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I turned my phone off and threw it on the floor.

I slowly averted my cloudy vision to the front gates from which I could see thousands of candles propped up on the cherry blossom trees amidst the Daegu night sky.

I sighed and bit down on my trembling lip.

“Oh Eonni...please come back...” I whispered quietly to myself as tears trickled down from my cheeks onto my hand.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in and out whilst clutching onto my stomach.

That dark night has been haunting me and I’ve not been able to sleep for more than an hour without a single, booming gunshot jerking me off my pillow.

I so desperately wanted to sleep for days, weeks and months because in the times that I managed to get sleep, Eonni came to me in my dreams.

She was laughing and wiping my tears away, she was more beautiful and youthful than ever...

After I out, I had opened my eyes in a hospital bed and immediately jumped up to look for Eonni.

But before I got to lift the white cover off her face, hands pulled me back and Halmeouni took me back to the family home.

I never said a word and no one said anything to me.

Aunt Jeong and Uncle Hwijae came with the twins the next day from their own house and she’s been the only one who’d spoken with me.

She knew I was pregnant and so did everything she could to ensure my sugar levels and health were stable.

I kept myself locked up at home and most of my time was spent on the balcony, gazing at the mountains and wishing Eonni’s shoulder was there for me to lean on.

There was no need to go back to school as exams were over and I heard that Gyojang had given the whole school a day off to commemorate Eonni’s death, after all she was one of the first gifted students Daegu High had.

I’d not spoken to anyone apart from Krystal who forced herself in through the gates and spent a night with me; she was there when I woke up in the middle of the night crying and hugging me back to sleep before she too had to return to Seoul for idol activities.

Jackson had visited me quite often and would try to make me smile and laugh before he too was summoned to Seoul for their group’s showcase.

Chanyeol and Kai also came to visit me and my family; they gave their condolences and wouldn’t leave without making sure I had laughed once in their presence.

I sighed.

I didn’t want to speak to anyone else, especially not Taehyung or Jimin.

If Taehyung had never tied me up, I could’ve saved Eonni, I could’ve taken the bullet for her; I could’ve talked sense into Junghyun and stopped him from killing them both.

As I was thinking about these what if’s and trying to picture what I would do if I could turn back time, my door creaked open and I soon felt a weight on the edge of my bed.

I felt long, slender fingers draw circles on my scalp as more tears dropped down my face.

“Mummy’s here now, it’s all going to be okay,” Mum whispered as I turned around sharply and hugged her.

She hugged me back tightly as I cried my heart out on her shoulder.

She was so warm and comforting, I missed her hugs and presence, I missed everything about her.

“Please don’t leave me...” My voice trailed off into a choke as Mum helped me up and calmed me down before feeding me hot chicken broth.

“You have to eat Minnie. Look at me,” Mum my chin as I was refusing to have more than two spoonfuls.

I turned and stared at her light hazel, wide eyes that were filled to the brim with love.

“Krystal told me everything. I don’t care about anything or anyone else other than your health and the health of the little one in there,” Mum gently placed her warm hand on my belly as I looked down at my fingers with embarrassment.

“I was going to tell you, but-”

She cut me off with a smile.

“It doesn’t matter silly. I’m not going anywhere from now on. As soon as the funeral rites are over, you’re coming to live with Ruiji and I, no ifs or buts,” Mum ordered sternly.

I nodded as a part of my heart came up to my throat, Eonni’s funeral was last week but people were coming to our home to grieve and the massive crowds outside weren’t about to move anytime soon.

Even though Halapoji was totally against it, Eonni and Junghyun were buried next to each other.

It turns out that when they were younger, they both did love each other but Eonni concealed all of her feelings for both the family’s sakes.

As a teenager, Eonni had a diary which she only told Aunt Jeong about and in there was a whole Junior High worth of her confessions about Junghyun.

Even though Junghyun was timid and shy, Eonni had loved him for how much he cared for her.

She poured her heart out in writing about the day that Junghyun’s Dad and Halapoji became arch rivals; she had melted down when Junghyun turned into a bad boy who messed around with girls, gangs and drugs.

There was also a very recent entry in the diary.

On the same day Appa told Eonni to leave home, she wrote a heart wrenching farewell.

She knew she was pregnant and she desperately wanted to love Jin, but Junghyun had never once left the back of her mind even though her teenage love had developed into a sour hatred.

She even wrote that if she were to die on this earth, she would definitely be with Junghyun in the next life.

When I read all of this, I blinked and shook my head slowly, I thought Eonni told me everything about her life, I thought I knew Eonni like no one else, but it turns out that I didn’t really know her at all.

She had also been participating in a JYP trainee reality series that would air on KBS 2 in memory of her and so a lot of journalists and representatives were trying to arrange interviews with our family. 

And right now, there was a candlelight vigil going on outside and people were singing slow songs as well as throwing flowers over our gates which were guarded by more security guards than usual.

