Sehun

"Dude, what the hell?" Luhan asked as soon as Sehun opened the door, bursting into his apartment and plopping down on his couch.

"I'm guessing Eunji told you everything already," Sehun mumbled.

"Yeah, and you better have a damn good defense why you did what you did." Luhan glared at him. Sehun knew that he messed up. He already knew that before Luhan came, but Luhan's anger emphasized it. Luhan had never been this mad at Sehun.

"The worst part is, I don't." Sehun looked down and away from his friend. "I was just so into saving my own skin that I didn't stop to think what I was saying."

"But why?" Luhan asked. "Why did you feel the need to lie?"

"I thought that it would be best. I didn't know that Kai had drugged me, so I didn't have a good reason for her to believe me that I didn't mean to cheat," Sehun insisted.

"But then why did you turn it on Eunji? Why did you get mad at her for me going to check on you?" Luhan questioned.

"I felt a little betrayed because I thought she didn't trust me," Sehun admitted, "and in the moment I was deep in self preservation mode that I just took that slight betrayal and turned it into something bigger than what it was. I was scared."

"That still doesn't excuse you from what you did." Luhan shook his head.

"You think I don't know that?" Sehun raised his voice a little. "It's killing me what I did. I wish I could go back and change everything, but I can't. I love Eunji, and I've never loved anyone before. I don't want to lose her. I'm willing to do anything to win her back."

"She's not a prize to be won," Luhan said, "you don't win her back, you have to earn her back."

"I know," Sehun sighed.

Sehun looked down at his hands in his lap. He knew that everything that could have gone wrong did, and now he was paying the price. All he wanted was to save their relationship, but he ended up destroying it. He had been so engrossed in his fear of Eunji leaving him that he himself pushed her away. Ever since their breakup two days ago, all he could think about was Eunji and what he could have done differently. His accusing words haunted him and kept him up at night. It felt so sad in his apartment, alone. He was so used to staying at Eunji's apartment, sleeeping beside her, that he felt