps closer towards her, all I need to know that she can’t get sick no matter what.

But as I inch closer, I abruptly stop at the sight of her face which is so close to mine.

Bona is having her eyes down. I just notice… Her eyelashes, they are long and so pretty... Her porcelain skin appears flawless even at this distance… My sight then moves down to her nose and then to her pink lips.

Suddenly, the memory of the night when I kissed her flashed through my mind.

Even though that night was hazy, the kiss was still vivid in my mind. It tasted sweet, like honey, so soft, so addicting… I thought I felt that way because I was drunk at the time but now I’m curious.

How would it feel to kiss her now?

The rain falls harder, her minty breaths that hits my face is getting more rapid, it’s like I’m losing my sanity if this goes on. The temptation to kiss her right now is so great that I can’t hold it in anymore. I want to feel her lips on mine again.

And so I did it.

Yes, it’s as I remembered… Her lips feel so soft, so sweet. Heck, it is million times better than that night in her room. Just when I can feel her hands on my neck, the sound of footsteps coming towards us shook me from this dream that I immediately pull back and turn my back on her.

It turns out that a couple of people came for shelter as well.

I catch my breath and bring my palm to my face, still back facing her.

It’s still raining heavily.

What just happened?

***

We didn’t utter