The deal
I'm Still Here ! Beside YouSorryyyy for a sad chapter again guys :(((( !!!
***Flashback At what happened to Yoona***
Yoona POV:
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“ She is dead “ she said as she hops in her car and drive away
“ I will never give up until….unitl I saw her or…...or her grave “ I scream
When I hopelessly knee down to the hard ground. I saw a car coming toward me and ……….
The door of that similar car open and revealed a girl with puffy eyes and pale face pop out.
“ I will help you to meet my sister “ that girl words seem like a bright light pulled me out from the darkness
“ REALLY “ I look at her disbelieved
“ I have a good impress in you Yoona unnie. You seems kind and really closed to my sister so I will help YOU. Only you remember ! “ Krystal said as I didn’t know the deep meaning.
“ What do you mean by only ME “ I asked as the heavy weight before was lifted off.
“ I mean this secret only you can know. Only you can meet my sister and all of your member won’t. “ why ? A million question passing my mind
“ Why they can’t. They also badly want to meet Sica unnie…..” Krystal cut me off
“ I said only is only you. Don’t asking anymore question. Just listen to what I say. If you unnie don’t want. I can leave now ! “ she looks very serious
“ U - um….” I still a little bit hesitant
“ Let’s make a deal “ what deal does she wanna makes. I’m doubt about this
“ What deal ? “
“ I will let you meet my sister. But with one condition “
“ What is it about ? “ I shiver and scared of how cold her voice is now
“ Promise me, when you met my sister. Keep it as a secret. Nobody will know about this “ What ?
“ B - but how about…..”
“ Okay...that’s mean you don’t want to make this deal. So…..” I cut her off. I will do whatever to meet Sica unnie.
I think I should deal with her first then when the right time I will tell my unnies later on. Now all I need is find out where Sica unnie lived.
“ No… no problem...I will do what you have said “ I lie
“ How can I believed you unnie “ damn this girl is smart and really be careful
“ Um….I will record what I saying...is it okay ? “ she looks like a little bit believed me
Who care ! No matter what I will tell my unnie about this. I won’t lie to my unnie because of the deal with Krystal.
“ Okay we are done. Now tell me where is Sica unnie “ quickly I asked her
“ Wait a minute “ I saw her takes her phone out to call someone. Does she call Sica unnie
“ Mom….erm...can you go to the market buy some food to cook. I’m little bit tired and want to eat your food. “ why does she lies to her mom. What’s going on here
“ Um...you know what I like mom and don’t worry. I will eat whatever you make “ she is the best liar. But why she didn’t mention anything about Sica unnie.
“ We have 15 minutes to meet my unnie. Better hurry up “ why we only have 15 minutes
I’m still confusing at what she just said. Why do I need to hide. Why does she need to hides her mom. What happened. Why does she not let me meet Mrs.Jung. As I still in my deep thought. Krystal shouts makes me snapped back.
“ You better hurry up. If don’t you will not have enough time “
I obeyed her as I hop in my car and follow her. Here we go, I was standing in front of a big and white house seems a little bit expensive. I remember Sica unnie really like white color.
“ Let’s go inside. We only have 10 more minutes. “ I open the door and walk inside
This place looks very quiet and little creepy. There no one walking around here. Only some big and expensive house. I look around and realize that I only have 10 minutes. So I quickly walk inside the house.
The house very cozy and quiet. I wonder where is Sica unnie. As I look around the room. No sign of Sica unnie.
“ Before you meet my sister. Please don’t scream and be quiet. The important thing is be calm ” I have a bad feeling of what she just told me
“ Okay now follow me “ Krystal led me upstairs.
We walk pass 2 room and we stopped at the last room. I saw Krystal takes a deep breath as she looks at me. My heart beating fast as the bad feeling now filled up my mind. She slowly open the door.
