Guys, especially for the Yoonsic shippers...I’m sorry...I’m having a hard time creating yoonsic moments. I'm lacking of ideas when it comes to them. But hope even a slight moment of them in this update can make you happy...thank you for reading guys...

I think this is a lame update but I still hope you’ll enjoy it….i’m lacking of ideas already so the next update maybe takes time……thank again for reading….

thank you also for the comments it inspirs me to write. thank you again

NO ONE’S POV

Nicole Jung decided to talk to her family now about her Sica unnie condition, she knows that S

she and Krystal agreed not tell their parents and their brother but after she heard Hyoyeon told her, she can’t ignore it anymore so she was called them up while her Sica unnie was in the state for her weekly class.

She entered her house and saw that they are all here.

“Unnie, why did you call us here?”Krystal

“I have important things to discuss with you guys? It’s about Sica unnie Mom, Dad.”

“What about her?” Mom ask while Krys eyed me “we-talk-about it already” I just smiled at her and signal that it’s about time, she just nod.

“Mom, Dad, I’m sorry, I never intended this to be a secret but Sica unnie doesn’t want to worried you guys so she don’t want to tell you.”

“What is it Nics?” Oppa

“Sica unnie was having a same nightmare for the past months now.” Krys interjected

“What do you mean by that?” Dad

“It means she was having the same nightmare and it wakes her up every time with a sweats and trembling.”

“WHAT?” Except Krys and me

“Mom, Dad, Oppa, let me explain first before you act okay?”

They all nod.

“It begun after her two weeks being missing in action. It was a nightmare about her former members that they telling things/harsh words about her, we really didn’t know it because she won’t tell. The only person that she trusts about it is Jiyeon. And Jiyeon told Hara and we learned it from Hara. And because she doesn’t want us to be worried about her, but Hyo said----“

“Unnie, you still talk to her? I thought you already break up with her after what she did to Jess.” Krystal said in English with a furious tone

“Krys, she’s my girlfriend, I know I should be angry with her and I tried to avoid her and be cold to her but Sica unnie knock some sense in my head, she told me that my relationship with Hyo is not related on what happen to them that I shouldn’t let this affect us because Sica unnie doesn’t what both Hyo and I suffer. I love her so much Krys.”I sadly say the last sentence

“And she was right  Nicole, Jessica knows how much you love her so she doesn’t want you to suffer by ignoring or breaking with the one you love, I was angry with them first but I came to understand their situation when I learned the truth through your Father, even though I can’t forgive them from what they do but it doesn’t mean we really cut their connection to us, specially to you guys, they have a strong connection to you guys that can’t be erase to matter what you do, we may be mad at them right now, but we should accept what happen after sometime, because it was fated to happen.” Mommy Jung

“But Mom, how come so are so calm about everything? How come you accept all of it even after knowing the truth, still they hurt your daughter “Yong hwa

“I know but everything happen already, we should accept it for us to move on, Jessica was just mad at them but we all know how much she loves her members, her scar will heal eventually and she will forgive them, and it will happen soon enough because like Nicole said, Jess told her not be cold to her girlfriend because it will cause pain on both side, she still cares for her members and she was just blinded by anger and pain.”

“Your mother was right, we as her family should start to accept it for us to help Jessi to accept what happen. She needs to accept it for the pain to go away. It’s the only way for her to move on.” Daddy Jung said

“Okay guys, Nicole started it so I should expecting also to you Krys and Yong hwa to accept it already, I didn’t want you to forgive them already because even I didn’t but don’t be so cold to them because they were parts of you lives, Yong hwa with Seohyun and Krys with Yoona.”

“How did you know?” Krystal stutter asking

“I’m your mother Krystal.” And she blush and we laugh at her

“And it was so obvious on your jealous eyes when Yoona was so clingy to Sica Noona.” Yong hwa teases

“YAH OPPA.” We all laugh again

“Okay, let’s get down to business again, Nicole continue what you are saying?”

