A week passed.A week more.That didnt sound fascinating.I am almost tired of waiting,counting down.School?Didnt have much help either.Homework and all,it made me more tired.Him?A message would come every few..days.Yeah,days.He's too busy I guess.Both of us are.I don't expect much.I am expecting lesser and lesser.And those messages?They are all just"How are you?","Are you okay?","A little longer,"....These questions just need a one word reply.Yes.Okay.How well can I be?How okay can I get?How much longer must I wait?

Yeah..yeah..yeah..Sacrifices.These is what I get when I meet and fall in love with the wrong guy.How much longer must he torture me?It will be so damn awkward when we meet.I don't even know what to say.Argh...Now I am going crazy from all these instead of missing him.The days just pass so slowly...Kwon JiYong.You need to come back.

I don't know why,but I feel like I am becoming more and more antisocial.Its like there's so many things in my mind that I can't care less about my surroundings.I am bombarded by questions from myself that what my friends say can't be injected into my mind.Its always him.On my mind.Only him.Like what he is doing?Is he alright?All these questions that I don't dare to ask.Or now,don't feel like asking.One part of me is missing him so much while the other part of me is somehow,uninterested.

I know,as a matter of fact,we can never be a normal couple.Even if we could,it won't be long.One day he is going to have so many activities,concerts that he won't have time for me.We won't have time for each other.I would be all alone at home on rainy days,wondering when I will be able to see him again.It might just naturally,time,make us further and further apart from each other.That feeling you get when you know its over.Everything is over.Like nothing can salvage it.Youre not meant for each other.When that happens,you are no longer sad,but rather,happy.Cause you finally got it figured out.

I realized now,I am more moody than happy.I am less cheerful,optimistic about life.Life Is hard.Difficult.When you suffer,nobody is suffering with you.Only yourself.Facing everything else against you in this world.You can't expect everything to be perfect obviously.But things are never near perfect.He comes into my life,now everything is harder.Why can't he fall for someone else?Why must it be me?Theres plenty of girls,prettier,smarter than me.It doesn't have to be me.It shouldn't be me

I am pouring all my feelings out right now.I just think about the fact one day,everyone will know I am dating him.Or he is dating me.I can't live like how I used to anymore.I have to be careful,how I act,what I say.I a, not sure if I am ready for it.Will they accept it?

Kwon Jiyong.Kwon Jiyong.Kwon Jiyong.Why must it be me?

Back to present.Hani.Seven.S-E-V-E-N more days.Just freaking forget about him for seven days and you can meet him. It is somewhat anticipating but dreadful.I don't know why,but the past seven days I unknowingly went to search for his songs.It is all about.Love.He seemed to know so much.Like he experienced it before.Those songs just reminds me of sad stuff.The lyrics were more obvious that person was hurt deeply.More than words can express.Is this his real feelings?About love?