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To be, or not to be, that is the question:

Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer

The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles

And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,

No more; and by a sleep to say we end

The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks

That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation

Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;

To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:

For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,

When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,

Must give us pause—there's the respect

That makes calamity of so long life.

For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,

Th'oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,

The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,

The insolence of office, and the spurns

That patient merit of th'unworthy takes,

When he himself might his quietus make

With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,

To grunt and sweat under a weary life,

But that the dread of something after death,

The undiscovere'd country, from whose bourn

No traveller returns, puzzles the will,

And makes us rather bear those ills we have

Than fly to others that we know not of?

Thus conscience doth make cowards of us all,

And thus the native hue of resolution

Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,

And enterprises of great pith and moment

With this regard their currents turn awry

And lose the name of action.

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Jungchae stare at the Shakespearance quotes she wrote in her black book. She's reading back what she had wrote. She tried not to think about it. She didn't want to feel hurt but everything she wrote was pure heartbreaker. Everything that she wrote will surely break Jeonghan the most and she didn't want that to happen. As to why she hide the books very well. 

As time passed, she read this one particular Shakespearance quotes that really caught her attention back then and decide to jot it down in her book. 

To be, or not to be. 

To live, or to die.

She still always thinking about death. It's not that meeting Kun didn't help. He does help, a lot but she just didn't know how to control her mind. She didn't want this but she didn't know how to control her mind. 

She hadn't tell Kun anything and her latest meeting with Kun got her broke down. To be honest, it does lighten her heart, a bit. She have a long way to go and she's not sure herself if she would be able to walk through that. 

She's trying her hardest, to live, not minding what people say. But the constant reminder that she lives under one roof with her number one hater didn't make it any better. She wanted to run away but Jeonghan would hate her for that. 

Jungchae's mind goes back to when she first met Kun, and she remember what he said that day. 

Love yourself? How will she do that? She could love Jeonghan with everything she have but how does she love herself? She's too afraid to love herself. Because it's always a battle of black and white inside her. 

Jungchae realize that she does have the love to give to people but what she didn't have is, the love for herself. She didn't have the courage and the will to love herself. She didn't care if she die because it's better that way. 

"Angel!" 

And this man. She walk to her windows, to see Johnny leaning over his windows, surprisingly with Kun and Yuta beside him. And then Jaehyun and Taeil comically appearing behind them, trying to look over her too. 

"Hey." She manage to utter a weak greet, making Kun alarmed. 

"Johnny, do you think you can pull her out of her house, for a while?" Kun asked as she keep eyeing her. 

"What? Why?" Johnny didn't seems to realize  it. 

"I don't think she's feeling good at the moment. She looks...broken."

Kun didn't know how to describe it, especially in front of Johnny who clearly likes that woman over there. He feels weird to talk like that to his friends, eventhough he should be professional but this isn't his working hour. Assesing people, not in his working hour can be hard especially when his friend is involved.

Johnny look over to see Jungchae smiling tiredly. The smiles looks too tired that if he look at it in a swift glance, he would think she's crying. 

"I will call Jeonghan." Johnny made a call to Jeonghan as Kun trying to talk to her. 

"It's okay. It's okay to let it out, dear." Johnny glance to Kun when he heard how Kun address Jungchae.

"What happened to her?" Jaehyun murmur as he look over Jungchae who wanted to close her windows. 

"My patients record should be a privacy between me and her. But since you guys are my friend, I will tell a bit." 

"She's under a major depression. I thought she was doing a little bit better after two session. She used to trying suicide, so many times and twice of those time, she was saved by Johnny. I really want to help her because the heads up her twins told me didn't look light at all. You could say, she's pretty much a black canvas. She needs a white." 

Yuta, Jaehyun and Taeil finally look over the woman who now standing with his twin over her windows, seems to be arguing about something.

Yuta turn to look at Johnny. He seems to understand only half of it. There's another half that he don't understand. He have the rough idea but he can't wrap it over his mind. 

"Angel, come o