“Okay Dad, because unnie doesn’t want to sleep so she sometimes was wide awake 3 days straight and busy herself through her work, she was exhausted already.”

“And why didn’t you tell us?” Dad with a worried tone

“Dad she told you already earlier that Sica unnie doesn’t want us to tell you.”

“But still---“

“Hon, let Nicole finish her story okay?” Mr. Jung just nod

“And we always telling her to seek an opinion of a doctor for this but she was stubborn as always and didn’t comply. Then Hyo and her members happen to know it so they was the one who seek for help, they happen to know a doctor and he give them advice about Sica unnie’s condition.”

“And what is it?” Yong hwa

“It was a kind nightmare disorder cause by stress or someone close to her.”

“And what are the things Jessi needs to do?” Mrs. Jung

“The first step was just easy, we just need make her relax, and it means she needs to attend Yoga and Meditation. And we all know that if we ask her that she’ll not comply, right? *they nod* so I suggest we need sacrifice all.”

“What do you mean by that?” Yong hwa

“I mean Mom and Dad will tell Sica unnie they will require us all to attend Yoga with them like family bonding.”

“But unnie, you know I hate Yoga and unnie also.” Krystal

“That’s why Mom and Dad will be the one to tell her so she can’t say no.”

“You really give us the hardest part, which was convincing her. You’re such a good daughter.” Mr. Jung said smiling

“Sorry Dad, you know I love you but we all three know that she won’t agree to us.”

“Okay, I’ll let that task to your Dad.” Mrs. Jung smiled

“But Hon…” Mr. Jung whine

“You can do it Hon, I believe in you. We need to help her.” Mrs. Jung

“Yes Dad, she needs to relax said by the doctor for her to get rid of her dreams.” I back up my mom

“Is that 100% sure?” Mrs. Jung ask

“It was not Mom. The Doctor said that if this technique doesn’t manage to eliminate her nightmares we need to do the hardest part.” Nicole was hesitating to say it

“Which was?” Krystal ask

“Which we needed to fix the cause of her nightmares, which means we need to fix her problems with her members?”

“And you know that was really going to be hard,right?.” Krystal

“Yes, I know and they also know, so we really need to make sure that Yoga and Meditation will help her relax so she doesn’t have to have a nightmare again.”

“We really should because as far I don’t want Jessica hurting, the pain that she was feeling right now is the only one she’s holding to for her to go on and be the Jessica we know. The pain is the only one keeping her alive and not in depress mode.” Mrs. Jung said sadly.

They all became silent, they we’re all worried about Jessica but they don’t know what to do or what help they can do for her.

JESSICA’S POV

It has been a week after what happen between me and Tiff and for the whole week I can’t concentrate especially because my ex start to hunt me also, she came to my apartment pretty drunk a day after Tiff came.

FLASHBACK

I was in my apartment and I was so sleepy, it was 3am already but I don't want to sleep, my dreams now worsen because of Tiffany's confession.

I’m reviewing my companies document about the events that we are planning, the fashion was going to be this week so I much busier this week. While reviewing the doorbell rang. I was startled, who is the ing person going to visit me in 3am in morning.

I walk to the door and check the monitor to see was the person. And I was shock to see my ex struggling to keep on standing straight, she was drunk I can see it through her state. My hands move on their owned and open the door.

“Taengoo, what are you doing here?” I was so worried that I actually call her by the pet name I gave her.

“Si...sica. I'm sor*hik*ry. Mian*hik*he Sica ah. Mianhe..*sniff* Mianhe.” she keeps on saying sorry and crying there.

I help her stand straight and usher her inside, I let her sit on the couch, I’m going to stand but her hand held me on the wrist and  pull me so I landed on her lap and hug me. She embraces me tightly.

