A Moment Of Anger

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I was looking outside, as the snow just kept falling like always, it was like it was unstoppable. It just kept falling and falling.

The red letters was gaining attention from people, who walked past it outside. They were looking and glaring at the words, some even stopped to take a picture or just to read all the words and then continue with their lives.

My mother had called the police who had taken a look at the windows and then told her that they would try their best to find the person who did this. To be honest, I didn’t think that they would find the person; this wasn’t murder or anything just as serious. I didn’t even want to tell my mother who did this, like I mentioned before, she shouldn’t be dragged into this.

With a sigh, I took at step back as the door suddenly opened with the sound of the bell ringing. I looked up to see an old lady, which I had seen so many times in this store. She came for different kind of books every time, sometimes it was cooking books and other times is was novels filled with love.

“Hello,” I quickly said and gave a small bow in her direction.

She quickly answered my bow as she with her small steps walked over beside me, so both of us now were standing and starring outside the painted windows.

“It’s such a shame,” She said and let her eyes wander over the words. “I don’t understand that anyone could do this”.

I smiled a bit. Yeah, why would people do this? Because of jealousy maybe? Or simply, just because they were stupid and wanted to get any kind of attention no matter what. People sometimes just do things without thinking about the consequences and how it might hurt and cause problems for other people.

“Yeah, but there’s nothing we can do about it,” I said and gave her a smile, to show her that it didn’t really matter now. “The only thing we can do is to clean it and then move on”.

The lady smiled at me before she with her slow steps turned around and walked towards the shelves where she like always found a new book or two. I was about to turn around to ask her if she needed help, when I noticed that my mother already were standing there. I couldn’t help but sigh, before I walked towards the apartment where I found a bucket and filled it with hot water. I quickly grabbed the bucket and a cloth before I walked through the store and outside where I placed the heavy bucket.

“Need help?”

I looked towards the voice and saw Luna and Kris standing with a smile on their lips.

“That would be nice,” I said and returned their smiles and grabbed the now wet clothed and slowly started to wash the red paint away.

Luna was standing beside me and looked like someone who tried to get her hand through the glass every time she was about to wash the window. With her tongue in between her lips and her eyebrows almost touching, she was focusing like she never did before.  Kris looked like someone who was bored, he had his typical face on and that’s it.

We spent an hour standing outside in the cold, trying to get the red paint of off the windows, which we succeed with. You were still able to see a bit of the red paint here and there, but it wasn’t a thing you would notice.

“Done” I mumbled and looked at the windows with a quit satisfied smile.

“God,” Luna sighed and bent over so her hands were resting on her knees. “I’m so tired and cold!”

“Then let’s go inside,” I said and was about to grab the bucket, when I noticed it already was gone. I quickly looked around, what if someone had stolen it without my notice?

“Luna,” I asked and got her attention as I turned towards her.” Have you seen the bucket?”

She suddenly flashed me a smile and nodded like a kid who had got the opportunity to pick any kind of toy in a store.

“Yeah, Kris took it,” She said and grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the store. It was like we walked through a wall as we entered, the store was nice and warm as always. Luna was right about Kris, as I saw the bucket standing beside the counter, now empty. “What a charmer… Why was it now we avoided him?”

I couldn’t help but smile as I slowly looked over at Luna who now were having her tongue in between her lips again as she was thinking as hard as possible.

“1. Because his eyes could kill you, and most important, torture your soul even after your death.
2. MiYoung would have killed you if you showed any kind of interest in him” I said and placed both hand on my hips as we both now had our eyes fixed on the bucket on the floor.

“That actually explain a lot,” Luna suddenly said after a couple of minutes in silence. I looked over at her in an attempt to know what she meant. “I mean… After you started to be with Kris, MiYoung started to become a and when we others joined you, she became a hell of a nightmare”.

“Oh….” I said and looked down at my hands. “She’s after you too?”

I just received a half hearted smile, before she walked past me and entered the apartment. With a sight I followed her, when the smell of hot chocolate hit me and I saw my mother and Kris sitting on the chairs in the kitchen, talking to each other. Luna was standing by the counter with a mug in her hands as she tried to figure out what my mother and Kris were talking about.

I walked over beside her and grabbed a mug and leaned up against the counter like she did.

“Luna…” I said without looking at her, my eyes were focused on Kris and my mother; this was a thing they didn’t have to hear. “If she is, please tell me then”.

Luna sighed and looked at me with almost pleading eyes. The mug in her hands was slowly moving from side to side in her shaking hands.

“She contacted my dad,” She said and looked out at nothing. “She told him a lot of things, things I’m not so proud of… You know, like what happened between me and Onew at the party last summer”.

