Chapter 19

I lied... I love you
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Changmin looked into his brother's eyes. He squeezed Karam's hand gently and kissed the bridge of his nose and caressed his cheek lightly.  "Are you sure about this, hyung?"

Karam looked up at him with innocent eyes and rosy cheeks. "Please kiss hyung more… hyung want to know that you're really here…that it's not some crazy wicked dream.” Slowly he closed his eyes shut.

Changming felt that warm feeling return, but only this time it wasn't because of what his brother said…but it was of a form of positive energy…love.

When Karam had closed his eyes, Changmin began to lean towards him, drawing closer and closer to his face, before pressing his own lips against his in a gentle kiss. No tongue, no rush. Just a simple kiss. He took his sweet time and started to kiss around his brother’s tender neck and muzzle, making him moan softly. His brother was intoxicating, and so unique. There was no other person like him, and Changmin was sure that he was his one true love. When Changmin broke away, leaving both him and Karam little breathless.

“Baby.” Karam called softly.

“Mmm…” Changmin stopped his kiss and looked at his brother.

"Make love to hyung…" Karam said, kissing him on the lips.

Their mouths broke apart in a momentary gasp for breath, both of their hearts racing, foreheads resting against each other, savoring the closeness to the person they wanted the most. Both stared into each other's eyes for what seemed like an eternity.

“You want me, hyung?”

"Yes, yes. Definitely." Karam answered with an obviously false confidence. "Should we… go upstairs?"

"Let's go to your room." Changmin answered quietly.

Karam walked toward the stairs, Changmin following close behind. The only sound in the house was the sound of their footsteps to the bedroom, which was followed by the faint sound of the bedroom door shutting. Karam stepped close to Changmin and placed his hands on Changmin's hips before leaning in to kiss him softly. Changmin's eyes fluttered shut and his hands locked around Karam's neck. The kiss deepened and Karam let out a small whimper. The sound forced Changmin to pull away and look at Karam with dark, lustful eyes, "Bed. Now."

Karam nodded, his cheeks now flushed. He pulled them toward the bed, him falling on his back and Changmin lying on top of him. Changmin placed a small kiss on Karam's lips and began kissing down Karam's jaw, nibbling on his neck sweetly. Changmin fumbled with the top buttons on Karam's shirt. Karam closed his eyes and let Changmin work on his clothes, steadying his own breath and calming himself down.

Changmin finally slid off Karam's shirt and kissed his way back up Karam's torso. He took note of how shaky Karam's breath was, he knew his brother well enough to know that his brother was feeling anxious over this. He kissed his lips lightly and hovered above him, their lips nearly touching, suddenly he stopped. "Hyung, we don't have to do this. I’m sorry, I lost control."

"No. No. I really want to, baby I love you so much." Karam answered, his voice faltering slightly.

"I love you too, but just because you love me does'nt mean we have to do this. I’m so sorry." Changmin said, voice wavering, running his fingers in his hair.

Karam shook his head and insisted, "No. Don’t say sorry. Stop saying sorry. Hyung really want to." At that point, Karam decided to prove to how badly he wanted it. He rolled them over, straddling Changmin's hips and fumbling with the buttons on Changmin's shirt. He kissed his brother deeply as pulled the shirt off of him. Karam's fake confidence was now almost convincing enough to calm himself down.

“Hyung, are you sure, hyung? Are you sure you want to do this?” Changmin looked nervous.

Karam nodded but the question from Changmin's mouth actually made Karam more nervous too. He pulled away from Changmin and sighed deeply.

Changmin smiled at him and pulled up one of Karam's hands with his, intertwining their fingers. "I love you."

"I love you too." Karam whispered back. He lay down beside Changmin. “I'm sorry. Hyung just… this is crazy."

"Stop apologizing.” Changmin told him before quieting Karam with another kiss.

Karam pulled away and asked nervously, "Baby… are we… ready?"

"I don't… I don’t know if we are ready. I don’t think we should do this. This is just too fast.  I love you hyung not because of this. I love you for who you are. I love you because I love you. ”

Karam looked at Changmin with sad eyes, "Hyung just… I'm sorry, baby."

Changmin leaned up and kissed Karam's lips softly. "Hyung, its okay. It will be perfect when it happens, but I just have a feeling tonight's not the night."

Karam nodded.

"Can I still stay over?" Changmin asked hopefully.

"That sounds perfect," Karam answered, kissing Changmin 's nose.

Changmin rolled off Karam and lay on his side to look at him. Their noses were nearly touching and their legs were intertwined. They sat there in silence for a few beautiful moments, touching each other and taking in the presence of the other.

"I love you," Changmin finally said in the otherwise silent room.

"I love you too," Karam replied.

"Hyung, actually... I'm scared." Changmin said.