" Mianhe...Sica.*hik**sob* I didn't mean to hurt you." She still crying

"Taengoo, let me go and I’m going to get some water or tea. You’re drunk." I was getting uncomfortable in our position but I’m feeling the same warm because of her embrace

“Sica please forgive me. I'm sor*hik* ry, I love you Sica. I*sob*never stop and I will *sob**hik*never stop loving you.”

I was so stunned in her statement that I froze there and stop struggling to for her to let me go from her embrace.

She said she love me.

I waited for her for 2 years to tell me that she still love me.

I felt the familiar sensation in my stomach that I always felt before when she's telling me that three words but at the same I’m feeling the pain that I felt when she broke up with me.

I felt my chest tightened. I push her away and because she was drunk I easily escape but I can't think anything for now except my chest really hurt, I can't bear the pain that I fall on the floor when I try to walk backwards and while I was holding and easing the pain in my chest, Taeyeon who was drunk tried to stand straight went to me.

"Sica ah, are you okay?"

I didn't answer her, she must be shock because her drunkenness is gone when she approach me.

"Sica,...hey...tell me what's happening?"

She held me and embraces me, her hand was on my back and she rubbing it. Even I want to push her again I can’t because of the pain but it was slowly going away because of what she was doing. Her hand was still soothing as I remember. I didn't know that I fall asleep in her embrace until I wake up again by those nightmares.

My eyes when wide and I was trembling again. I felt a hand in my waist and I realize that Taengoo was here. I remember that I was in pain earlier and she was there consoling me until I fell asleep in her arms in the floor in the living room, and now we are in my room, there was the two of us so I assume she carry me here.

"Sica, what happen? Did you dream again?"

She embrace me and while we were lying on my bed. How did she know I was dreaming before? I was about to ask her but she suddenly humming a song that she always singing to me before when we're together, the song I wrote for her, her voice and warm body never fails me to drag me on the dreamland like before.

When I woke up again, I felt cold. I scan the room to look for Taengoo but I didn't see her, I felt disappointed.

Your such a Babo Jessica...she hate you remember and you also hate her, she doesn't love you anymore that's why she broke up with you two years ago, do you really expect that she'll be here when you wake up, she was drunk yesterday that’s why she here, nothing more. I was still battling with my mind when I heard the door suddenly open. There she was with a tray of foods. She was smiling at me. I smile inside, she was here, and she doesn’t leave me again.

“Hey, your awake, here *put the tray on the bed and help me sit up, I was just there staring at her* I cook you breakfast before I go.” She was hesitating, I can sense it. Then I remember all the things they did to me, especially her.

“Thank you Miss Kim. You better go now.”

I told her coldly, then I felt her froze on her spot, she maybe shock that I’m back for being cold and mad at her, did she think that I’ll forgive her and be back together because she say sorry and those three words again.

“Sica ah….”

“It won’t happen again, you should go Miss Kim, and I don’t want some paparazzi caught you coming from my apartment.”

 She was just there, I didn’t want to look into her eyes, and I didn’t want to see what’s in there what if I see something that will hurt me again.

"Sica, let's talk. I need to tell---"

“I told you to go Miss Kim. And when you’re drunk make sure you know your way home to the dorm, not here in my apartment."

“But you are my home Sica. Please let me---" before she finish what she was saying my phone rings.

 Yeon calling.....

I smiled before I answer the phone.

"Yeboseo"

" Sica ah, what time is your schedule today?"

“Later this afternoon, I have a recording for Music Core. And have a dinner with my family. Wae? Miss me already?" I cockily said.

“Yes, miss you so much." I’m sure she was pouting now

“Miss you too Yeon, where are you? Let's have breakfast together if you're free, so don't pout okay, I know you are right now." I chuckle

“No I’m not. And I’m picking you in an hour"

"Okay see you in an hour."

 I can't stop smiling after the call, I stand up and realize Taeyeon is still in the room, I forget about her. And when I look at her I saw sadness. So I look away. Why is she sad? No Sica, it was not sadness.

