Yoseob’s POV

I pull the handbrake of my car. I turn my gaze towards the windy, calming beach. Unbuckled the seat belt, I let myself out of the car, following my legs and

approached the beach. Families were spending their precious time together, couples are happily playing with each other….and I, here, alone.

I exhale a deep sigh. Eyes start to tear, hearts starts to aches, brain starts to suffer. My minds keep thinking of Sooyoung and our future. Huh..Future…do we

even have a future together? I don’t see that coming. Will we, are going to be separated someday?

The tears that I can’t hold anymore finally flow down both of my cheeks. Why? Why am I being torture like this? I can’t help but to sigh, again.The cold night

come and greet me, asking me to go home.

-a week later-

I’m going to have a lunch with Sooyoung today. If I keep thinking about the hard-to-cure disease of my eyes, it’s still going to be worse. There’s nothing to worth

for. I decided to live my life to the fullest before I can’t do anything that can satisfy me.

I drove my car from the office, pass the traffic jam, and went to Sooyoung school, pick her up and went to have a lunch together.

After having a light chit chatting while filling our growling stomach up, I have to go back to the office since I work for office hour.

“So how about you?” I asked Sooyoung

“I will just go home” she replied short.

“Then, let me send you home…”

She shook her head saying that she can go by taxi and I don’t need to worry for her. Though I still worried but I try to believe in her. She’s my wife anyway.

I nodded slowly and put her in my embrace and kiss her on the cheek. Whispering ‘I love you’ , I went into the car and drove off. I peek at the side mirror and saw

her watching my car going distant and distant.

“Sooyoung ah, how will you react if one day, I can’t drive anymore? I can’t send you to school, pick you up, go for lunch, I can never do such thing anymore, and

how will you react?”

The ringing of my phone interrupts my train of thought. I peek at the caller, it was Chaewon Noona. i pick up the phone,

 Yoseob-ah, where are you?”

“I’m in the car. Why?”

“Good… come and pick me up... I’m at the usual café”

“But I need to go back at my office now”

“Yaa!! Did you forget about today?”

‘Today? Is today some important day?’

“Today? What?”

“You promise to meet me today…”

Meet? Ah, for the further check-up for my eyes.

“Aaa… now I remember. Okay, I’ll pick you up”

“Arasso. Palli…palli…” she end up the call and I make a u-turn and drove to the café she mentioned.

(…)

-In the car-

As I was talking with nuna, a call coming and it was from Sooyoung. What? Did she miss me already?  With that thought lingering in my mind, I pick up the

phone,

“Sooyoung-ah…”

“Yoseobie, where are you?”

‘why suddenly, she asked this? Did she know where I’m going?’

“I… I’m at the office. What’s wrong?”

“No. Nothing” with that, she ended the call. Feeling of weird start to surround me, I stare at the phone, ‘why did she call actually?’

“Why?”  I looked at Chaewon nuna that asked me with confused face. “What did Sooyoung said?”

“Ah, umm….no...nothing.” I shook my head and speed up the car to the hospital.

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After hours of check-ups, I drove my car home.  In my way, what Chaewon nuna said just can’t get out of my mind.

“Based on the result, your eyes condition has been worse than before.  You will slowly experience a lot of that black out things..”

“ strong headache…”

“ and your vision will get blurry from time to time”

I stopped the car. Tears are threating to fall.

Why? Why of all people in this world, it must be me? Why? Why these diseases choose me? Why I have to be blind some day? What will happen to Sooyoung

then? We just want to start a family together. We just want to gain happiness together. Why? Why? Why it must be me? This is just too cruel.

I lay my head on the steering wheel, letting the tears flowing down.

(…)

I reached home, opened the door and was greeted with a standing Sooyoung. I throw a looked at her,

 “Yoseob-ah, I want to talk about something…” she said.

Aah, I really not in mood.

“Talk? Maybe later…okay. I don’t feel good right now…”  I pitched my spinning head.

“But, it’s abou…”

“later, okay?”  I cut her words and went straight to the bedroom. I’m sorry Sooyoung ah, but I still don’t think I can face you now.

I lay on the bed without even changing my clothes, I just want to sleep. I’m….i’m just  tired

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Update.

i'm sorry, i think i have TOO MANY grammatical error. *you can laugh*

is it too plain? i think so, well, i don't know how to make dramatic sentences that surely make your eyes swollen. but it's okay than nothing right.

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