"Afraid of what?"  Karam asked, softly.

“Of falling for you. Of wanting you. When I know you would never be with me." he had a painful look in his eyes, it bordered with tired and powerless. Like he's not in control of his emotions.

“And why would you say that?" the corners of Karam's lips curved into a smile.

“Because you’re Jung Karam. Everyone knows you. You’re the heir of Jung Corp. And I'm Jung Changmin. I’m the heir of Jung Corp. We are brothers.” he shrugged.

Karam frowned. He took Changmin’s hands and placed it on his own cheeks. Changmin moved his hands slowly rubbing the soft skin

“So tell me, baby, do you really think that matters to you? Is that what you afraid in your life? To fall for a guy in a name of brother? We are not blood related." Karam tried to

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Almachunsa #1
Chapter 48: Gracias!! Al final no me gustó, todo fue ilógico, no había razón para este final tan cruel, JJ tan manipulador, su hijo CM pago por lo que YH le hizo en el pasado
Heenim_trash
#2
Chapter 48: Anyway, Am I a trash if I preferred that karam died in that car accident than going back to seungho? Well my username says it ??
Heenim_trash
#3
Chapter 48: Just drop by to say that Yamapi is my favorite character and I am thankful to him for taking care of minnie. I love how both of them share the same pain so I am grateful that changmin has a shoulder to lean on who really understands him.
Kim_DongJun
#4
Chapter 49: i dont hate the author or anyone in this story but what's the point of doing a sequel just to break min's heart....? like.... what? i came here for a minram 's story though???
purpleangel #5
Chapter 28: LOL. anyway, I'm a real Yunjae fan so yeah, I don't really like them ending up with other people. And I also tend not to like people who get in the way of them being together - which is why I only read Yunjae fics where they end up together.
purpleangel #6
Chapter 28: I'm kinda annoyed at Yamapi for acting so highly just because he's "helping". As if Yunho owes him the world for taking Changmin in. Jaejoong really should not have asked for Yamapi's help. It's not like Yunho forced Jaejoong to choose him. Jaejoong chose Yunho because he loved Yunho. Yamapi really should just accept that. Besides what Yunho said is true anyway, Yamapi really did hide Jaejoong and Changmin from him, and he also tried to take them away, so Yunho's distrust of him is founded and appropriate. and yet Yamapi is acting mighty because what? Jaejoong asked him first before he asked Yunho; which I do not like by the way; the right thing to do was really to tell Yunho before anyone else - because its what married people should do. Eh, really hope Yamapi cut ties with them seriously- it's like he's waiting around for Yunho to mess up just so he could take Jaejoong again.
Su_Elfiie #7
Chapter 49: Ugh, I kinda hate the ending, poor Changmin... And I feel Karam was too unclear about his feelings. Sometimes I felt he loved Changmin, but then he suddenly doesn't feel a thing anymore for him.
As for Seungho, well I'm not a great fan of him. During the whole story I didn't really feel that Karam loved him. He did keep saying he did, but I felt he really cared about Seungho more in a brotherly way than romantic. And to be truthful, I didn't really understand Seugho's love for Karam. He hasn't talked once to him and he's already in love ! Honestly, even if I didn't really like him he deserved a lot better that Karam.
To be honest I really felt bad and sorry for Karam in the beginning, I was kind of expecting him to be the sad one at the end, but in the end he broke Changmin and Seungho's hearts a dozen times.
And about his engagement, he was miserable the whole time, or at least not super into it. He's finally free, he's about to go and see Changing then, he suddenly changes his mind !! The ending is very incoherent. I feel as if the author rushed into it to quickly, or they suddenly changed their minds about the ending. Seriously ! I wouldn't even have minded that much about Karen and Seungho if it had been logical, but this, it was totally unexpected and not in a good way, it's irrealistic wich is a shame because I loved the prequel..
I know this is kind of harsh but I'm really sad I disappointed, I was so ready to read about Changmin and Karangasem, happy together... In overall, this is a well-written fic that I'm sure hundred of people love it but it's really not for me. I kinda which I had not wasted my time reading this and instead skipped to the last chapter like I almost did around chapter 20...
bluelegacy
#8
Chapter 48: I love the ending. Seungho deserves this happiness. Karam is the one with less heartache in my opinion because he already had somebody to lean on, either Seungho or Changmin. But, I really feel sorry for Changmin. He is the one hurting the most. Even though, this was just a fic, I could still feel the emotions the characters were going through. I love the way you narrated the story. Great job author <3
bluelegacy
#9
Chapter 45: They could have just tried a relationship if Karam loves both of them. That would've been awesome, right?
bluelegacy
#10
Chapter 39: This is so unfair to Changmin. This made me sad that I am crying oceans T_T