“I thought…”

“She turned the truth around and told him we had planned on running away, she told him that ‘she was worried about me, because I for some kind of reason wasn’t faithful towards him’… I have seen dad getting so mad in my entire life, he told me that he didn’t care about who I was with, but that he didn’t want me run away. He yelled like a crazy person and sent me to my room, that’s why I haven’t been visiting lately,” she told and looked down at her feet. “Because of her… My dad doesn’t trust me any longer”.

“What a ,” I said and looked at my mother. I knew she trusted me, even though I sometimes didn’t tell her what happened in my life. I couldn’t imagine a world, where she wouldn’t trust me enough to let me leave the house, it seemed so far away.

“I don’t know what to do,” Luna sighed frustrated as she let her hand run through her dark hair.

I know…

I placed the mug on the counter with a bang which only resulted in some of the chocolate ended on the table. With a sigh I pushed myself away and left the kitchen with everyone’s eyes on me, but for once it didn’t bother me.

I almost ran towards my room, where I closed and locked the door after me. Without even realizing what I was doing, I started to walk back and forth as thoughts were running through my head. It was always in some kind of way, the same thought over and over again. I couldn’t help, but think about a way to get my little “revenge” on MiYoung. She had not only destroyed a part of my life, but she had been after Luna too.

I sighed as deep as possible and stopped in front of the window. I bit my lower lip and let my eyes wander from side to side as people were crossing the road and cars were driving in a slow peace.

Slowly I reached out for my phone which was placed on the table right beside me, but before I even got a chance to grab it the sound of someone knocking on the door sounded.

“Nana, do you mind open the door?” I head Kris ask. I could almost imagine him standing outside with his arms crossed, looking all patient and stuff.

“S-sure,” I stammered and ran towards the door to let him in. I fumbled with the key, but after a few attempts the door went open and I was standing face to face with Kris, or more face to chest, that boy was seriously a tower.

“You sound a bit off,” He said as he walked into the room. “Are you alright?”

“I’m fine Kris, you don’t have to worry so much,” I said and walked over beside him. “I can take care of myself; I think I have mentioned that for you a couple of times now”.

“Yeah, you have,” He said and gave me his usual smirk, but it soon faded as he once again looked down at me. “But still… You have been through a lot lately… I’m just worried about how much more you can take”.

The sudden change in his voice made me look up, as I noticed how close we now were standing. Out chests were almost touching, the same for our faces, but once again I only had to face his chest, while he had to face my forehead and hair.

“You’re doing great,” His voice was now reduced to a whisper as I felt his hot breath on my forehead. Shivers were running down my spine and I didn’t even dare to look up, right now an eye contact could ruin everything. “But… There is a thing you haven’t told me yet”.

Slowly I glared up at him, still avoiding his eyes I focused on the space between his eyebrows.

“What are you talking about?” I asked. It felt like everything inside my slowly started to fall apart, my heart started to beat fast and my breath started to stop halfway though lobular. (?) Questions started to run through my head as I kept looking at him. How does he now? What does he want? Why is he even interested? Should I even tell him?

“There is something… You aren’t telling me,” He said and placed his hands on my shoulders and bent down so we were able to look directly into each other’s eyes. “Please Nana, I don’t want you to go with this alone. You know that you always can talk to me, just… please… This time, please tell me what you are hiding”.

I had no idea about what to say. Anger had suddenly started to take over my mind as I slowly backed away. How dared he to even say something like that?! He didn’t even have the right to ask about that! It wasn’t his business! He didn’t have to know everything about my life and how everything had turned around to something horrible.

“Get out,” I said as I continued to back away.

“Nana…”

“Get out!” I yelled. I felt my back hit the wall behind me as my sight began to get blurry. “GET OUT. NOW!”

He stared at me for a few seconds, before he slowly nodded without taking his eyes from me. I could see the disappointing in his eyes, how he almost felt betrayed and the shock from my yelling and snarl. He left the room in silence and closed the door after him. I was now left in silence; only the sound of my almost pathetic sobs could be heard.

Why did things have to be like this?

I grabbed my hair and let myself slide down to the floor, where the tears finally started to run down my cheeks.

“I-I’m sorry,” I sobbed over and over again until the tears suddenly stopped and a disturbing calmness fell over me…  

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Author's Note:

A new chapter and some drama in the end! Can it get any better? ^^ Hmmm... Who was Nana going to call? A question for everyone!

For the first time, in a really long time, summer has finally attacked Denmark... and I'm just dying because of the heat! But I'm not complaining! 

Like always I hope that you enjoyed this chapter! ^^ 

~ Bye for now!