I curl up to tend to the pain. I grit my teeth as the pain screams. It’s fiercely shrieking, refusing to be soothed. I can’t find a way to let it out. Like furious flames it roars. Apart from vividly feeling its scorching claws slash my inside; I can’t do anything.

My heart has been torn and misplaced. The feeling that something’s wrong, terribly wrong, hovers around. It adamantly lingers. My heart… beats in total chaos. I cannot put my heart back in place. It’s wrong. Everything’s wrong. Painfully wrong!!

……

And then… realization kicks in. It’s hard to describe but… I somehow know… that I’m dreaming. This is not real…

Relief sinks in. My heart is awarded one second of peace. Alright Donghae. Wake up. Just wake up.

I strive to shake loose the grip of this confusing darkness. Though I can’t see anything, I feel bounded. I have to break free. I have to! Come on!!

Dragging the heavy chains along I crawl through the tunnel towards reality…

……

I see light! Things around me… they’re blinding white. Frowning, it takes a while for my eyes to adjust. And then I can feel… I’m lying in a bed and… somebody’s holding my hand. Looking up, I freeze upon seeing...

“Donghae.” His smile outshines all the white around.

For long I stare at him… speechless… motionless… I dare not even breathe… I’m afraid… extremely afraid… that all these would be shattered by the tiniest whisper…

I can’t believe what I’m seeing… Yet…

“Hyukkie…” All emotions flood in and choke me. Tears, all of a sudden, spill out, and stream down…

“… is it… really you…?” Desperately I grip his hand. I can’t lose him again. I won’t be able to bear. Just imagining it crushes my sanity. Bit by bit, I can feel myself crumble. For such a long time, I’ve been trying so hard to pull myself together…

Hyukjae nods. “It’s me Donghae.” Gently he caresses my face.

Slowly, cautious for fear all these would vanish like a puff of smoke, I sit up. Not loosening my desperate grip, I reach out my other hand to touch his face. Hyukjae’s face… is so enchanting. I’m like admiring a piece of art…

My fingers trace his jawline. My eyes lock on his. My tears echo his. Without myself realizing, I’m leaning towards him… In the end I can sense his body heat. I can hear him breathing. I’m like dazzled…

Softly Hyukjae stamps a kiss on my forehead. I gasp as my whole body goes limp. And then I just collapse into his arms.

Hyukjae’s voice continues to sooth me. “Sorry Donghae… I just… couldn’t make myself board the plane…”

I close my eyes. That’s my salvation.

From very deep inside, something is surging out. I can’t control my sobbing. Everything inside needs to come out. And I just let it out…

Defeated by the overwhelming relief, I finally crumble. Holding on to Hyukjae, circling my arms around his body, I just let it out…

It’s Hyukjae. It’s his scent. It’s his touch. It’s his voice. Those are his lips. My ears embrace his soothing voice. Like a flustered lost sheep hearing the shepherd’s call, my heart clings to it. It’s back at the right place. And it knows how to beat again.

I’m not going anywhere. For long… let it be forever… I bury myself in Hyukjae’s arms.

I’m not going anywhere…

Not going anywhere…

……

Let all pain be rinsed away. Let all anger be quenched. Let all bitterness be dissolved.

Let the whole world fade away but this embrace. Let time be forgotten but this moment.

Hyukkie…

I smile. I forget everything. I raise my head, cup his art-like face in my palms, and reunite my lips with his…

And I close my eyes…

Let everything halt but this kiss…

Hyukkie…

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