JESSICA’S POV

FLASHBACK

I was now with Tiff in my car going to our house, my parents invited all are GF for dinner tonight for us to formally introduce them. I glance on Tiff and I know she was nervous, I can see her hands that were trembling. I hold her hand and squeeze it.

“Yam, don’t be nervous, arrasso?”

“How I can’t be? I am meeting your parents.” She said and it was visible to her voice that she was nervous

“I won’t leave you so don’t worry okay?”

“But---“

“I’m here.” I assured her and I felt her relax

It didn’t take long when we arrive at our house and I lead her inside.

“Wow…” Tiff mumble, and I chuckle

“Tiff, let’s go.” I intertwine our hands

“You’re house was huge.”

“My mom wants house like this.”

“It was beautiful indeed.”

“Yeah it was my mother always likes to maintain the beautifulness of the house even if she was busy.”

“Miss Jessica they are in the garden, you can go straight there.” One of the maids said

“Okay, Tiff?”

“Okay.” She said and walks with me to the garden

They are all here already, my parents, my three siblings with Hyo, Yoong and Seo.

“Jess Noona and Fany Noona you’re here already?” Yong hwa

“Come and join us girls.” Mom said

“Tiff, let’s go.”

“O-okay.” I squeeze her hand again when we approach my parents

“Mom, Dad let me introduce to you my GF, Stephanie Hwang Miyoung.”

“Anyeonghoseyo Tiffany mida Mr. and Mrs. Jung.” Tiff bow at them but my Mom hugs her

“Call us Mom and Dad like I said to others, okay?” Mom ask Tiff

“O-okay Mom.”

“You should relax Tiffany. We won’t eat you.” My Dad joke

“Sorry.” Tiff cutely bow

“Fany unnie, my parents like you so don’t be nervous, they kinda intimidating because it was in genes like us but they are pretty much kind.” Krystal said

“Come and sit with us.” Mom assists her to the chair and I sit beside her

“Let’s eat.” Dad said

We started to eat and my Mom and Dad also started to get to know our GF’s and it was a relief that Tiff relax immediately and we all laugh when my Dad jokes. The night comes smoothly with the dinner and it was really enjoying seeing that your GF being close to your parent. I was excited to go and visit Mr. Hwang as Tiff’s GF. I already know him but just Tiff member and friend not her GF so I want to formally know him now that Tiff and I was officially dating.

After the dinner Tiff and I went to my apartment and spend the night there, I like waking up with Tiff beside me so I always whine to her to spend a night with me but of course we just sleep and nothing else happen even I want to but I know it was too early for our relationship. So I’ll wait for the right time.

END OF FLASHBACK

2022

JJ held a concert last night with a bigger announcement

JJ debut seven years ago as a solo artist, after being out on her former group, SNSD

the nation girl group that she became part for also seven years held a concert last night.

And when the concert end she told the fans that it will be the last concert she will be having because she’ll be retiring in entertainment industries, her fans cheer and cried for her in the concert because of the shocking announcement but still they accept because they we’re happy if their idol was happy.

She also announces that she’ll be having press conferences in the next morning to answer the question they have for her for her retirement.

It’s been five years since when Tiff became mine, today will be the press conference I will be having after I announce my retirement in entertainment industries last night, the reason of it is to focus on my company B&E also the 3 company of the Jung Empire that I was handling, I have a press conference this evening. The SNSD was actually disbanded 2018, they didn’t renew their contract after the last three years of their last contract.

They all decided that it was for the best that they just do what they want, but the sub unit just disbanded last week. I actually decided that it was time to retire also because I want to think of my future now; I want to live without hiding to all my relationship. I actually talk about this between my parents and my siblings and they agreed to me about being revealed my uality.

I just need the confirmation of Tiff, actually we had an argument about this, it hurt me that she doesn’t want to reveal our relationship but I understand her because she doesn’t want to disappoint her father, yes till now her father didn’t know our relationship, I accept it that but every time I think of it still hurt me. But I still doubt her reason about her father, if it’s the real reason she doesn’t want me to be introduce to her family.

Tiff and I talk about my decision last week and till now she didn’t contact me even I contact her but she just ignore.

FLASHBACK

We just got back from our dinner date on one of our favorite restaurant and Tiff will be sleeping over again tonight. Actually I pleaded her to sleep over because I need to talk to her about something. They just got announce yesterday the disbandment of TTS and I also plan to retire on entertainment because I want to start my future with her.

