I wake up two hours before my alarm on Sunday morning, to sleep six hours is still pretty nice so when I wake up after six hours of sleep I am out of bed without hesitation. I feel awake and refresh, and when going through the day’s schedule by myself, I am nodding as if telling myself “no worries”. Sunday morning; I got Inkigayo around two, rehearsal and saloon visit before that, and then I am taking off to Japan where my members will be. Emelia is already there, Julia and Carolina are going now in the morning and Maria is flying in from America, and we will be recording some music together. Tonight the third episode of Good Sister Season 2 will air as well, which I will probably watch tomorrow or sometime when I’m not in Japan. I walk around at home without being in a hurry since I woke up early. I am stuck with my phone, I am looking through reactions from yesterday’s performances, I check up on Min Na who hurt her ankle yesterday, and though she won’t perform with us today she will be back in a few days so her injury wasn’t serious, then I have SNSD’s Tiffany who had called me last night but I was asleep so I text her to ask what it is, and pretty boy Kyungho is already awake asking when I will be at SBS. It’s Sunday, he doesn’t have a schedule or school today, so he wants to come visit me backstage, just to hang out a bit. I am a bit worried though; Jonghyun will be there, and Kyungho doesn’t know about us. Maybe I will have to tell him… The bag to Japan is light and simple, we are staying the night to continue recording in the morning but tomorrow I have fan-signings in Busan and Daegu, so tomorrow afternoon I will be back in Korea. And with the thought of being at the airport (airport fashion) I loose interest in getting dressed this morning as I have no interest in dressing up for that; and I am not like other idols bringing a bunch of clothes just to change several times a day. For me it is the outfit I wear in the morning when leaving home is also the outfit I will put on after Inkigayo, when I am heading to Japan. In black Nike sneakers that I think is a present from fans because it has my initial inside, black socks, I put on a long hooded pullover dress in grey, and it is the cosiest thing to wear as it goes below my knees and the fabric is warm, soft, and I can hide myself in it as I bring a black faux-leather tote with me, a jacket and cell phone in hand. In the bag I have a new set of clothes, a tablet, writing equipment and some other necessities that I always bring with me abroad. I have a bottle of water with me too and a small bag of well-cut fruits that I have prepared as a snack for myself. Before leaving home I am planting kisses on Tiger and Ace, and I pat Milo some too, leaving only when Manager Lee arrives. We head to the saloon first, where I get hair and makeup done, before we head to SBS for Inkigayo, in the van then also makeup stylist Chae Hwan and clothing stylist Sung Hyo have joined us. “Your agent keeps contacting me,” Manager Lee mentions. It is Manager Park who is driving today, the one who has been around us in silence recently. Manager Lee is sitting on the passenger seat, turning around to look at me sitting behind the driver’s seat while my stylists are in the back; I think Chae Hwan is trying to sleep while Sung Hyo is texting or playing a game on her phone. I feel a bit lost in thoughts today, I don’t really know what it is, I just feel a bit lost in thoughts but I look at my manager when he talks to me, I quietly wait for him to continue. “She wants a meeting for the third book,” he continues. I am an author. I have two books published, a fantasy novel named ‘Joe’ that I honestly haven’t been focusing on a lot lately. We met almost a month ago talking about the third book that we have planned to come out with this year, I can’t even remember what we ended up deciding on. “What should the meeting be about?” “I have to call the agency first,” Manager Lee answers. “I received a mail the other day, which I haven’t told you about, but … um… we have been going through 5 Pieces’ schedule for 2015 and we need to have a meeting with your publisher about it.” “About what?” I say, slightly frowning as I notice he is avoiding going straight to the point. “All you need to know is that if your agent calls you; tell her I will contact her tomorrow, alright?” Manager Lee tells me and he doesn’t stop staring at me until I nod in agreement. “Do you know what she wants to talk about?” I wonder. “The book,” Manager Lee answers. “Probably the publishing of it as it’s already mid-February now. She hasn’t called you?” “She has been calling you today, on a Sunday?” I ask with a grimace as that rarely happens. “Um, no, she has been mailing me. Tomorrow I’ll call her.” “What will you say to her then, tomorrow?” I mumble, trying to slink through to what he doesn’t want to tell me. Manager Lee looks out the window and I think he won’t answer my question at first but then he glances at Manager Park before looking at me, in a serious tone saying; “Here’s what SM is saying; you got your promotions with NEW ME right now, yes?” “Yes.” “You got summer promotions in Japan being scheduled right now, probably single + album + arena tour all done before summer ends,” he continues to say and I nod as I have heard those plans. “After summer, WORLD INVASION will begin, right? Your world tour.” “I know that, so?” “When is a good time to publish the book?” Manager Lee asks me. “Two years ago it was planned to publish it in April. Now, that’s not going to happen.” Slowly, very slowly, I understand where he wants to go with this and it makes me groan tiredly and loudly, leaning my head back and I almost start rubbing my eyes before remembering I am wearing makeup. “Don’t panic, I didn’t want to tell you this when we don’t have come to a decision yet-” “SM wants to push back the publishing?” I ask him, leaning forward in my seat. “It’s been waiting for two years already.” “I know. That’s why I need to talk to everyone tomorrow, okay?” I lean back with a grunt and pout out the window for a few seconds. I don’t see what’s outside and under a minute I am holding on to my cell phone, texting Emelia to tell her the third book might be published next year. Like Emelia always is, she is fast at responding; with a phone call. It isn’t the best call because she is in Japan, but she wants to know what I am talking about. If there is a member in 5 Pieces who enjoys writing the way I do, it would be Emelia. We used to spend summer vacation on her porch writing our own fantasies