Tear unconscious fall down from the corner of my eyes. The person I’ve waited and find for 2 years now lying in the bed with a lot of helping machine around. My heart hurt a lot as I saw that person wear the oxygen mask to helping her to breath. One bag of the white liquid hang up and that white liquid is transferring to her hand. Another bag, it seem like nutrition porridge and it there is a small tube to transfer it to .
“ Sica unnie “ I can control myself as I seeing my dearest unnie like that
“ What happened to her ? Why...why she like that ? Why there are a lot of machine around her ? “ I fall to the hard ground. I cried hard but still keep it can not be heard.
I want to run to her and huge her tight. Look at her guilty, fear, and memories filling all my tired body. What happened to her ? Why was she like that ? Why she not answer me ?
I hold my chest tightly to keep my heart not to explode. It’s hurt…..As I still crying, I heard Krystal shouted
“ ...my mom was back...we forget the time “ What’s going on now. Why did she reacts like that
As she and me still shocked at what happened now but too late the door open. I can see the anger inside Mrs.Jung eyes.
“ H - hi Mr………” Mrs.Jung cut me off as she quickly dragging me out of Sica unnie room.
After we were down stairs. Her body was shaking hard and I can see Mrs. Jung ready to shout at me and she did
“ What did you do at my daughter room “ she coldly asked
“ I - I come to… find Sica…..”
Mrs.Jung glare at Krystal as the younger girl just hang her head down.
“ How dare you meet my daughter. Who are you can walk inside my house “ I was shocked
“ I….” again I can’t said anything
“ You guy made her suffered likes this. Now you come here to meet again “ what did she mean by that.
“ Oh you seem like didn’t know the horrible things you and your member did to my precious daughter “ What we have done
“ Mom, let her goes “ Krystal stop her mom
“ I don’t know what we have…..”
“ Because all of you make my daughter’s disease return “ Mrs.Jung started to cry
“ What disease did Mrs.Jung talking about. Is it Anemia disease that I’ve heard in the internet. ? “ I thought hard
“ I - I don’t know she got that disease…. “ guilty bulding up in my body
Suddenly, Mrs.Jung rushing closer to me as she grabs my collar. I was shocked at her action
“ That is why you guys never... *sob….how tired she was and hurt she in “ drop by drop rolling down from the pale old lady eyes.
“ W - we...I - I….” I can’t open my mouth as I remember the image Sica unnie lying in pain
Unconscious tear rolling down my check. I can taste the salt water in the corner of my lip.
“ She was tried her best for your group but what did you guy gave her ? …. Did you ever asked her how was she ? Did she okay ? Or all you guys said to her as she need to stop being laziness or stop whining about tired ? “ I can see the bitter smile in Mrs.Jung face
“ My daughter...she was very tired but because of the group sake she never miss any show. Did she ? “
The person standing in front of me is not Mrs.Jung. She is a depressed mother crying and finding the justice for her daughter. She cried for her daughter pain and deep inside her eyes contain the mother love for her precious daughter.
My mind now filled up with guilty. Why everything came this way. I can’t do anything as my body can’t move. My heart hurt a lot as I was witnessed what happened a moment ago.
“ Why do you guys treated my daughter like that ? Did she has done anything to you guys huh ? Did she deserved all your cold shoulders and those ignore thing ? “ she lose her strength as she ready to fall
“ My daughter. She never hate you guys even though you guys treat her like that. She is a stupid girl ever “ I hold her to not let her fall
“ When I told her she only 2 year to live and I want her to get the treatment. But what did she chose. She chose to spend her chance to happy with you guys. “ I fell to the hard ground
“ Yeah...that stupid girl said that if she choose to get the treatment would she have any chance to survive. It’s just wasting time. And she was chose to spends her time being with you guys. “ Mrs.Jung crying hardly and hitting my chest.
Why did she need to do that instead of get the treatment to save her ? Why ? You did a lot to us but we didn’t paid back for you any. You know, how hurt for us when we found out you are not okay. So are the selfish people unnie. We are one and always one. Why didn’t told us ? Why did you keep those pain to yourself.