I already talk to my family and they agreed to me also my uncle about my retirement on his company, he understands me. I’m not getting any younger; I’m actually 34 this year and I want to start my family. We are both lying in my bed cuddling.

“Tiff?”

“Hmm?” I look at her

“I was going to announce my retirement in the entertainment industries.”

“Eh? Waeyo?” She was shock because I just told her right now

“I want to focus on something else.” I told her because I don’t want to propose now I want it to be special

“Your company?” She ask

“Yes.” I lied

“Okay. At least you won’t be so tired like before. So when are you planning to announce it?” She said

“Next week. And I also want to announce our relationship. ” I felt her stiffen

“WHAT?” She shouted after she process what I said she immediately sat up and glaring at me

“Tiff….”

“YOU KNOW YOU CAN’T DO THAT?” She said

“Tiff calm down first and let me explain.”

“CALM DOWN? HOW CAN I CALM DOWN IF YOU’RE GOING TO ANNOUNCE THE WORLD ABOUT US.” I tried my best to be calm, one of us need to be calm

“Why not Tiff? We’ve been dating for 5 years already, can’t we just let the world know about it already. Yul, Soo and Sunny already came out from the closet why can’t we?” Yes the three of them already confirm their ually a year ago when they are caught by the paparazzi

“You know why, I can’t do that because of my Dad.”

“Tiff, if we just talk to him he’ll understand you because you are his daughter and he loves you.”

“No, you don’t understand, he’ll freak out if he knows about this.” She said

“Is he the real reason Tiff or you just don’t want to be judge by the others being gay.” I ask her, I can’t accept her reason because I know her, her father wasn’t the only reason that’s why she opposing this

“W-what do you m-mean by that?” I was hurt when I hear her stutter my tears was beginning to come out but I prevent it as much as I can

“Tiff just answers me truthfully please?” I ask her calmly

“I TOLD YOU THAT MY FATHER IS THE REASON. I DON’T TO TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN SO I’M GOING HOME NOW.” She stand up and started to walk out by I held her wrist

“Tiff, I will still love you even what you’re decision maybe, I was saying this because I want your permission about this but if you don’t want, I won’t drag you with me but one is for sure, I’ll announce my uality on that day.”

“--------“ She doesn’t answer

“I’ll give you a week to think about it and just let me know the answer on the day of my press conference; I’ll wait for your call.” I drag her to the bed and lay her down

“----------“

“Just sleep here okay, I’ll sleep on the other room. It was late already for you to go home. I’ll drive you when the morning comes.” I told her and kiss her forehead before I leave the room

My tears started to fall down once I was out of the room. I walk inside the other room and just sat there in the edge of the bed and cry my heart out, of course I muffle the sound for her not to hear me.

END OF FLASHBACK

I actually didn’t sleep that night but just cry and when sun rises I drive her home to her apartment, she didn’t even talk to me even I was talking to her. And until now I didn’t hear anything from her, I just know her where about because of the other member.

“JJ, are you ready? The press conference will be starting in five.”

“Okay.” I glance on my phone again but she still didn’t call, I sigh and I stand up and breathe in and out to relax myself

I walk in the room where the media was waiting for me I sat down on the long table in front. I bow to them

“Hello everyone thank you for coming today because I’m going to announce something today.”

“JJ, what is the reason you gather us today?” R1

“I gather all of you today to announce my leave in the entertainment industries, this will the last day of me being an idol. I’m too old for that.” I chuckle and some of the also chuckle

“What is the reason of your retirement?”R4

“Is this connected to the disbandment of the last part of your former group SNSD TTS?”R3

“No it wasn’t connected about that, I decide about this because I want to focus on my future.”

“Future? Do you mean you are planning of having a family?”R2

“Are you going to be next in line to be married?”R6

“Hahaha…I may think about that but as for now but there no exact plan.”

“Oh, but you are planning?” R9

“No comment. But I have another announcement to make.” I chuckle

“What is it?” R4

“I just want to all of the people know my----“ I felt someone held my hand and when I turn I saw Tiff smiling back at me

“Let’s do this together Yam.” She whisper to me

“Tiffany ssi, what are you doing here?” R5

“Tiffany ssi, are here to announce something also?”R7

“Are you sure about this?” I whisper back

“Yes, so let’s announce our relationship.”

“Tiffany ssi, Jessica ssi.” R3, I intertwine our hands before I show it to them

“My next announcement is that I want all people know that this woman beside me is MINE.” I emphasize the last word. Then everyone took a shoot of their camera

“Are you saying that you two are in the relationship?” R5

“Are saying that you two are also gays like your other friends?”R1

“Please tell us the detail.” R6

“Tiffany ssi is it true?”

