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JESSICA’S POV

I was now with Taengoo in my apartment; my schedule ends up late so she waits for me here. Actually it was 2 in the morning and I know she also had a schedule earlier but still she waits for me. And because of that I feel guiltier about being with her. And yes, Krys and others was right, I didn’t actually choose her that night but the other way around.

FLASHBACK

I’m so excited now, I going to say it already my feelings. I so excited to tell everyone that I love Stephanie Tiffany Hwang Miyoung. That I’m willing to spend my life with her, that she stole my heart and put the pieces of it together again. That I’m willing to do anything just to be with her.

I was now on my way to the rooftop of my company when I heard someone is talking in side hallway of the elevator, I know that voice it was Yul and Yoong so I was about to greet them when I heard what they are talking.

“What are you going to do now unnie?” It was Yoong

“What do you mean Yoong?”

“Unnie, we both know you develop feelings for Fany unnie. And also we knew that Sica unnie will choose her. Even you were in love with her you still choose to help her get the one she loves, I salute you unnie. I know the feelings unnie so if you want someone to talk to, I am here.” She was in love with Tiff? Since when? She had Gyuri, right?

“I have a GF Yoong and----“

I didn’t continue to hear talk because I was so shock on what I learned so I walk in immediately on the elevator when it opens. I didn’t even know that Yul was hurting because of the love Tiff had for me. I can’t be happy if I know Yul be hurting because of us. I just can’t. She was my sister, she was there for me before when I was down, and she was my SEOBANG.

I decided that maybe it was better if Tiff and I won’t be together, Yul can make her happy more than I can do. I know when they are together Yul won’t hurt Tiff and I know she’ll love her more than I can do. I’ll just try to love Taengoo again, Tiff will have Yul but Taeyeon won’t have anyone so maybe it was the right thing to do. Maybe this was sign from above that I was doing the wrong thing. I was still crying when the elevator open on the rooftop, Tiff approaches me.

“Hey Jessi why are you crying?” She hugs me so I cry more

“--------“ She back away slightly to look at me and there I saw the pain she was feeling

“Hey, Jessi let’s sit first okay?” She smile at me but I know it was force and then she started to walk but I didn’t

“I’m sorry Tiff…I…” I can’t tell her, the words won’t come out easily but I need to do it for all of us

“-------“ She’s back facing and I know her tears was falling already

“I choose her.” I told her those words I never think I’ll tell her when I realize she’s the one I love, I feel that she froze

“Then why Jessi? Why are you here then? You shouldn’t have come if only you’ll say this, because it doubles the pain when you tell me face to face that you rejected me and chose her.” She’s telling me that while crying hard, I prevent myself to hug her and take back my words

“I’m sorry Tiff.” The only thing I can say to her, I can’t take back my words, it’s for the best

“You better go, she’s waiting for you.” She prevents her tears and wipes the remaining before she face me and smile

“----------“ I don’t know what to say and react so I just stand there

“Jessi, I told you before I will make a way if you choose her so go. Be sure to be happy okay?”

She hug me like it was the last time she’ll do that before she usher me to the elevator, she push the button, when I was inside she wave at me and give me her eyes smile that was so force until the door close, I don’t want to go and just stay there but I can’t. I have to do this.

When the elevator reaches the ground floor I went to my car, I was crying likes crazy when I was inside my car; I punch the steering wheels that create a sound. I saw that my guards are going near me so I started to drive on the beach Taengoo said. This is right, I told myself many times.

When I reach the beach I compose the myself and re touch my make up, I don’t want Taengoo to see me like this so I calm myself first before I went near her. When she saw me, she started to sing with a guitar in hand.

ANGEL OF MINE

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=laHbi9M_ans)

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine

I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I lost all hope, you showed me love (Boy you showed me love)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (Right on Time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that we make
I only share it with you (you, you, you, you)
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

You came into my life sent from above (Came into my life, yeah yeah yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love (Boy You showed me love, uh huh)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (But boy your right on time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine, oh mine)

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow

I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

She came near me when the song ends

“Hey, are you crying?” She wipes my tears that I didn’t even know that it was there

“---------“ I don’t want to say, I was so touch about this all but I felt more guilty because of it

“Thank you for choosing me, you won’t regret this, I will love you twice as I did before and I won’t do anything to hurt you again.”

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“Hey Sica ah, say something please. You choose me right? That’s why you’re here?” She start to cry also so I hug her

“Taengoo ah…..”

“Sica,, you choose me right? You choose me so you are here, right?”

“Y-yes, I---I choose you.” I stutter

“You really choose me right? You’re crying because you we’re happy right?” She back away and look at me

“--------“ I can’t answer, I don’t want to lie to her

“Do you still love me?” She ask me

“Yes.” I answer immediately because it was true that I love her still

“But are you still in love with me?” She was crying and I can saw the pain she was feeling while asking me that question

“I---I…..” I can’t push myself to answer her because I know I will just lie if I say yes

“Tell me the truth Sica, you own me that for coming here. What is the reason you choose to come here and not there?”

