“You seemed very distracted this morning,” she commented.
So Rae slowly nodded before walking away. Once she disappeared out of sight, Donghae leaned back onto the couch and tossed the pillow over his face.
“Is he eating lunch in the cafeteria?” she wondered then shook her head. “You don’t need to think about that.”
Taking a seat at her desk she lightly slapped both sides of her cheek and exhaled. When she looked up she saw Donghae standing not too far away staring at her with a small frown. Straightening her back up she cleared .
“You’re back?” she asked.
“Yea…” he replied.
Victoria turned away from him and focused her attention on her computer to make it look like she’d returned a while ago.
“Your computer’s not on,” he pointed out.
“I know,” Victoria snapped before turning it on.
Had the room suddenly grown hotter? Or was it just her?
“Victoria,” he called.
“Not nervous, you can’t get nervous,” Victoria silently repeated to herself, “it can’t get any more awkward than this.”
“Your phone is ringing.” he told before walking pass her.
And when the clock struck 4 she left the office abruptly.
That evening as she sat in the theater with the large screen almost blinding her uncomfortably, Victoria found her mind cruising through another dimension. A friendship should be one where two people could talk to each other without feeling a sense of burden, it wasn’t one where two people were awkward and couldn’t speak to each other. So then why was she letting her relationship, which she called friendship, with Donghae become something like it?
“I’m heading out for a moment,” Victoria told Kyuhyun who was so deeply absorbed in the movie.
Sitting on the curb by the side of the theater Victoria glanced up toward the night sky shimmering like the ocean miles away. A wistful breeze brushed by her feet and suddenly she began to feel much lighter. Perhaps, she’d really felt stuffed sitting in a dark room. Or maybe it was just that lately her mind had been too easily clouded.
“You’re not coming back in?” Kyuhyun’s voice broke her train of thoughts.
She turned to see him taking a seat beside her.
“I was taking a breather.”
“What’d you need it for?”
Victoria shrugged, “I feel envious.”
“Envious of what?”
“That people who don’t have a home and can only eat 2 meals a day are living a better life than I am.”
“Is there something that you’re unhappy about?” Kyuhyun asked.
“It’s something they should be unhappy about because I have something they don’t have.”
“What’s that?”
“I have Cho Kyuhyun.” Victoria joked. “Come on, lets go back in.”
Walking into the theater she stopped halfway in the hallway and glanced at a couple debating over what snack they wanted. Turning away she entered the theater room silently and returned to her seat.
Tuesday she rode in her father’s car to work. Even though she’d been a hypocrite saying that she still wanted to be friends with him, she’d technically avoided him at all costs that day. Wednesday they held eye contact once but Victoria had been quick to break it off and pretended to look elsewhere. Just being in the same room with him now…was plain awkward.
Thursday night Victoria had planned to meet the Three Musketeers at the shelter and take them out for a meal, but her father had suddenly come home early.
“Where are you going?” he asked, his business bag still in his hand as he slipped his shoes off.
“No where…” Victoria lied.
He glanced at the casual outfit she’d changed into and said, “Go change into a dress and come back down.”
There wasn’t a moment she’d recalled that her father had insisted on taking her out. Was there some kind of event that night? Or did he have something else in mind? If none of those were an option then perhaps he just didn’t like the sight of her in such normal clothes.
“Why?” Victoria questioned.
“Hurry up, we don’t have time.”
He ushered her up the stairs. Unable to say anything against him she walked up the steps and retreated to her room walking out with the first dress she’d gotten her hands on.
“Is there something going on tonight, father?” wondered Victoria.
“We’re due for a meal,” her father answered adjusting his jacket.
“Where?”
“The Cho’s.”
***Next chapter, Victoria will start to feel more burdened :/
***I woke up in an ok mood. After logging onto Tumblr then watching Suju's last performance with Heechul just broke my heart. Poor Teukie was crying so hard, I bet he must be having the hardest time. Even Heechul said that Leeteuk is very tired right now =( I hope he doesn't become emotionally and physically exhausted. Our poor leader works so hard. Today Leeteuk tweeted, “I tried to be patient but this is too hard… Really.. Very.. I feel like my body’s about to break into nothingness. I think it’s telling me I should die“.
***I know Heechul will come back safe and well. Sometimes I want to cry, but I remind myself that he's not leaving the group, it's only a temporarily moment in which he'll be absent. 2 years have gone by really quickly while we waited for Kangin so the next 2 years will fly by just as quick.
***Here's something I found a while ago. If you're not an E.L.F. sorry!
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