-slight angst-

Cue: "Not all love story will have a happy ending."

Naeun ah,

How are you today?

You are doing good right?

Can I be assured that you do?

Because I don’t know if you really do.

I didn’t hear anything from you.

But I wish you are.

Because that will make me feels at ease.

But honestly, will I?

My Naeun,

I watch the way you smiled again today.

It’s still the same like how I remembered you will.

I smile unconsciously.

You never fail to make me.

But now my smile is getting more fake as time pass.

How do I make it sincere?

How do I smile sincerely like before Naeun ah?

How?

Naeun ah,

Why do you need to leave?

I still can’t get use to live without you.

You are always there.

Always the first thing for me.

When I wake up, the first thing I see is you.

When I ate, the face that always make my appetite grows is you.

When I have a hard time at work, the face that greets me with a lovely smile is you.

When I was about to sleep, you will give me your warmth so that I can sleep peacefully.

You did know I lose my insomnia after you exist in my life right?

You did know I became more successful when you become the inspiration for my work right?

You know all of that right?

Then now

How do you expect that I can live without you?

How do you expect that I went through the tough and hard road when you are not in the picture?

How do you expect I can stood like I used to when you left?

How do you expect me to do that?

How?

Naeun ah,

You know my friends right?

My friends; they often ask the same question when they see me.

They ask, if I’m okay.

I said that I am so that they won’t blame you.

But no matter how much I pretend to be okay, I can easily be caught; that I’m not okay at all.

Nothing is okay with me.

Not even a scratch.

And they will eventually know that it’s all you that I need.

Especially Sehunnie.

He knows me too much.

But not as much as you know me.

No one knows me better than you do.

Because you are the one who makes me found my true self.

It’s you Naeun ah.

It’s always you.

Naeun ah,

I know life is a drama and we all are the actors.

Nothing last long.

Not you, not me, not anyone or anything.

But I’m greedy.

I’m greedy when it comes to you.

I want to keep having you with me; by my side.

I want you to always smile back at me whenever I say something.

I want to listen to your cute nagging whenever I did not eat my lunch if I have to work over my break time.

I still want to hear your whining when I ask you to change your favorite black dress to something light colored.

I still want to see your blushing face whenever I praise you.

I want to keep holding your hand as we go strolling.

I still want to hug you to sleep.

I still want to taste your sweetness.

I still want to feel all of you on my skin.

I want to feel your smooth hair brushing on my face.

I want to feel your hand on my cheek, caressing it softly when you coax me.

I want to listen to your wonderful voice, advised me to go back to see my family.

I want to see you smiling happily whenever I told you about my niece.

Naeun ah,

Do you still remember?

You will always say that babies are the most wonderful creature ever.

You always said that you wanted to become a mother to my children.

I still remember how your face will turns to a frown when you have your monthly menstruation.

And you will become bright again when I hug you and said that we will get the good news that we want to soon.

And we did got the news that you are waiting for months.

You are the happiest when we learnt that your insomnia is because of our baby.

You had been through morning sickness but you will keep smiling.

You said that its okay since it’s ours.

You will endure it even if you have to bear 5 of our children.

But do you know that you are a liar?

You said all those things.

You gave me hopes.

You make me feel greedy.

That I will have you till my last breath.

That you won’t leave me before I feel sick of you.

Which I will always said that it will never happen.

Then why Naeun ah?

Why are you leaving me now?

After all the things we had been through?

Do you really have to do this?

Leaving me all alone?

Without any of your scent that will linger on our bed, our house?

And why do you leave with our baby too?

The baby that will complete us you said.

What will happen to me now?

What will happen to Kim Jongin?

The Kim Jongin that you love?

I am lonely Naeun ah.

No one can replace you.

I can’t live without you Naeun ah.

I can’t imagine how I am going to live my life now.

I had become attached to you.

Too attached to you that I can’t do anything on my own now.

What do I do when you suddenly leave me like this?

Without saying anything?

Can’t you come back to me again Naeun ah?

Where did I do wrong?

Tell me so that I can correct it.

Then when I had corrected it, you can come back to me.

But not like it can be done right?

Because you won’t be able to come back to me ever again.

You leave for good.

You leave for the better place.

Along with our angel.

I want to smile today.

But I failed miserably.

It hurts Naeun ah.

It really hurts.

My heart aches.

It pains a lot.

It seems like it bleeds every day.

Every single day.

You know that only you can cure it.

Only you, my Naeun.

But what do I do?

I need to continue to live my life.

It’s not yet my time to go.

It’s not yet my time to join you there.

I’ll try my best Naeun ah.

I’ll try my best to smile even if it hurts.

Thank you for living for me all this time.

I will always love you.

Your love,

Jongin.

With hunched back, Kai left the memorial park with the bouquet that he brought along yesterday. He comes every day to meet his wife, who he loves so dearly, Son Naeun.

Their love story had comes to an end when Naeun died during her labor but Kai’s love for her will remain till the last breath of his life.

I did post this before but somehow I deleted it.

I’ll just keep it here with the other one-shot since I took long time to update the "Reset-Sequel".

Thank you for reading.

Love you guys!