and then exchange the writing pad to read each other’s. Emelia has given me a lot of help with the books as well, so there is no one I know better than Emelia to contact about the book. She had helped me create the story about Joe’s characters too. Talking to her in the van is annoying though because Manager Lee wants to correct my words, so I talk in Swedish instead for no one in the van to understand me. I don’t know what about my manager’s conclusion annoys me the most; that the book is pushed back, that readers will be disappointed to wait three years when I have said the next book will come out in 2015 – is it a disappointment for myself or for the readers, in my point of view, what is the core to my annoyance? According to Emelia, she says we won’t need to promote it with a worldwide tour of interviews and book signings; all we need to do is give it to the patiently waiting readers. I like that idea, I would love to meet readers of my books because when I have met readers before it has always been exciting, but between that and waiting a year, I do not want to wait a year. After letting out our feelings about the book, Emelia has to go as she has a song to record in Japan and I instead give a call to Kyungho as we have arrived at SBS. I am wearing my jacket when getting out of the car, I bring my bag with me too and with phone by my ear I hear Kyungho answer the call at the same time as some fans from a distance calls out “HANNAH!” to get my attention. “Kyungho?” I ask in the phone and lift my hand up to wave to those in a distance. “Nuna, are you at SBS yet?” “I just arrived. Where are you? Are you taking a taxi?” I ask. I had wanted to go pick him up, but Manager Lee said we don’t have time. “He-he, Nuna, I’m already here. I’m in Jonghyun Hyung’s room.” “Oh…” Kim Jonghyun. The fans outside SBS are for some reason very wild, they are cheering me on happily and wishing for me to do well today so I am waving and giving them the thumbs up while heading inside, for my fans to know I will do my best at today’s performance. “Can’t you call the agency today?” I ask Manager Lee when we are inside. I can’t stop thinking of the book. “It’s Sunday, the agency is pretty empty today.” “Can’t I call my agent then?” I wonder, looking up at him. “If she is desperate to talk, can’t I-” “Not on Sunday,” Manager Lee sighs. “Can you please just focus on Inkigayo now, Hannah?” “What about the lyrics for [Girls Power] then? When will I get them?” I ask, changing the subject to the recording we will do in Japan. Manager Lee waves his hand, telling me he will fix it. On the way to my room we pass by Jonghyun’s room, and I look inside as the door is open to smile at Kyungho sitting on a chair with Jonghyun sitting on the low table in front of him, I’m not sure if they are playing a game or laughing at a picture they have taken on the tablet Kyungho is holding but they are laughing and looking happy. It is Jonghyun’s manager who sees me and I quietly give him a bow. He doesn’t say anything, but walks over to me to slink out the room and it is Manager Lee he talks to. “Nuna!” Kyungho shines up at the sight of me and I give him a wave. “Are you having fun?” “Yes! I was showing Hyung the hilarious photo app,” Kyungho says and he leaves his seat to come up to me, showing the picture of Kyungho and Jonghyun that they are playing around with on the app. “Kyungho has a talent with taking pictures,” Jonghyun jokes, standing up too. The picture they have taken is horrible though, you can’t even recognize them as the picture is taken from below and they are making grimaces. The look I give Jonghyun must be a quite funny look because he starts smiling as if he is going to start laughing. Or he knows I take notice of the way he looks; his hair is styled back, it moves lightly to each move me makes and it is heavenly to see. Just by seeing his hair I know he is going for a rock performance today; it suits him, really well. Before things get awkward with me enjoying the view and Jonghyun holding in his laughter looking at me, my phone starts ringing. On the display it is my agent, and I glance over my shoulder to see my manager talk with Jonghyun’s manager. “Hello my lovely agent Jon Mae Ri,” I answer the call with a big smile, leaning against the doorframe to see Manager Lee turn around right away. “Well hello, Hannah, my sweet, sweet fantasy creator, is it a bad timing?” “Oh no, no, I have rehearsals in some time but I have time to talk now, what’s up?” I ask and lean to the side when Manager Lee tries to take the phone. Kyungho looks down at his tablet and Jonghyun watches me, he looks curious, and I am just smiling because I know what my manager wants me to do. “I have tried to call your manager but I am not getting a response and I really need to talk to you.” “He has seen your mails but its Sunday and he said he will call you tomorrow,” I say and I keep removing Manager Lee’s hand as he wants to take my phone. “What’s the rush you want to talk about? Is there any faults in the story?” “Oh lord no, it is as perfect as it was last time we looked through it. What I am calling about is the translation of the third book. There is such popularity growing of your book, Hannah, because of 5 Pieces being more noticed around the world. A few hundred more books have been requested in just England, it’s beautiful, child, don’t you think? I hope you are preparing to go on a world tour to promote the book later.” “Aah… about that… my manager wants to talk to you about that, because he thinks I am too busy this year to even release the book-” I am saying when Manager Lee’s expression is piercing through me and I end up saying he wants to talk to her. With the phone being given to Manager Lee, I put my hand on Kyungho’s shoulder. “Are you staying with Jonghyun or are you coming with me?” I ask him. “I’m coming…” he mutters and walks after my manager. He seems upset, only looking at his tablet. Did I interrupt his fun? “You’re having a busy year?” Jonghyun’s voice makes me glance up. He is standing almost in front of me, leaning against the other doorframe, but my focus was only on the back of Kyungho as he walks to my room two doors away. I glance back at Kyungho when he walks inside the room and I sigh. “We’re having two tours.” “Two? Not just the world tour?” Jonghyun looks surprised. I look at him in silence for a few seconds, just because I can, just because I want to. “We got an arena tour in Japan over the summer too, before the world tour begins,” I answer and then I give a nod over at my roo