“Miss Kim, I’m heading out in an hour with Yeon and she's picking me, so you should go because I don't want Yeon to see you here."”

I walk in the bathroom and take a shower, I didn't take long to shower because I don't want Yeon to wait, I walk out in the bathroom with only towel on and she's still sitting on the bed. I got shock because I don't have anything under the towel but I compose myself, she sees me before so what’s to hide.

“What are you still here?” 

I ask her disinteresting voice before I go walk in my closet and choose my clothes. But when I about to dress up, I felt hands in my waist and back hug me.

“Please don’t leave and talk to me." she was crying but I guard my defense

“Let me go Miss Kim." I tried to escape but she won't let me go.

I still struggling on her grip but she spun me around make me facing her and cup my cheeks, she kiss me. And when I feel her lips on mine I realize how I miss those lips pressing on mine. But there’s something that was lacking and I don't know what is it but I let be.

I was lost in her kisses like before when we are still dating, we keep on kissing until she back away because of lack of air and before I can say something she kiss my neck, I moan. she's kissing my sensitive spot.

“Ah, Taengoo, st…..ahhh..stop." I stutter.

“Do you really want to?" she whispers while kissing my neck

"...ahhh.. Don’t leave mark.” I felt her smiling on my neck, she was stubborn and I felt that she mark me. I just let her again.

I’m still in my towel, but because of the sensation I’m feeling I let go the grip of my towel and grab Taengoo by her neck and I slightly turn my head to the left to give her more access. She walks and we landed on my bed, her on my top, she kiss me again on lips and we are battling the dominancy and she won and my towel was slight open already, she was caressing, my inner thigh.

"Taengo...ahhhh"

After sometime I heard the doorbell and that snap me from what happening, I push Taeyeon hard that she fall from the bed.

“! ! !” I curse myself

“Sica ah….” she stands and tried to walk towards me but I glared at her. The doorbell keeps on ringing. It’s Yeon for sure. Think Jessica, think!

I scolded myself while thinking what to do, I can’t let Yeon see this, I can’t hurt her, I think I’m starting to like her hard, I don’t want to lose her. You’re in a deep Jessica. Then I felt hand in my shoulder. I glared in the person in front of me again.

"Sica….." I keep on glaring at her.

Then an idea pop up on my head. I grab my phone and call Yeon.

“Yeon ah…”

“Sica, I’m here at your door already, didn’t you hear the door.”

“Really? Sorry Yeon ah but can you just wait for me on the lobby, I’m still on the shower.”

“Oh, but I can wait for you on the living room, I know your password, remember?”

“AH EH….I…”

“You know what? I’ll wait for you in the lobby.” There was something in her voice; she didn’t know I have someone here right?

“Chincha? Thanks!” I was relieved that she agreed

“Okay, bye.”

“Bye.” I hung up

“You should go Miss Kim, I’ll have to go get change” I glared at her before walking to my walk in closet again and get change.

When I’m done getting dress and putting some make up, I’m ready to go but Taeyeon was still there.

“Miss, I told you to go home before I get mad even more than now.” I threatened her so she quickly gathered her jacket and walk the door but before she left

“Sica ah, I’m serious when I tell you I love you and I’ll try to win you back.” She shouts before she walks out the door.

 AISH….HOW DARE HER, SHE MAKES IT MORE COMPLICATED NOW.

There’s Yeon then Tiff and now her. ARGHH…Please God don’t add more.

I tried to hide my neck so i grab my scarp and put it so Yeon won't see the mark Taeyeon did.

I headed out and meet Yeon that day before going to my schedule. She was smiling but I can sense something was different from her. But I shrug it off when she asks me where to eat.

END OF FLASHBACK

Yes we make out; I felt again the love that was I waiting for the whole two years since we broke up. And my love life now was more complicated enough, I gave Yeon a chance because I know I like her and I really don't want to lose her, she's the one who's been there for me when I needed someone, I can't hurt her, I don't want to hurt her.