“Taengoo ah….I—love you….”

“Please Sica ah, tell me the truth, I can saw that you may love me but you’re not in love with me anymore…I know it for some time now but I keep on denying it on myself, because I don’t want to accept it, I know I tell you before that if you choose her it will be okay for me but the truth is even you’re in love with her I want you to lie to me and tell me that I was still the one you love. I can accept it even it was a lie but seeing you right now crying and hurting I realize that I can’t be selfish so you can tell me what’s the reason you are here and not with her?”

“Taengoo ah…mianhe…Mianhe Taengoo ah….”

“Please Sica ah, just tell me….” She was crying hard and begging me

“I heard that Yul was in love with Tiff and when I heard it I didn’t think clearer and I just told Tiff that I choose you. I hurt her so much Taengoo….How can I love Tiff with all my heart when I know that I will hurt you and Yul.” I told her, I can’t avoid to not telling her the truth

“But because you want to avoid hurting us, you hurt yourself and also Fany ah. You don’t have to do this Sica, you should go back to her and tell her how you really feel.”

“I can’t Taengoo ah, I already decided that I will try again with you. I made my decision and I will just make sure that Yul will continue to love and cherish Tiff more than what I can do.”

“But Tiff wants you don’t you think that?” She was slightly shouting

“She’ll get over me soon and she can learn to love Yul.”

“How about Yul GF Gyuri?”

“Yul was in love with Tiff so I don’t care to anyone for now but sisters like Yul, Tiff and you.”

“Sica ah, you can’t do this….”

“Please Taengoo ah, help me forget Tiff and let her love Yul so everyone can be happy.”

“Sica ah…..”

“Please Taengoo ah, help me….jebal.”

“How can I help you?” She ask me giving up

“Let me be with you again and then help me to help Yul get Tiff.”

“But Sica ah, are you sure about it? It will hurt you so much.”

“I know and I can accept it, you are here for me right?”

“Of course Sica ah, I won’t leave you.”

I hug her tightly and we stay like that until Taengoo tell me I need to rest so she drives me home to my apartment. I don’t want to be alone so I told Taengoo to be with me. I can’t be alone because I know I may change my mind and run towards Tiff. She lied beside me until I felt my eyes heavy and I fall asleep.

END OF FLASHBACK

She never left me that night and she also never left me the next day, she also cancels all her schedule just for me. I was so glad that Taengoo care for me even I know I’m hurting her. She also agreed to help me that day so we announce that I choose her with every one we know.

I didn’t think of the consequence of my action, I just think of Yul  that night that I didn’t think of what Tiff will be after the rejection I made, I saw how mess Tiff this past week. We saw each other when we had same guesting in a radio show. She looks so thin compared before; it hurts to see her like that, she was smiling but her eyes tell it all. She interacts on me like nothing happen, just a cheerful Tiff but I know better.

Taengoo was now sleeping in my lap, we decided to watch TV shows but because it was already late she fall asleep, my eyes is also getting heavier. I carry her carefully into the bedroom so she was comfortable enough and I lie beside her, I stare at her and I really can’t feel the way I feel for her before.

When we are together before I love staring at her it makes me happy just staring at her but now I can’t even smile staring at her baby face. I lie in my back again and stared at the ceiling, I think of Tiff and I can’t help but smile when I remember all the think we did in NY, I love the way she stares at me and I love the way she care for me, I love the way she smiles and also I love the way she makes me smile, all in all I love her in all aspect, her whole being.

My tears fall while I’m remembering all our memories since she confess to me and the things I realize when I accept that she’s the one I love and not my ex. Krystal was right when she told me before that I actually confuse just because Taengoo was my ex and I’m still can’t get over the fact that I’m in love with her for 4 years and for the fact that we broke up with no explanation or whatsoever.

I lessening the sound of my cry for Taengoo not to be disturb in her sleep, I can’t let her be in pain in my selfishness. I need to be a good GF for her if it’s the only thing I can do for her. I cry myself to sleep that night.

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I was now having a movie night with Hara, Dara unnie and Yeon ah. It’s been a while since we had our time together because of our busy schedule and also after what Yeon and me been through. But we already pass through it because I know Yeon was starting to move from the pain I inflicted on her, she had Eunjung in her side.

We are watching “Insurgent”, I didn’t really enjoy this kind of movie but Dara unnie wants it so we just agreed. I was beside Yeon while I’m leaning my head on her shoulder, I need someone to assure me that everything is going to be okay and I know Yeon will  make me feel secure by being her side. That’s how I feel before when I was kick out, she let me feel secure.

