" It's hurt a lot "
I'm Still Here ! Beside YouHelooooo again :v !!!!!
This is the double update and I just done it a minute ago :)). Are you happy huh ? As I've wrote a note in the last chapter that some chapters later on will be very sad right ! This chapter, either. Sorry for double update sad chapter in the new year. Sorryyyyyy. This is new year so I will give you a hint if you guys done reading this chap. The hint is Taeyeon is the almost the main character inclueding other so she will be fine. Okay don't worry too much Taeyeon will not get any dangerous. I'm not mean that she won't get any but little :v.
So hope you enjoy the double update. Don't cry huh !!!!!! Sorrrryyyyyy :(((
***Continue the last chapter***
Taeyeon POV:
“ Unnies listen to me first and if you want to blame me or hit me. Do whatever you want “ my bad feeling seem so real right now as I don’t want to hear anything come out from Yoong mount.
“ Please Yoong don’t said it…..please….” my inner want to scream out loud
“ What happened did Si……” Yuri Fany was cut off by Yoona
“ Sica unnie…….was *sob*.....dea….. “ Now is my turn. I cut her off.
“ NO, NO, NO, DON’T SAID THAT YOONG….PLEASE…..” My inner won my mind as I scream all my heart out
“ Yoong what happened ? “ Yuri tear threatens to comes out.
“ Sica unnie...was dead “
*PANG* A louder sound more than thunder hit my mind. That hurt, really hurt as my heart beat raising up . All my mind now blank as everything turn off. The thing I didn’t want to hear now come true. It just happened a second ago. But the last words of Yoona make me feel like I should have died instead of her. She didn’t do anything wrong.
“ What did you said ? “ Sunny asked as her body shaking hard
“ PLEASE REPEAT YOUR WORD IM YOONA ” Yuri shouted
Another *PANG* as a bullet hits right my heart. As Yoona scream all her lung out. Why this feeling makes my heart hurt so much. I swear it can explode any time soon. My tear comes out unconsciously, I’ve tried to hide those tears but seemed like I fail.
“ SICA UNNIE WAS DEAD BECAUSE OF…… of us “ because of us, because of me. Tears come out moreover.
Those words take away my strength to stand as I knee down to the hard and cold ground. Why everything came this way. Why everything happened to us, our, me, and her. Did God want to play with people fate. Did I have done something wrong to him.
I can’t stay here to listen to this conversation anymore. With hall the last strength I have left, I managed to stand up and rushing out of this hell as fast as I can. Get out from this real life and hurtful truth.
“ TAE…..” That all I can heard when I rushing out of this hell.
I run, run, and run. Wherever it is, I just want to get out of here. I want to meet her and hug her tightly. I don’t want to let her go, I won’t let her disappear in my life any second. I can’t breath...I can’t bear with this truth any longer.
“ I want to meet you...where are you Sooyeon - ahh….” breathlessly I knee down as I can’t run anymore. Tear continue run out as it against me.
“ I’m tired….too tired. I was hope that someday you will return back to me. But….I’ve waited….almost 2 years….still no sign of you…..what should I do now when I very tired…” I cried
Till when... those tears stop run out every night when I sleep…..Till when those nightmare will go away and let me have a peaceful sleep….Till when those guilty will vanish in the happiness...Till when I learn how to move on you….Till when I can forget you
Till when those tiredness will vanish….Till when you come back to my life…Till when I can able to see you….Till when I can hear your voice...Till when I can hear those encouraging words from you...Will I have power to do all these thing when you not beside me.
I’m coward because of you. I was scared and run away from the truth...the thing that people called real life.
Mom said that when the two people really love each other...no matter where they are...in the end they will come back to each no matter what...Which it true...I doubt because I love you you much Sooyeon ah. Wait for me, we will meet each other soon somewhere in this huge world.
When that time come, I promise I will hug you tightly in my arms. I will protect you and I swear no matter what happen I’m still be here, beside you.
Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
“ One step I hopelessly in the quiet road as I listen to the song that resemble with my heart want to say “
In my head, I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
“ Why I never notice it when you still beside me. Maybe because I deeply in love with you Jung Sooyeon “ I smile a bitter smile
Well, I tried, but I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go?
Would you be the one I used to know?
If I'd stayed, if you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
“ 3 step, what if...just what if I never let go of your hand...would you still stay with me forever “
Many roads to take
Some to joy, some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
“ 4 step, I have chose the dead road for you and the end for our love. How stupid I am. I made myself lost on my own way “
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change?
“ 5 step, If it not too late. Can we turn back to start to the time that you and me still a stranger to each other. I will never let you fall in love with this stupid me. So that you can fall in love with someone better than me. So that you don’t need to get hurt and….Would you take that chance and make it ? ”
Do you think how it would have been sometimes?
Do you pray that I'd never left your side?
“ I wondering, did you miss me. Do you pray for our love will last forever ? “
What if I had never let you go?
Would you be the one I used to know?
If I'd stayed, if you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
“ 6 step, if I could take you back from God, will you still be mine. Will you be with me forever. Will I able to protect you ? “
'Cos I tried, but I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go?
Would you be the one I used to know?
What if I had never walked away?
'Cos I still love you more than I can say?
“ 7 step, If I never walk away from you, will I never be lose you. My heart hurt too much...what is it meant ? The only thing I knew for sure that, it only beat for you. The girl name Jung Sooyeon “
If I'd stayed, if you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know
Notes: this song is ( What if: kate winslet ) but I have a link for this song about Taesic. Feel free to watch “ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPS6VInVLT4 “
“ 8 step, But if I lose you again, what should I do ? Will we be separate again ? I don’t know….What should I do now. Please tell me...I was lost in my own way “
I can see the bright light hit my eyes and the sound of the car go toward me. It’s louder and louder as it warning me to not step any further. But I didn’t care much. All I know now is only one step, one more step I can able to meet you. Just one more….
I closed my eye as a bitter smile in my face now very obvious.
“ Wait for me. I’m coming….Sooyeon ahh….. “
*KESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! DUMMMMMMMMMMMMMM !!!!!!!*
All I know that someone calling me but I can’t open my eyes. My eyes gradually closing and all the pain and tiredness now vanish as my body can’t move anymore.
“ Sooyeon ahhh…”
“ I love you and forever love you “
“ Sooy……”
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