“ Mom….” Krystal rushes to me as she pat her mom back
“ Sooyeon ah… I will lose her….God will take her away from me...No my daughter “ she scream her lung out.
With all her left strength, Mrs.Jung pushed me harshly and shouted
“ Get out of here...if you stay here in any second God will take away my daughter” She pushed me
“ Pl…..” she cut me off again
“ My Sooyeon was suffered enough now….the suffering you guys brought to her…..please don’t do it again…” She paused for a while
“ I won’t let you guys make my precious daughter suffering again. I won’t stand still to look my daughter get hurt. GET OUT NOW “ Mrs.Jung scream as she point her finger toward me
“ This is my fault for not brought her back to American. But now I will do it….”
“ WHAT !!!! No I can’t let her do that. We have waited and find Sica unnie for 2 years. Now I don’t want to let her gone again. I need to do something. Yoong, think think. “
“ Honey...what’s going on “ I heard a similar voice from the front door.
“ YOU !!! What are you doing here. ? “ Mr.Jung shouted at me
“ I came to visit…..” again
“ Before I shout at you please leave….I don’t want you here and don’t come back again “ he calmly said as he come near his wife to comforts her
“ But...I……” he ignore my word
“ Soojung... go upstairs and pack your unnie clothes and wish unnie luck. Later, someone will come and we will move to American. “
What did he just said…..NO NO NO… they can’t bring her go...I’m not talk to her yet...I’m not say hi to her yet… I not asked her anything yet….I not say sorry to her yet...NO NO NO
“ DAD, no. Can you not bring unnie to somewhere else….please “ Krystal knee down and begging Mr.Jung
“ Soojung ! “
My body shaking hard but what can I do now….Sica unnie please tell me what to do….
“ Noooo dad please...I….don’t…. please let unnie stay with me…..” Krystal crying hard
I’m useless…..I can’t do anything…. I’m useless…..I’m useless
“ There is only 4 months left…. please let me beside unnie dad….please I don’t wanna let her go….please...I want to see unnie everyday….I don’t want…..4 months….”
After hearing the words 4 months left my word collapsed… Why ? No Sica unnie
“ PLEASE LET HER HERE, i WILL DO ANYTHING YOU SAID. JUST LET ME BESIDE HER FOR….FOR 4 MONTHS “ I scream my heart out as I can’t thinking any long
“ How dare you screaming in my house “ Mrs.Jung shouted at me.
“ I - I….want to beside her …..I sorry…. so sorry….but can you please let me stay with unnie….please...I will do whatever you told “ I knee down as tear fell down to the ground
“ You made my daughter suffered like this now you dare beg me for you yo stay with her. No I’m not letting my daughter suffer again. “
“ If you don’t...please listen to me one more time...if this time I can’t make us trust me I will leave and …. and...never come back here “ I told them. This is my last chance. I want to be beside you unnie. The last 4 months….I want to be your right hands
I was told them about my mom story. She passed when I was a little. I hate her because she never come to school to pick me up like every mother did. She never cook for me. She never talk to me. I hate her and hate her a lot.
But someday I saw my dad cry in front of a picture. That is my mom. She was sick...she was stuck in the cold and lonely hospital room many years. She want to meet me but doctor not let her. I was regretted because I was blame her for anything. I was wrong...she want to...but she can’t.
When she smile to me... I ignored her. I tried to get my attention...I ignored her. I want to talk to me...again I ignored her….I’m a bad daughter to her. I was promise to myself that I will not let anyone I love to get hurt by me.
“ Let’s make a deal “ Mr.Jung cut me off...again Jung really like to make compromise
“ What deal do you want to make...I will agree “ I was happy that he agree for me to stay here
“ You can come here but….no one can’t come with you...Sooyeon still alive...keep it as a secret. When you return back...just tell them Sooyeon was died. ”
“ But about other members...they also have the right to know….” he cut me
“ I don’t care...Yes or No ? “ he strongly said
What should I do know. I can’t let my unnie down and I also don’t want to let Sica unnie goes. Agggggg….why everything always not come the way I want it to be.
