Daesung POV

Age: 14

Chapter 9- Heal

Another day. Another depressing day. I do not want to wake up. I want this nightmare to end already. I lost my family from a stupid fire. Now I lost my step mom and my step little brother. What more can God take away from me? Youngbae already left. Jiyong probably left too because I felt that kiss on my forehead that he gave me. I know he went to YG Entertainment Company. He said he will come back but how long will that be? I only have Seunghyun hyung. I do not want to leave by his side.

“Daesung?” I heard my hyung from the entrance of my room. He does not sound too well. Like if he has a cold or something. I slowly got up and jump a little to see how dead my older brother look. He probably already heard the news about Jiyong.

“Hyung?” He rushes and hugs me so tight. I felt his body shaking. His hands are trembling with scared. I feel bad for hyung. He lost everything. His own mom and three lovely brothers. I am the only one he got. “I am sorry that I am not a better hyung” he adds on. “I am sorry that I let Youngbae and Jiyong go” His cry starting to get louder. “I am sorry, please don’t leave me” he hugs me tight.

I don't know what to say. I cannot blame hyung for this. It was Jiyong hyung decisions to leave us to find our maknae. It was Hyunbae who was trying to force Youngbae to be with him. How can I blame him for something he did not do? “Hyung…is not your fault” I comfort him. ”Plus, Youngbae should have time to be away from us. He been suffering so much in this house while Jiyong said he will come to us after he finds our maknae, so please hyung, please do not add pain to your suffering hyung”  I am trying to be positive seen he been positive with me.

It was quite for a while. I am waiting for him to say something. Then I realize he was snoozing on my shoulder. I lay him on my bed and cover him with my covers. Poor hyung, he been trying his best to do so much for us he did not realize how much he is hurt. He is the best Hyung I ever ask for.

I went outside to get some air. I haven’t been coming out of the house. I’ve been depressed in my room I need a break from that.

I’ve been thinking how much fun we had when we were family. When stepmother came to my family funeral, she told me that I am going to be in a different happy family. I thought step mother was crazy because I lost the best family that I ever had. Her family can’t replace my family.

Until later days, when I was with them, I was still right that nothing replaces my family.  However, they healed me. They gave me so much love. Spoil me sometimes even my own dongsaeng spoiled me. Step mom always has this warmth feeling that she was my new home. A home that I can come home and say “I am home.”

Not anymore…

“Daesung? Good, you are outside? Where is your older brother?” I turn to see Kim Lee outside of the Bakery shop. 

“Haraboji?” I look at him watering the plants from outside. I forgot he owns bakery shops. Sometimes when I have an argument with my hyungs or dongsaeng, I will always come to his bakery and help him bake.

“My brother is asleep and I came out to get some fresh air” I reply to his questions.

“Ah, your brother does need his rest, he was sleep deprive. He really needs a break from his depression” He laugh, “You guys are still young. You all will get through this” he added. He was right, though. We are still young. The world is not ending. I am pretty sure our mom does not want to see us like this. Even our little maknae. I can tell that maknae will punch us if we are split apart. This old man really knows how to comfort someone.

“Now…come and help me bake to take your mind off” I nodded and join him inside the bakery shop.

We will get through this. I healed when I lost my family. I am pretty sure we can heal too. I think Youngbae should be apart for us for a while along with Jiyong. Maybe being apart from us will heal them and we will unite again.

For me, I am going to stay and heal with my big brother Seunghyun. He really needs me and I need him. I will help him recover. I want little Seunghyun to come back to us when we are already healed. I will love my brothers no matter what. So I hope little Seunghyun will come back to us. 

Author Note: Sorry for this chapter is short. I have nothing for Daesung, I do not want Daesung to separate from Choi Seunghyun! Okay, another time skip to the next chapter. See u this weekend or next :).