When the movie ends…..

“Nice movie.” Dara unnie said

“Yeah, it’s a beautiful movie.” Yeon ah

“Unnie, did you enjoy the movie?” Hara ask me

“Hmm? Y-yeah.”

“You didn’t exactly knew what the movie is, right?” Dara unnie ask

“I’m sorry unnie, I’m just thinking of something.” I told them truthfully

“Okay, and now I remember that’s why three of us decided to schedule this movie night because we want to talk to you about your decision these past weeks.” Dara unnie

“What do you mean Dara unnie?” I ask her like I didn’t know what she was saying

“Unnie, I know you know what Dara unnie is asking. Unnie why did you choose someone that can’t make you happy.” Yeon

“I love Taengoo guys.” I told them

“We know but you’re not in love with her unnie, we know.” Hara

“Guys, I am in love with her.” I told them firmly

“Yeah right, who is your convincing us or yourself?” Dara unnie with sarcastic voice

“Guys, I choose her because it was the right thing to do for every one so please support me on this.” I told them

“We can’t support you unnie if we know you’ll hurting yourself in the process.” Yeon

“Unnie, please tell us why? We’re here to help you.” Hara

“I---I---“ I don’t know how to say to them especially since Hara was here and Gyuri was her co member.

“We’re your friends Sica so please let us help you, what really happen for you to choose Taeyeon more than Tiffany who you clearly love.” Dara unnie

“Someone in my former group was in love with Tiff. How will I choose Tiff if I know Taengoo and the person will be hurt.”

“But did you ever think that Tiffany unnie will be hurt?” Yeon ask

“I don’t, because that night I didn’t think the consequences I just thought I can’t hurt my sisters and friends for years just because I want to be happy.”

“Did that someone you’re saying confess to Tiffany?” Dara unnie ask

“No, because she knows Tiff was in love with me.”

“Exactly the point, Tiffany was in love with you and she knows that, so she never confesses.”

“And as I remember unnie, everyone in your former group was attached so it means that someone has a GF or BF.” Yeon said

“Yeah she has a GF…” I told them

“Who is she exactly unnie?” Hara curiously ask

“I can’t tell you…”

“Wae unnie? It can’t be one on Sooyoung and Sunny unnie right? Because I saw how they love each other.” Yeon

“No, they aren’t.”

“It also can’t be Yoona because she was in love with you before and now on your sister.” Dara unnie said and I nod

“It can’t be Seo because you clearly said that she has a GF and Seo has a BF. So it means it will be down to Hyo unnie and Yul unnie that’s why you can’t tell us because the both of them is attach with my co member, right unnie? And for my knowledge I can clearly state that within those two Yul unnie was the one you’re saying, isn’t she?” I hung my head low on what Hara said

“So it means Yuri unnie was in love with Tiffany unnie, since when? I saw her with Gyuri unnie and I can tell that they are in love, or Yuri unnie is just really a good actress?” Yeon

“There something missing in a picture; who told you about this Sica?” Dara unnie

“I hear them talking, Yul and Yoong. Yoong said that Yul develop some feelings towards Tiff.”

“And then?” Dara unnie

“I didn’t hear the remaining because I’m too shock on what I learned so I walk out there.”

“That’s it, you didn’t hear the remaining talk so maybe you miss something there, yes she maybe develops some feelings for Tiffany but she didn’t confess, why? That’s what you need to know.” Dara unnie said

“Guys, it’s done I already have Taengoo.”

“What about Tiffany? Did you already think of what’s going to happen to her?” Dara unnie

“I don’t.”

“You should re-think all of that happen and think of what could happen to the one you love if you didn’t tell her your real feelings. Did you ever think that in the choices you did all of you gets hurt, Tiff gets hurt because she thinks you choose Taeyeon over her, Taeyeon gets hurt because she knows you don’t love her anymore, Yuri will get hurt because she’ll see Tiffany hurting and most of all you’ll be hurting the most because you give away the one you love to your friend that have a possibility that they be together and you’ll be stock with the person you don’t love anymore.” Dara unnie said while I started to cry there with Yeon hugging me

“Don’t do this to yourself Sica unnie, the pain you’re feeling before is enough, don’t make worse. Do the right thing unnie.”

“I don’t know. I don’t know.” I answered them crying

They just comforted me and didn’t say anything again until I fall asleep.

I woke up the next day with phone ringing, I search for my phone and I reach it on my bedside, I didn’t even look whose calling I just answered it.

“Yeboseyo?”

“Sica unnie…hello.”

“Yoong?” I look at the caller ID

“Yes unnie, I was actually calling to ask you if you have a time for us to have a date.”

“Date? Yoong ah you know we are both attach.” Then I heard a laugh

“Unnie, of course not that kind of date, I mean like our date before, a si