“ I - I…..” why they always make me to choose something I don’t want to
“ You what...okay I know the answer...You better….” Now is MY turn to cut him of
“ I - I….agree with the deal “
Sorry unnies. I don’t mean to hurt you but I have to and I….I don’t want you to hope any more. This is the last time I will let you guys cry and after 4 months let’s moving on together unnies. I’m hurt yes, I will do anything to Sica unnie. I will represent us to take care of unnie. Sorry
“ Okay. Keep your promise girl. “
“ I will “
After that, the two went to their room left Krystal and me at the living room.
“ Thank you for helping to keep unnie stay “ that was all she can say now
We went upstairs to see Sica unnie. Krystal was told me all the things were happened during 2 years. I cried but the girl telling me was cried all her heart out. I tried to be strong and comforting her.
My hope, our hope now useless. Everything will end in 4 months. How can suppose to accept it….Can I… Sica unnie was in pain many years but I did not notice it. Stupid me.
“ I promises you unnie. I will tell them that you love them very much but you can’t make it. After 4 months, I will be stronger than now and I will stay with them. Comforting them, listen to them, and...moving on you with them. But remember I will never forget you. You are the best unnie to me……”
“About Taeyeon unnie, please help her get over you soon unnie. She got depressed and weak. I don’t know but I will tried to always look for her. Taeyeon unnie really love you and she still does. She cry every single day before she goes to bed. Every night when she sleep, nightmare always come to her. We all worry and hurting when we saw she like that. “
“ One time we all beside her. She scream and looked very scared. Tiffany unnie was hugged her tightly. When she wake up, tear and sweat all over her shaking body. Dad said that mom will always look for me from the sky. I hope you do so. Please help Taeyeon unnie pass this deep pain. I know it will be hard for her but if you don’t want her to be hurt...please help her “
“ Will those tear will go away when you not beside us. I wish that we can turn back the time. To the start, I promises I will not let you be like this. The word US I will treasure it. We are SoShi and we are complete when all 9 of us together. Even time pass, people might forget but in my heart, our heart, the evidence always show that you Jung Jessica was a member of SoShi. It will be remember and always stay there. “
“ Can you hear me unnie. I hope….Everything will be fine because I’m still here ! Beside you. Unnie. “ I knee down near her bed as I take her palm and place it right on my heart. Tear fall down to her arm.
I will and always remember you unnie. Remember that !
***Back to present***
Yoona POV:
As Taeyeon unnie run out of the dorm, Tiffany and Yuri unnie chasing after her. The rest still stay at the same spot as they crying and sobbing. I can’t bear to see them crying.
No word, I also run all my mine to who know where. When I stop to breath, tear comes out without my permission. It’s hurt...hurt a lot. I place my hand on my chest to keep it not to explode. Suddenly, my phone started to ring. Seunggi oppa
“ Hi “
“...”
I can’t say anything now and the only thing I can do is crying hard
“ YOONGIE ARE YOU OKAY ? ARE YOU CRYING ? WHERE ARE YOU ? “ he was panic
Again, I make someone worried about me. But I still told him where I’m because I need someone to beside me when I’m weak. The only person I can call is him. After 5 minutes, there he goes. Worry still obvious i his face
“ Yoong are you okay ? Let’s go into my car first “ I take off his jacket and cover me up
I told him what was happened because I know he will be calm and help solve the problem.
“ Everything will be okay. I won’t stop you cry but promise just this time huh ! “ thank god for gave me this person who always beside me and listen to whatever I said.
After almost 10 minutes of crying. I was stop. My phone started to ring again. This time the caller is no one other than Tiff unnie. Why does she calls this late.
“ YOONA ! QUICKLY COME TO SEOUL HOSPITAL ! TAEYEON GOT IN ACCIDENT !!! ” all my mind went blank.
What do you think readers ?
Does Yoona choice is right or wrong ?
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