-April 2007 Korea-

It’s been almost four months for Ri In staying in Super Junior’s dorm. Sometimes, she still feels awkward to live under the same roof with thirteen guys. But all of them take good care of her, except for her ex boyfriend’s best friend, Eunhyuk. Whenever they are to fly over another country, they would ask her lock the door properly. It seems her skill in deceiving people had gone to a higher level. Up to this point, no one realize her actually not studying anything but just filling her spare time by composing song. She had composed almost ten songs. Lately, she was asked to sing the theme song of drama Dear My Love. At first, she thought of only composing the song but no one knows the producer of that drama insisted to have her for his theme song even though CEO Kim kept offering Taeyeon instead.

Other than filling herself with music work, she begins writing fan fiction in a not too well known website. It seems to be gaining quite good result as every chapter she posted, it wins her about 3000 plus comments which made her smile get wider. Ri In felt that she had finally gone through the hard time. She is no longer lingering with the pain. Her current life was so much better than she expected and she hopes everything goes on smoothly. But when she was having the entire happy thing going on, something bound to storm her once again.

“Young Jin oppa,” Ri In seated beside him, she was rather surprised to see Young Jin not smiling. “Are you stuck in something again?”

“Ri In, I’m sorry…” he looked away from her to SNSD who is recording. Ri In who still have no idea with what she’s saying. She dumbly took a headphone, “They are recording their first single?” the moment she heard the familiar melody, she turned to Young Jin.

“CEO Kim prefers this song to be sing by them. He thinks this is not your genre of song.”

Instantly, her eyes were filled with tears. The tears she’s holding back redden her eyes. Ri In could have just poured out the tears but she knows that would make him feel bad. “It doesn’t matter…I still…have plenty of …time. I’ll make my move first.”

She stormed out from the recording studio, turning to left whilst holding tight on her nose with her left hand. Just when she was about to make her next step, someone caught hold on her right wrist. A paining grasp that pulled her turned around to face him.

“I never know you love him so much that he left only for a week you’d cried so badly,” Junsu sneered as he pulling her closer to him. It stunned him to see her eyes redden and in the same time pained his heart.

Ri In was not sure whether could she still hold back the tears. Knowing that she would fall into his arms any second, she used all her might to swing off his hand, even she feel pain. “You’re right; I really miss him very much. Even though I could hear his voice everyday but I still miss him, yearning for his arms. Satisfied?”

Ri In whirled and made her way to the exit. Deep inside her heart, she has that feeling for Junsu. Everyday she would hear his voice echoing as he passes by the recording studio. His unique laughter was the thing that encouraged her and it became a fact that he hated to admit.

‘Ring Ring’

“Hello…” Ri In was still sobbing.

“Jang Ri In sunbae, hi my name is Kwon Hyori. I’m a big fan of your fan fiction and I was wondering could we meet.”

It stunned Ri In’s mouth opened. She was rather taken aback to know that someone actually noticed that story was written by her.

After a moment of dead silent, “Ri In sunbae, don’t misunderstand. I’m not an anti fan in fact I was your fan since the day you debuted. I wish to see you in person and there’s so many thing I wanted to say to you.” she broken the awkward silent.

-

“Done?” Junsu held on Taeyeon’s arm as she stepped out from the recording studio.

“Oppa,” Taeyeon bowed surprisingly which hit his chest. “Ahh, omma…” she rubbed on her forehead.

Junsu reached for her forehead, gently rubs on it caringly. “You call your mum when you feel pain?” he smiled.

She pouted sadly upon hearing his comment, “My silliest side had seen by you, I felt so embarrassed.”

“No,” he shook his head. His tone of voice became rather serious. “It was the cutest side of you. Really and it made people feels fascinating by seeing that.” He tenderly caressed on her cheek.

Taeyeon shoved his hand frantically, “What so fascinated!” when she realized what she had just done, she mumbled to herself, “Idiot, didn’t he touched you, something you longing for!” feeling really uneasy, she made her way towards the exit.

Upon seeing that, immediately Junsu chase after her and grabbed hold on her wrist. “Wait, the reason I’m here is…err, I thought we could have dinner together.”

She looked up to him surprisingly. Her heart was beating so fast to feel his held, “Dinner…with me?” Taeyeon stammered.

“Since I’ve made you worried when I was sick,” Junsu looked away with a beam surfacing his face, “I should bring you to a luxurious restaurant and is my treat.”

Deep inside, Taeyeon wanted nothing more but agreed straight away. “But would that trouble you? I don’t wish to get you any new sort of scandal.”