“Yes Jessi was telling the truth, we love each other and in a relationship for 5 years.” Tiff said

They continue to ask many question but we decided that it was enough information so my manager help us wrap up the interview, we walk out from that room and walk in to the dressing room while holding each other, I was so happy that Tiff was here. I hug her tightly when we are alone.

“Thank you, I love you.” I said

TIFFANY’S POV

“Thank you…I love you.” Jessi said while hugging me

“I love you too Jessi.” I said to her

“What made you change your mind?” She ask me while dragging me to the couch on the room

“Because I love you and I can’t lose you.”

“You won’t lose me Yam.” She told me

“But I felt that I’ll lose you if I don’t have a courage to face the judgment of the people, you were right that I was scared of what people will think but I was more afraid that I’ll lose you.” I said to her

“Thank you for having the courage to face this with me.” She peck my lips

“I am glad I did it.”

“Where are you for the past week? The other tells me that you are fine but they didn’t tell where exactly you are?” She ask me

“I visit my family in California.”

“Eh?”

“I told my Dad about my ual preference and I was shock the he knows I’m gay, then I told him about you so you better prepare because I want you to come with me next week to visit him again.”

“I am prepared since before so even tomorrow it was okay to meet him.” She confidently said but I can see nervousness in her eyes and I find it cute.

“Really? Okay, let’s go tomorrow.” I ask her but it was just a joke

“Eh? I remember that I have a meeting in my company; I have a full schedule this week. Aish. Can we do it next week?” She ask me cutely, I know she was nervous

“Of course Yam, let’s schedule it next week. But for now let’s spend time together, okay?”

“Okay. Where do you want to do?” She ask me

“Just cuddling with you, I guess.” I told her, I want just to be with her because I miss her for the whole week I didn’t see her

“Okay, your place or mine.”

“Yours, you know how I love your place.”

“Okay, let’s go.”

She intertwines our hands and we proceed to go after we told her manager that we will be going. Jessi have her car with her so it will be our ride to her place. After the disbandment of SNSD I have plenty of time to spend because I only have TTS and some photo shoot on my schedule not like my GF who has a 4 company to run including her B&E and her busy schedule for her singing and acting career here and in US.

After her debut in US, offers came so plenty and she became more busy in and out of the country but she make sure she has a time for us, that’s why I fall for her even harder. She always does the unexpected sweet things she can do just for me and I was lucky for that.

That’s why I had courage to tell my Dad about our relationship, I don’t want to lose Jessi. I know I was selfish enough for the last five years of not telling my family about it, I was just afraid that they won’t accept me so I didn’t dare to tell them, but my members knock some sense out of me that make me tell my family about t.

FLASHBACK

I was in my apartment and didn’t go out since yesterday after the fight I had with Jessi. She want to reveal our relationship to the public, I wasn’t ready, no actually I don’t want to, I was afraid of what may people think of me, yes many of my collogues and friends known about it and it was okay because they are also like that so they don’t judge me but if the whole world know about it what would they think about it.

I was afraid because when Soo, Sunny and Yul was caught last year they receive some bad and hurt comment I don’t know if I can take it. Yes they overcome it and even though since now the society of Korea still didn’t accept their relationship. I was afraid that if we reveal it they won’t accept me; I hate being judge and not being like by others. I want everyone to like me so I don’t want to reveal it.

I was just here in my room when my members show up of course without Jessi. Maybe they know that we had an argument.

“Fany ah what happen?” Taetae

“Fany ah, talk to us please.” Sunny when I didn’t respond

“Fany unnie, we’re worried about you. Sica unnie told us you had an argument with her, she was worried about you so she asks us to check on you.” Seo

“Unnie, please talk to us.” Yoong

“Fany ah….” Soo

“I…..I…..can’t.” I told them

“What are you saying Fany?” Yul

“Jessi wants to reveal our relationship on the public.” I told them and then cry again and they hug me

“Shhh….Fany….don’t cry. Everything is going to be okay?” Sunny

“NO…..IT WON’T BECAUSE IF THE WORLD KNOWS IT, THEY WILL LOOK AT ME WITH DISGUST AND I CAN’T TAKE THAT. NO!” I shout at them and they are looking at me shock

“Fany ah, we know you don’t want to be judge but why did you choose to be with Sica in the first place if you are so scared to be found out?” Taetae told me firmly and with distinction

