“Go Karam. Go to him. To your brother.”

“Seungho…”

“I have talked to your Daddy Jae. He agreed with me.”

Karam wanted to answer something to him, to say something, but words completely escaped him. He just stood there, looking in Seungho's eyes as he continued.

"And it's because I love you that... I can't be selfish with you. And why I have to tell this. I don't deserve you... but your brother does." his voice was husky. He was so vulnerable in that moment, Karam could see right into his soul. Seungho planted soft kiss on his forehead. His gaze sad but achingly full of love, he quietly said, "its okay Karam…I'm not angry. I always knew where your heart really was. I never should have asked you to make a choice…there never was a choice to make." He sighed and looked down to the floor. "I should have left ages ago. I was just…being selfish."

Karam gaped at him disbelieving. He thought he was being selfish? Here, he was the one literally shuffling between the two men but Seungho said he was selfish? "I think you give new meaning to the word Seungho."

Seungho smiled a little when he looked back up at Karam and then his face got serious again. “I’m not happy and you aren’t either, it just makes no sense to stick together and get angry with each other all the time. …But that doesn’t mean that I abandon you. I will always be here for you, Karam, always. If you need me, I’ll be here ok? …And also when you don’t need me anymore, and when I’m getting on your nerves, then I won't be here. But I’m still a big part of your life. …I know this doesn’t sound very satisfying…”

"Seungho,..."

"I thought you were my happily ever after." Seungho said, the ghost of a bitter smile beneath his silent tears. "God, I wish you didn't have to forget this. But I know you will eventually. Time will erase memories." There were so much sorrow and heart break in those words as he Karam's cheek.

Karam wanted to hug Seungho, never let go and tell him that everything will be okay. But he can't move. It really does break his heart.

Seungho could feel his eyes starting to dampen heavily as he listened to Karam speak. "I am selfish Seungho. I'll admit that. But I will never let you believe I didn't love you. I really need you to know that. And I meant it that I love you." Karam trailed off.

Seungho was tempted. He wanted to just cry, or kiss Karam senseless, but this was what he had to do. He had no place in Karam's future, no matter how hard it hurt him to admit it. It was true and this was the right thing to do.

"You'll get through this, Karam. You're going to make it, and when you do, you won't remember me. I'll always remember you, though. Maybe one day, I'll be able to sit back and smile and say to myself 'he loved you once. Jung Karam love you once' and that'll be enough, just knowing I let you go for a reason." He reached a hand into his pants pocket and grabbed something. Holding his fist out to Karam, he gently pried open Karam's hand with his other hand. Very slowly he opened his fist and placed something in Karam's palm.

Through his blurry vision Karam looked at what Seungho had given him. It was his necklace. Karam inhaled sharply and couldn't speak, his hand started to shake.

"You dropped this in my house that day when you're fighting not to let your brother kill me." Seungho smiled as he continued. "You don't have to wear it…I'll understand. I just wanted you to have something to remember me by." He looked at Karam sadly. "I didn't want you to forget me…I'll never forget you. I love you, you hear me? I’ll always love you, Karam and nothing can change that." He cocked his head to the side and gazed at Karam's tear streaked face. ”Don’t fight the tears. Let them go. It will make you feel better, I promise."

As instantly a rivers of tears running on Karam's cheeks.

Now that time had come, and Karam was prepared for it, yet he knew it had to happen. As he stared up into Seungho's eyes, Seungho slowly lifted a hand and placed it on Karam's cheek. Karam's eyes closed and he tilted his head to nuzzle into Seungho's palm. Karam felt Seungho's body inching towards him and inhaled deeply as their lips connected.

Compared to other kisses Karam had shared with Seungho, this kiss could be described as fairly sw