“No worries,” he held on her hand and walked towards the exit.

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Seated beside the girl who is roughly around her 15, Ri In felt rather uncomfortable. It was never come to her liking to have a dinner in such a luxurious restaurant. Looking around with all the rich people enjoying their dinner elegantly, it made her have a feeling of stoop herself in the same level as the waiter, perhaps lower than them.

“Jang Ri In sunbae, feeling uncomfortable with the surrounding aren’t you?”

Not to let the person who admires her so much down, she shook her head, “It’s just that, I feel bad to have a young girl treating me in such a luxurious restaurant.”

A warm smile formed on her face, “My name is Kwon Hyori. Actually, I may look young but I’m two years older than you do.”

Ri In was surprised to know her exact age, “I thought, then why are you calling me sunbae.” She felt bad having an elder person calling her senior. “I should be addressing you that.”

“Ri In sunbae, don’t mind if I call you that?” she gestured Ri In to relax before continued.

“Hyori noona, what’s that you wanted? I’m not releasing album this year, nothing much I could give you.” Ri In shook her head not understanding her main intention bringing her here.

Hyori smiled, “Listening to your voice, it calms my heart. Yeah, the story you are writing, sacrificing for the person you love. Did you experience that before?”

Ri In eyes shocked in goggled. “Why did you ask that question out of the blue? Just an imagination of mine,” Ri In stuttered.

Hyori crossed her arms and rested them on the dining table. Leaning in, her eyes squinted mischievously, “Do you want publish a book?”

She did the same, “You work in a book publish company?” recalling the main reason that brought her here, “By the way, how do you know it was me that posted that story?”

“ZLY: Zhang Li Yin, everyone would know.” Hyori sneered as she leaned her back on the seat.

Ri In bit her fingers, “Last night, the commenter had gone up to 8000, that’s mean a lot of people know I’m the one writing!”

After an hour, Ri In initiated to leave. She knows if she doesn’t, their conversation will drag to a never ending time. They stepped out from the restaurant and stand by the sidewalk.

“Thanks for tonight; I’m glad that we have so much in common. More over you’re my fan that supported me so much.” At that moment, all the sadness in Ri In had disappeared.

“I wish we could have another meeting again,” Hyori reached out her hand for a handshake. Ri In stretched forth her hand, “Of course we will.”

Making her way towards the bus stop, Ri In stretched forth her arms letting the night spring breeze blow her face. In the mean time, Junsu and Taeyeon had finally reached their destination. Stepping out from the car, they head down to the luxurious restaurant.

“Zhang Li Yin…”

Junsu looked around. “Oppa, what are you looking at?” Taeyeon patted on his back as she too looks at the direction he is staring. “Nothing…” Junsu lead her into the restaurant.

Ri In turned around. The moment she heard Hyori shouted her Chinese name, her foot startled to a stop.

“I want you to know, even all your relatives and friends left you, and you still have me. I’ll be by your side, supporting you till the very end of time.”

That sentence sounded so familiar to Ri In that she couldn’t help letting the tears enter her eyes. Someone had used to make that promise to her.

-Flashback, Japan 2005-

“Zhang Li Yin!” Junsu yelled as the traffic light turned red and he can no longer cross the road. “I don’t know what exactly you’re concerning about. I want you to know, I love you. I’m serious in this relationship. Even each an every people you consider love you disappear, you’ll still have me by your side.” he stopped a moment to catch his breath. “Whether you love me or not, I’ll still be by your side loving you till the very end of time.”

-Flashback, Japan 2005 ends-

She can no longer holding with the tears as she let it gradually drench her face. Moving her lip, she bowed “thank you…” before stepping into the bus.

-

“Want anything else?” Junsu asked caringly. “You’re so thin, should eat more.”

Bringing up her head to face Junsu, “Oppa, can you tell me…what’s this about?” she looked away from him to avoid letting him sees the tears forming in her eyes. “You know I love you so please don’t give any fake hope to me. I won’t be able to bear it.”

Reaching his hand across the table for her hand, Junsu assured, “Giving you my complete heart would be hard at this moment.” Taeyeon could feel his hold on her hand tightening. “I’m serious in getting into a relationship with you, but it takes time for me to forget her completely. But I won’t lie to you in that process, I promise. I’ll give you the best of me.”

Hearing that promise he made for her, she couldn’t help but let the tears that formed by sadness initially but turned to be happiness, dripped down on her lap. It shines like crystal that caught Junsu’s attention.