“I love her.” I told them

“That’s it, you love her so you shouldn’t fear of facing being found out because she’ll be there with you all the time and won’t leave you. It should be enough reason not to be scared.” Taetae

“Fany ah, when Soo and I was caught, yes we had bad time, a hard one actually but we overcome it and didn’t let it affect our life and relationship because we love each other and that was enough reason to continue our life like it didn’t happen, we just accept what the people think of us and make it a strength for us to be better in life.” Sunny

“Fany ah, we know you are scared but do you think Sica isn’t, of course she is but here she is, going to risk, you should be there with each other because your friends and family may be there but it was different when you had each other.” Hyo said

“Fany ah, she was going to fight the judging eyes of the world because she wants to be free of hiding, so please Fany don’t let her be alone.” Yul

“Unnie, she won’t be mad or hate you if you didn’t show up there for her and she’ll still love you with all her heart but please don’t let it happen. Because we know you, you’ll regret it in the future.” Yoong

“Unnie, don’t let her down.” Seo

“Thank you guys for making me realize it. I won’t disappoint her.” I hug them

I realize they are right; being with each other is enough to face the fear I had. I won’t disappoint Jessi. After the talk with them I told them that I needed to go home and talk to my Dad. They are all happy because I decided that it was time my Dad to know. I immediately book a flight to California to see my family.

My flight will be in the evening so my members help me pack some clothes. I think I will be there for a few days but I’ll make sure to be there on the press conference she was having. My flight was long but I know I need to hurry for me to be back in Jessi arms again, I miss her so badly. Not kissing or hold her more than a day is a torture for me.

When I enter the house I was greeted by father, it was actually just morning here so he’s still in the house. He had a shock expression in his face when he saw me. Of course he doesn’t know I’m going here.

“Princess what a pleasant surprise?”

“Daddy I miss you.” I run to him and hug him

“I miss you too. What’s with the sudden visit?”

“Can’t I just visit because I miss you.” I jokingly ask him

“No, I know you. You want something, so what is it princess?” She told me and mess up with my hair

“Daddy…” I whine while I’m fixing my hair and just laugh

“So what is it princess?” He turns serious

“I need to talk to you Daddy, it was serious and I need you to listen before you judge me, okay?” I also turn serious

“Okay, let’s go to my office.”

We went to his office in the house and he sit on his chair and I sat in front of him.

“What do you want to talk to me princess?” He ask immediately

“I---I…..I….I’m sorry Daddy.” I told him first, I can’t find words to tell him

“For what princess?” He ask calmly

“I….I was gay.” I whisper but enough for my Dad to hear, I don’t want to look at him because I don’t want to see the disappointment he had for me, my two siblings is now happily married with opposite and I know he’s expecting me to marry a opposite also

“It that the important thing you want to talk about me?” He was laughing so I look at him and he was staring at me with amuse expression

“Why are you laughing Daddy?” I ask him, did he lose it?

“Princess, I know about it. Of course I am your Dad so I know it.” He was still laughing

“Eh? How? When?” I ask him

“Princess, I know about it before you came to Korea and start your training.”

“-------“ I was speechless I didn’t know that I was scared to tell him but he already know

“So who was the lucky woman that caught my Princess heart?” I was shock once again, how did he know?

“How?” I ask him

“Of course you wouldn’t be here telling me that you are gay if it doesn’t because of a woman, don’t you? So who was it?”

“Jessi….”

“Jessi? As in your member Jessica Jung?”

“Y-yes Daddy.”

“Good then, I actually like her.”

“Really?”

“Yes, because I know she makes you smile. I saw it before when you visit us here with her. She makes you smile and I know she’ll make you happy. I like her for you.”

“Thank you Daddy.” I went up to him and hug him

“So when will I meet her formally?”

“I just need to do something first then I’ll introduce her to you next week.” I told my Dad

“Okay, but what is you needed to do?”

“We’ll going to announce our relationship on public Dad.”

“What? Consider it first, I don’t want other to condemn and bad mouth you. You’ll get hurt by that. It was different here and there in Korea. Your family and her family may accept it but other people have a dirty mind and I don’t want you to be criticizing by others. ”

“I know Daddy but I’m willing to endure it because I have her in my side, being with her is enough for me to take a risk.” I told my Dad, I know he just don’t want me hurt but like my members said I love her and she loves me back to it is enough reason

“But-----“

“Just trust me Dad, I can endure this.” I hug him again

“Okay, if that’s what you want.”

“Thank you Dad.”