“She was pregnant too,” I murmured to Mum.

There was a silence before Mum spoke softly, “You’re going to hate me for saying it but everything happens for a reason. There’s a beautiful saying that God takes the people away from this Earth whom he wants by him again and I’m sure that Seoyeon is in a better place.”

I sniffed and smiled, that really was a beautiful saying.

“Eonni was in so much pain. She never said a word but I knew she was suffering; nothing was ever going her way. She’d lived life pleasing others and when she finally tried to live life for herself, everything went upside down...” I choked from my tears.

Mum was now lying beside me and I rested my back into her warm embrace as she kissed the back of my head and was trying to soothe me.

We both stared out of the window doors in my room and watched the beautiful candles radiating in the starry Daegu night sky.

Just as my eyes were about to close, the door creaked open.

I felt Mum shuffle, “I’ve just managed to put her to sleep. How are you?”

She was whispering softly and I guessed who was at my door before I even heard the voice.

I heard footsteps coming around the bed towards me and so I shut my eyes, pretending to be asleep.

I felt a heavy yet gentle hand my bangs back.

“She’s been crying every night. Jane, please help me get my daughter back...” Appa’s composed voice trailed off as he sniffed once.

There was a momentary silence and I could hear Mum sniffing as well, before I felt her hand coming up to wipe her face.

“I gave you a chance before and look what’s happened to our flower. I told you to take good care of her, but not only is she skinnier than ever, she’s become so detached from everyone. I’m sorry but I’m taking her to live with me now,” Mum replied with a smooth tone as my heart was racing.

Appa breathed in and out before I peeked through my eyelids to see his expression.

The light was off, but the all-seeing moonlight was shining on his face.

His rugged, unshaved face was glazed with tears as he looked more broken than I’d ever seen him.

A part of me was screaming to hug him better, but another part of me was saying that it was best for everyone if I left now with Mum, before the baby bump grew.

Her loving and supportive environment would be perfect for the baby.

“She’ll s-still be in Korea, right?” Dad muttered.

Mum chuckled patronisingly, “Yes, I’m not as cold hearted as you to take our child to the other side of the world. And before you ask, it's up to her if she wants to attend her graduation.”

Oh , I had forgotten all about graduation.

I’d forgotten that Seoul National University had given me a scholarship and I’d said yes, Jimin and I would receive the citizenship award...

“Don’t take her just yet, convince her to go after graduation. Please?” Dad pleaded.

The tables had turned and instead of Mum pleading with Dad to let me stay in London, he was begging her to let me stay with him in Daegu.

Mum had the power to destroy Dad with one decision.

She sighed, “Alright, fine. Only up till graduation.”

She continued stoking my scalp which made my eyes automatically start to feel heavy and close.

The same dream was coming back, Eonni was laughing and smiling whilst wiping tears from my clouded vision.

But this time there was someone else behind her, taking her hand.

He had wavy black hair and half moon shaped eyes with a prominent jaw line, yet he too looked angelic, innocent and childlike.

I watched them both roll around on the soft fields of golden grass, laughing carelessly and holding hands.

Maybe Eonni truly was in a happier place, away from the misfortune and injustice of this world.

***** 

I woke up to the sound of banging on my window doors.

I shuffled and turned to the other side of the pillow, trying to block out the frosty morning sunshine.

The banging never stopped as I dug my face into my pillow, ya!

The banging became a monotonous sound as I heard a voice shouting.

“Minnie open up!”

I instantly lifted my head and tried to open my puffy eyes only to see Krystal shivering outside.

I jumped up and unlocked the hatch on the window door, even though it was summer, mornings were still frosty here in Old Daegu.

She climbed in and hugged me tight as I let out a muffled laugh.

Krystal pushed me back by the shoulders.

“You laughed by yourself! Hallelujah!” She chuckled as I let out a louder laugh.

“Why are you here so early for? Ya it’s 6 am Krystal. How did you get past the guards?” I rasped as Krystal flicked her hair back.

“We’re going out for breakfast and then we’ll spend a girly night together in Seoul, everyone is dying to see your face,” Krystal exclaimed as she walked over to my closet and started picking an outfit for me.

“What do you mean by everyone? Let’s just stay in Daegu please,” I muttered.

Krystal turned her head to me dramatically, “That’s not happening. Ya Minnie, I want to see you smile again. Taehyung-”

She stopped herself by biting down on her lip.

My face and heart both dropped at the sound of his name.

Krystal walked over to me and held my hand, “Mianhae Minnie, I shouldn’t have said his name-”

I drew all my courage and cut her off with a sleek smile, “No it’s alright. I don’t even know who you’re talking about anyway.”

Krystal and I locked eyes as she realised I wanted to erase him from my life.

If I couldn’t get his thoughts out of my head, of my soul, the least I could do was to remove him from my life.

I’d be leaving Daegu soon anyway.

To make Krystal happy and to enjoy the time I had left, I decided to get dressed up in wide