He bend over and reached his hand to wipe it off, “Did I say anything that made you cry? Why are you crying and smiling in the same time?” he sounded worried.

Taeyeon can’t help but leaned in and pecked on his lip, “Kim Junsu, I love you.”

Junsu smiled and slightly pinched on her cheek. He knows that he want nothing else but to forget the past that Ri In was once a part of it. As they were happily about beginning a new relationship; smile all over the face, there is someone all alone by herself. Ri In leaned against the window while filling her mind with the unforgettable memories she shared with Junsu in that two years.

-

“Faster get going, the shuttle is here to pick us up,” Taeyeon yelled to all the girls. “It’s already nine sharp, the last one!”

“Alright, stop urging us like a mad dog,” Yoona rolled her eyes as she stepped out from the dance room.

Outside was raining heavily. The nine girls of SNSD hopped into the bus one by one. Waving bye to Junsu, Taeyeon was the last person to get into the bus.

“Uncle, we can go now. No one is coming.” Taeyeon said with an evil smile.

“Wait,” Yoona stopped the driver. “Ri In noona is not here yet.”

Jessica interrupted, “I heard she’d went back an hour ago.” The driver nodded, “We shall go now! Fasten your seatbelt and get ready with a wild ride!” he was a very funny uncle.

Coming out from the SM lobby, Ri In was talking with the opposite caller smilingly. As she saw the bus driving off, she yelled “Wait! Didn’t you said will wait for me.” she quickly chase after the bus. Just when Junsu turned around, he was oblivious that he’s in Ri In’s approaching way. They bumped into each other, her music paper dropped from her hold.

Seeing she was about to fall, Junsu swiftly pulled her hand. “Are you okay?” her cell phone dropped as she realized how close their distance is. She slightly gets out from his arms and squatted down to gather the papers all over the floor. A pout escaped her lip as she knows staying in the office building will be her night. Junsu help her pick up some of it but as he sees the caller on line of her phone is Hankyung, he threw the papers on her face and left angrily.

“Yah, are you crazy!” Ri In stood up and yelled behind his back.

Junsu’s fist tightened, as he mumbled, “Correct I’m really crazy!” His head slightly tilt to peek at the person he once called his only love.

“Li Yin…” she heard the opposite caller shouting. Picking up the phone to her ear she heard, “Did you miss the shuttle?”

“No, he saw me and stopped to let me hop in.” Ri In lied. “I’m tired, need a nap. Bye…” she hung up the phone before giving Hankyung a chance to say bye.

Heading towards the recording studio, Ri In ped her sling bag to get the key unlock the door. But to her surprise, no matter how hard she rummage her bag, the key is still no where in sight.

She sighed heavily as she leaned on the wall, “Kim Taeyeon, is this all under your control? First making me miss the shuttle then made me realized you’d stolen my key.” Ri In babbled as she recalled this afternoon, Taeyeon have a close distance with her sling bag. Having no choice but to sleep by the doorway of the studio, she seated down sadly.

On the next morning, DBSK was scheduled to practice dance steps in 4 am. As Junsu walked pass, he noticed there was a body lying on the floor and it startled him to see that figure is Ri In.

He walked up to her, “Idiot! Can’t you tell me that you need a ride home? You rather remain in this state than seeking my help, do I really irritate you that much?” letting out a sigh, he carried her up and walked down to one of the unlocked rest room. Placing her on the couch, he removed his sweater and make sure it protects her from catching a cold before stepping out.

-

“What, you mean that music score is not there?” CEO Kim yelled. “Don’t be in a game with me. That song will be drama ‘Hong Gil Dong’ theme song and they want it done by this week!”

“Uncle, would it be Ri In stole it?” Taeyeon whispered to him. “She has the recording studio key.”

Presented by Celestine Blue
//Forsaken Love//

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thanks for all the comments...
welcome new readers...
hope you all like it so far...
i do wish this is the reality...but ri in will very miserable...im sure you all know bout the news regarding shanghai sm town live08...it's so unfair that she only get to sing two songs...i wish she can have more...
even taeyeon can sing a solo song...sm is so unfair towards her n her fansclub...

-chapter 17:
“I stole the music scores?” her eyes widened in fear.

“Junsu say something. You know I’m that type of person.” Ri In eyes were filled with tears that fear her so much.

“People do change,” Junsu said without having a look at Ri In.
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“Noona, I wish you could marry Junsu oppa faster, bye.”
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“Junsu,” Ri In shouted as she sees him on the verge of collapsing.

“Junsu don’t need you anymore. He has me so please make your move, the door is wide opened.”