I was glad that it didn’t turn out like I expect it to be. I stay there 3 days then I go back to Seoul exactly for the press conference.

END OF FLASHBACK

I was so happy now because Jessi and I are okay already and also we won’t be hiding our relationship, we may get some haters but I know we’ll overcome this and be happy with each other. I love her enough to endure everything that we’ll go through.

JESSICA’S POV

We are gathered in my parents’ house with all of my friends and siblings; I call all of them to celebrate my engagement with Tiff, I will announce it tonight. Yes, we are getting married after I ask her last night. I plan a romantic way of asking her hand.

FLASHBACK

I was planning on asking Tiff to marry me tomorrow in our fifth anniversary, I already ask the permission of her family so I literally just going to wait for Tiff acceptance if she’ll accept me. I was now in my apartment and just lying in my bed I can’t sleep because I was nervous of what will happen tomorrow, I actually filed a leave for two days because I want to spend it with my Yam for our anniversary I know I was busy so we didn’t have time always but I make sure I never neglect her.

I can’t lose her so even I was busy in my business I always call or text her if I can’t meet her that day. Like I said before one of the reason of my retirement in entertainment is because I want to start my family and this is the first step for that, asking her to marry me. My family helps me with all the preparation for my proposal; they are so supported about me asking her. My mom even love her more than me.

I don’t know how she does it but she really close with my parent especially my Mom. I glance on my bedside clock and it’s already past 1am but I still can’t sleep. I tried my best to sleep and maybe because I was tired the whole day preparing my body eventually let me stumble to sleep.

I woke up in the alarm and I was about to go back to sleep when my phone suddenly rings. I irritatingly grab the phone and answer it.

“Hello.” I groggily answer

“UNNIE….” The other line shouted

“WHAT THE KRYSTAL? WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING?” I shouted back

“I’m sorry unnie but I know your still on your bed so I call to remind you about today’s proposal, so you better got up from the bed and prepare.” She hung up

I’m still processing what Krystal said when I remember the date today and I glances on the clock, it was already 9am.

“, I’m going to be late.” I hiss and immediately go to the bathroom to shower

I was going to pick Tiff in an hour because we’ll be spending our day with each other and proceed on my plan later this evening. I took a shower quickly and then put a simple shorts and a sleeveless blouse with a sleeveless blazer I put some make up and then headed to the elevator to the basement where my car is, I buy this car because of Tiff, it was her favorite color after all.

Her pad is not that far from mine so it didn’t take long for me to be there, I was now standing in her door. I rang the doorbell and in no time she came and opens the door. She always leave me breathless with her beauty, she’s so beautiful that I can’t take my eyes off her.

“Hello Yam.” She said and kisses me on the cheeks

“H-hello, let’s go?” I offer my hands; she holds it and intertwine with mine.

“Okay.” She locks her door and we started to leave

“You look gorgeous tonight.” I told her and I see her blush

“Not more than you GorJess.” She said that made me blush also but I chuckle to hide my redness

“So what are you planning to do Jessi?”

“It’s a surprise, remember?”

“Just tell me…Please?” She pouts and make a puppy eye

“No, just wait a little bit and you’ll see.” I usher her inside my car and then I sit on the driver sit

“Tell me pleeeease….” She use her aegyo

“No. I want it to be surprise.” I told her seriously and held her hand but she pull her hand and look outside the window

“---------“

“Tiff, don’t be mad, please?” I was about to hold her hand again but she back away so I sigh and just continue to drive

The nearest dock on Seoul was an hour drive so it takes that long before I saw a smile in her face. I get off from the car and walk to her side and help her to get out from the car.

“What are we doing here Jessi?” She was still gawking in the Yacht

“I want to spend my time with you free from the eyes of others so I thought this will be the best idea to do that, let’s go?”

“Okay, but is this yours? It has your name.”

“Yes it was the four of us have one each.” We went up to my Yacht and I her to the front where there a blanket and pillows in the floor with a wine and rose

“Wow…..”

“Happy anniversary Tiff.” I gave her the rose

“Jessi…” She hugs me

“I love you Yam.”

“I love you too and happy anniversary.”

“Just sit there and we’ll go to our destination.”

“Who’ll drive these?” She ask me while looking around

“Of course me, did you see someone around except for us.” I told her

“EH? YOU KNOW HOW TO SAIL A YACHT?”

“Gosh Tiff your loud voice, of course I know, I have license.” I started to maneuver the engine and start the Yacht

“Wow, you really was amazing Yam.” She back hugs me while I maneuvering the steering wheel

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