-At least

you;

Jonggyu smiled at me as he passed and I gave him a beam back was well.

Yet arriving in my office made me sigh a big one. I held my stomach and sat down in my chair.

About a minute later, Moonri entered. "Oh, Yeunja ah, I thought you were still at home. Your shift hasn't begun yet."

I chuckled sleepily. "Yeah...I couldn't sleep and woke up earlier today. I was also done with make-up and such and just decided to go because in half an hour my shift would start anyway. And...what brings you into my office?"

"I have some new work for you to do. They just came in and I wanted to lay them down in your office before you come, so you'll see them, take them and start right away."

I nodded with a short smile and cleared my throat. "M-Moonri ah?"

"Yes?" she twirled around and I gulped. Come on! "Can...can I get two or three days off this week?"

Her eyes widened at my question, massaging her nose bridge afterwards. "I don't know what's wrong with you, or your body, or if you're pregnant. I hope not! And just because you're the fifth place in the whole competition doesn't mean you get everything here. I gave you three times off in the last two months! This is enough, not this time!"

"O-okay, not this time! B-but my sister...she will get married soon and I am invited, of course...can I get that day off? I think it'll be a Friday...and then also Saturday."

"I think about it." she slammed the door shut and I groaned, hitting my desk with my head.

I rubbed it furiously and started working already. Heesok is going to marry in about three weeks. I'm so done with my life right now.

And not only a random guy, or Siwon oppa. It will be my ex-boyfriend, Woo Jiho, a badass I actually knew nothing about.

Another groan filled the small room and I started my computer, getting some things to draw.

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"Oh, dongsaeng ah~ what would you think of these?" Heesok held some earrings my way and I looked out of the window.

"I've asked you something!"

"And I don't care." I mumbled and tapped the nails against the window. She sighed and almost slapped me, but I didn't even flinch one bit.

"Are you doing this on purpose?! Are you mad at me?!"

I turned to her after she let those words slip out of . "Want to hear the truth? Yes-"

The bell rang and I rolled my eyes annoyingly, walking over to our door.

"Hey, Yeunja ah!" Siwon beamed down at me and I leaned against the door frame. "Hey..what brought you here?"

"Do you...Are you busy at the moment?" he asked calmly and I shrugged. "I'd be more than glad to leave this house right at this moment...Ehm, let me just get some money and my phone."

Siwon nodded softly and I closed the door again.

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We entered a nice, not so crowded, small café and ordered quickly.

"And?" I looked at him as I checked my phone curtly and he sighed, his shoulders deflated. "My...my only grandpa died yesterday..."

I exhaled, almost closing my eyes. "I'm sorry, Siwon oppa."

"You know, everyday after school, I didn't want to go home because both of my parents were working what meant, I'd be home all alone. So I always preferred to go to my grandma's and grandpa's home which wasn't far from our old house back then. My grandma always had cooked something for me, although I wasn't hungry, yet for her, I always ate everything she gave me...what explains why I was chubby in my childhood."

We both shortly laughed and I let him continue. "Well, my grandma soon passed when I was seven years old. I promised my grandfather to come even more often now. And I did. Even if I had no school or was done with assignments. I came over and he played with me. He played with me and my toy car collection I had stuffed up somewhere in his house. It was great. Years later, we moved to another town and I couldn't visit him anymore. Everyday I told my parents if we could drive over to him. But in the end, I saw him maybe once in two weeks and that saddened me immensely. Well, years over years passed and I started to see him once in a month, then only on vacation or holidays and ended up seeing him once a year, for his birthday. He had no car, only a bike and my parents and he himself told us, he did not want to drive with his bike to our new home...I'm sorry, I talk to you without interruptions...How have you been?"

I blinked and sighed. "I feel so sorry for you...You loved him a lot, didn't you?"

"I still do." Siwon slightly looked up and tears almost reached my eyes. Yes, lately, when it comes to emotions I'm totally haywire. I was so done with my own ones that I couldn't decide if the feeling was necessary or not just now.

I patted his hand that laid on top of the small table. "Like I said, I'm always here, I'm this little sister you never wanted."

He gazed into my eyes and smiled lightly. He has the same smile as Jiho...

I backed away and Siwon blinked confused. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah~ I think I just have something in my eye right now." I chuckled and pretended to carefully poke around my eye, laughing when I got out whatever was "in there".

