Entry 34

A Blog of a Hopeless Person

5/16

Things have gotten worse. I-I don’t know how to explain the pain, the sorrow, the fear that I’m holding as I press down keys to write this.

Just….this never should have happen. Why was I a fool….how did it turn out like this…

Everything is an endless spiral of pain and longing and I can’t take any more of it. Eli and Kibum have been knowing and have been writing, they found my only hiding place and I really never had another place to go. Dongho left me without saying goodbye and acts as if I have always been a problem. Yejun and Kevin both left me in my greatest time of need because I’m worthless. I keep on seeing that over and over again but I’m just too stupid to not see it. Have I always been this stupid! This slow!

Why keep hurting me?!!!!! You could have all just leave me and hurt me and killed me the first time you landed eyes on me but not that wasn’t how you wanted to play this stupid game! You all just wanted to see how far I could go and guess what!!!

I’m done, Im so very done. I can't live like this! I can’t stand being weak like this every ing day!!! So you all! I hate every last one of you for leaving and making me helpless but you all still acted that you cared!

I hope you all go to hell and never get to see the light of day! I didn’t need this bull but yet that's what I got!!

 
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jackytomboy96
I have the biggest writers block, I have three more chapters before getting to the one I'm stuck on.
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Taekaiful111 #1
I love this ❤
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #2
Chapter 28: ;_; Whyyy? ._.
I hope Kiseop doesn't do anything to himself...
Thanks for updating ^^
aiag08 #3
Chapter 27: aww no, poor Kiseoppie ㅠㅠ
Thank you for updating <3
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #4
Chapter 27: I feel so sorry for Kiseop, he's been doing better then this happens ;_; At least you'll update soon ^.^
Why are Eli and Kibum such ._. Just stahp.
Thank you for updating~!
aiag08 #5
Chapter 26: I like how Kiseop has improved :)

And about the updates, twice a week would be great!
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #6
Chapter 26: Updates twice a week would be great *u*
It's interesting to see the changes that Kiseop has been going through with the help of Kevin and Yejun.
Thank you for the update~!
kpoplover1618 #7
Chapter 26: NIce update!
aiag08 #8
Chapter 25: So cute, finally a VinSeop moment <3
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #9
Chapter 25: That's the problem with friends. If you have more than one you can't keep them equally happy without them being jealous of one another and then having to apologize for nothing. That's why I'm happy that I only have one friend. It really saves a whole lot of trouble.
StillMeadows #10
Chapter 21: I like how you portray Soohyun as a therapist. People seem to think that since they're helping others that they're nice and kind. But the reality is, even if most may have good intentions, they say like that, mock you, look down on you, and are just basically major ing s. You're lucky if you get a therapist that's not like that at all. And I wish people could see that.
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