 Then there's Tiff, my best friend, even after all that happen, there's one thing I know, no one can replace Tiff as my best of the best friend, Taengoo was also my best friend but friendship between Tiff and I was much deeper that it was with Taeyeon, maybe because except for the fact that I consider her as my best friend and she was my first love, I was confuse what was my feelings with Tiff right now after that kiss, it bothered me so much because I really can't believe what I feel and did that night, I don’t want to believe that I kiss her back and I like it, even I deny it I know I like our kiss, it was sweet yet full of emotion.

Then Taeyeon, I know I still love her, what happen that day was a proof that the feelings I have for her was still there but after thinking it thoroughly I know something was change, my love for her was not as strong as before. There’s a hole and I realize it.

So right know I was really confused because of this, I want someone to talk to about, and I don't who. I want Yeon but she's one of the three that I was having a problem right now.

I was in the deep thought that I didn't even realize that Dara unnie was in my side already if she didn't nudge me so I look at her.

We are in the practice room.

“Hey, I was calling you nth times already. Care to share what's on your mind?"

"Unnie, I’m just thinking something. Don't worry."

"How will not I worry if your face says it all that you have a problem? You were frowning from time to time. I'm a good listener remember."

“It just.....” how could I tell her my love problems when in the first place I reject her? Sigh.

“Just?”

“It was nothing unnie, I can handle it.” I can't tell her, I might hurt her.

“Hmm? Is it about love that's why you can't tell me?” my eyes became wide, how did she know, did she just read me.

I have a strong facade so it was not easy to read me.

“It was just a guest but I think I’m correct, am I? You can tell me Sica ah, I’m your friend that you can lean on even if the times like this.”

“It was nothing unnie.” I smiled at her; I know how much it hurt to hear someone you like talking someone they like.

“Sica, just tell me. I already accept the fact that you don’t feel the same way about me so it’s okay.” She insist so I just sigh, she won’t stop until I told her

“It just that I was confuse unnie, you know that I decided to give Yeon a chance right? *she nod* I’m sure I like her and I don’t want to lose her but the thing unnie is, there’s two person in my in my past complicate things.” I mumble

“And who are that two? Taeyeon is one as I assume, right? And the other was?”

“Right and the other one was my best friend.”

“Best friend? Hmm? Tiffany Hwang? *I nod* Ohh…So how did it complicate things?”

“The other want be back and the other confess.”

“EH? CHINCHA?”

“Yes, and I was confuse because of that.”

“I understand about your ex, but what about your best friend?”

“She supposed to be not involved in my confusion about my feelings but after the……”

“After what?”

“After she…”

“She?”

“Kiss me and I kiss her back.” I mumble again

“EH? REALLY? WAE?” her voice was loud that some people in the room was looking at us already so I bow to them and mouthed sorry, so they came back to what they are doing.

“I don’t know, my body just reacts that way.”

“It means you like her.”

“N..NO.” I said with hesitancy on my voice

“You hesitated, it means you weren’t sure.”

“I…I don’t know.”

“How about what you feel with your ex?”

“I know I still love her but….it just that…”

“It’s not the same anymore?”

“It’s not that...I still felt feelings when...….” I was having a hard time saying that she also kiss me

“Don’t tell me, you two kiss also?" ! She reads me again

"Y...yes..and....make out."

“Eh?"

"I lost control on her kisses and I didn't know what I’m doing."

"So what's the problem with her, if you react like that it means you love her still."

"That's the problem I know I love her, I felt all the sensation and the butterflies in my stomach when we are kissing but something was really missing, and I don't what is it?"

“Your love for her lessens?”

“I don't know unnie. Maybe?"

"Do you feel that your love for her is not that strong as before."

“Y…yes…that's it. I think that what it is. ” I confusedly say

“And now you don’t know what to do?”

“Yes…