School

A Blog of a Hopeless Person

5/13

I been going to school by force but the amount of pills I been drinking for the past two days hasn’t affected me. I’m mad. I thought overdose was easy to accomplish but I guess I was wrong or I’m just not taken the right amount yet. I don’t know what is keeping me alive...

 

Yejun hasn’t talk to me for two day...So I guess Yejun really doesn’t give a about me. I’m sure all of those words of comfort where all a ing lie. He didn’t care about me, I believed he was going to be there for me but I guess I was stupid for believe that someone will care about me. I’m sure he is happy that I’m not around anymore..I’m sure he wishes I was dead too so he wouldn’t have to see me ever again.

 

Kevin just gives me a sad smile but moves forward...he gave up one me...nice...I’m sure he knows what happened and he just can’t deal with taking care of me. I wouldn’t blame him..I mean come on. I keep getting ed up by just existing and I‘m sure he is done with taking care of my sorry .

Then the worse thing I see was Dongho laughing with Kibum and Eli. Dongho notice I was looking his way and gave me mocking smirk, …

Thoughts like “Does that mean that he also know of the twisted things they did to me? Did he ing plan this ! Was it all because I stopped talking to him? , , ..” where all that I had. I was scared to move once again.

I couldn’t look up from my plate when I felt all three move by my table and thats when I heard him say “”; I forgot to breath. I had the worst panic attack in my life, people didn’t even try to help. It was as if I was invisible or this is what it feels like to be dead. Not having eyes on you when everyone else lives their happy life.

I out for an hour and when I woke up I hadn’t move from the cafeteria...no one really cares about the boy who is dead.  

To be honest it’s sad that this happens to me, even now that I know Dongho had a part of this then it’s easy to say that my life is going to be worse. Dongho knows all of my secrets and I ing hate myself for relying on people. This is what I get….

I can’t continue with living with this….I think I’m close….

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I have the biggest writers block, I have three more chapters before getting to the one I'm stuck on.
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Taekaiful111 #1
I love this ❤
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #2
Chapter 28: ;_; Whyyy? ._.
I hope Kiseop doesn't do anything to himself...
Thanks for updating ^^
aiag08 #3
Chapter 27: aww no, poor Kiseoppie ㅠㅠ
Thank you for updating <3
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #4
Chapter 27: I feel so sorry for Kiseop, he's been doing better then this happens ;_; At least you'll update soon ^.^
Why are Eli and Kibum such ._. Just stahp.
Thank you for updating~!
aiag08 #5
Chapter 26: I like how Kiseop has improved :)

And about the updates, twice a week would be great!
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #6
Chapter 26: Updates twice a week would be great *u*
It's interesting to see the changes that Kiseop has been going through with the help of Kevin and Yejun.
Thank you for the update~!
kpoplover1618 #7
Chapter 26: NIce update!
aiag08 #8
Chapter 25: So cute, finally a VinSeop moment <3
Kyungsoos_yoghurt #9
Chapter 25: That's the problem with friends. If you have more than one you can't keep them equally happy without them being jealous of one another and then having to apologize for nothing. That's why I'm happy that I only have one friend. It really saves a whole lot of trouble.
StillMeadows #10
Chapter 21: I like how you portray Soohyun as a therapist. People seem to think that since they're helping others that they're nice and kind. But the reality is, even if most may have good intentions, they say like that, mock you, look down on you, and are just basically major ing s. You're lucky if you get a therapist that's not like that at all. And I wish people could see that.
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