"Hey, Siwon...I think...I think I have to go again. Heesok won't be happy that I am out so long." I stood up and he did as well. "But-but...our coffees!"

"Here's the money!" I stuffed some money in his hand and wanted to turn around but he caught me around my wrist. "Yeunja ah...are you free tomorrow?"

I hesitated but nodded. He smiled. "Wanna meet up again?"

I agreed with a curt smile and nod, Siwon hugged me. "Okay, I'll just call you tomorrow, okay?"

Again, I nodded, then I left hurriedly.

I speed-walked home and took a big gulp of our water bottle until the bell rang.

I growled loudly and opened the door. "What?!"

"I'm sorry that I rang on the bell and not climb up your room." Jiho muttered and I was about to close the door but he pushed his feet between frame and door. "Listen to me, I-"

"We had this topic already. I don't need to listen to you. I know everything." I sighed and crossed my arms. Jiho sighed and pulled on his hair. "Please, I just want to tell you some things!"

I rested my palm on my forehead and leaned against the door frame with my elbow. "You have ten seconds before I close the door."

"I'm serious..." he paused and I crossed my arms again, leaning against the frame once more. "Ahuh?"

"Can I come i-"

"No. Say it here or go." I warned and Jiho gulped. "I did bad things. We beat up people and I was having fun because I was always the one that got bullied at school and even home. I had fun showing people what I felt and was satisfied to see that they exactly felt this. They were scared of me and I felt...I felt perfect. It was...awesome. And after Kyung and I started together with Yukwon and another boy, we found way more and started to build up a gang-"

"I know that, come to the point." I cut him and Jiho breathed flatly. "What I need to say is...I know, I did wrong things, and I know, telling you was even worse because our relationship was so precious to me and I really knew that one day it will ruin everything if I don't tell it you. But I was so afraid of how you could react because...y-you're like a soft flower and I thought you'd be all scared and pissed off by what I did and-and you'd hate me..."

"I wouldn't have hated you for that. I wouldn't be scared. I wasn't always the princess I am now...I was kind of poor myself just four years ago, okay? My life norm has turned to a better but I still know what can happen. I wouldn't be scared. But...I despise you for the fact that you didn't trust me. You can't trust your own love. Ha, love what am I talking about. You had enough of those 'loves', no?"

I saw Jiho adam's apple bobbing up and down. He paused as he was about to speak but started to explain again. "Okay...i-it's true. I brought girls home...a lot. Way too much girls. I went into clubs at the age of fifteen and shortly after that came a time where I seriously brought home every girl that was talking to me more than five minutes. Close to everyday and yes...I made love to them. It was purportless love because I told them to go right the following morning and maybe even night. I didn't even face the girl again."

Wow, now I'm even utterly disgusted by this guy.

"But..." he exhaled, averting his gaze to his feet. "I know by now that love as in skin ship shouldn't be wasted like that. You should...you should do it with somebody you love from the bottom of your heart." he looked up at me. "And honestly, I'm not lying, if you were like these girls I used to date and bring home every night...I would've wanted you in my bed after like, one or two weeks. But Yeunja ah, I find you too special for doing things like that to you...at least not that early."

We exchanged quick glances and a smile tugged on my lips. "And...how is it to be engaged to my sister?"

He opened his mouth but no sounds came out. Jiho looked to the side hurt. "I was in the city café just now...And you're meeting up with Heesok's ex?"

"To be honest, he got no secrets to hide! Today he told me that his grandfather died and he told me a long story about him and you know what, we really become closer and closer because we text each other every day!"

"Are you trying to say...you'll be dating him?"

"You could call it like this!" I shut the door and glared at it for some seconds before I opened it again, "Oh, by the way, I think I'll be choosing him as my date for your ing wedding!"

I slammed the door loudly and stamped upstairs. I fell onto my bed and started crying. Crying over the fact that I lied to him about the thing with Siwon.

Crying over the fact that my deepest love was going to marry my sister and especially that I was still emotionally unstable to do anything just because of Woo Jiho, the badass I actually knew nothing about.

  AUTHOR NOTE;   so, what about this? Will she get back to him?
WATCHA SSINK?

guys, I see the end coming ..... it won't be 44+ chps

even less I think, OH WELL.

omg I told my friends I so have to write a zico fic again just because yessss