“Eat up, we kind of need you alive,” Renjun told the other as he placed the plate next on the table beside the bed. Rising from where he was beneath the covers, the baby faced male’s eyes sparkled once they landed on the plate of hotteok. 

“Thank you! I’m starving!” Kangmin exclaimed, making Renjun sigh in relief and smile softly as he sat down on a chair next to the bed. Chuckling to himself, Renjun was reminded of the times when he used to sneak some food into the younger’s room whenever Zico didn’t give Kangmin enough to eat for his growing body. “Do I have something on my face?” 

“Nah, just…remembering,” He replied, taking in the adorable sight of the younger’s stuffed cheeks as he ate. “Do you ever miss what TRCNG used to be? What we used to be?” Seeing Kangmin swallow, Renjun couldn’t help but remember the pain that the younger used to save him from, especially when Daehyun used to get drunk. 

“Sometimes…” Kangmin admitted, voice barely above a whisper as he made eye contact with Renjun - soft expression hardening into a glare. “And then I remember how you betrayed us and all of that missing goes away.” I had to escape that place. 

“I’m sorry-“

“That won’t bring back the bond we used to have as a whole, hyung. It won’t bring back the old Taeseon-hyung and Jihun-hyung,” Kangmin spat out, putting the now clean plate back on the bedside table. “You ruined that for us.”

“I know bu-“

“It was for the best, I know. The only thing that frustrates me is that Taeseon-hyung isn’t the same anymore,” Kangmin admitted, lying back down on the bed and bringing the covers up to cover himself. Renjun watched as the smaller male basked in the warmth that the blanket gave him, knowing full well how cold the headquarters of TRCNG could be. “He’s never been the same ever since Hayoung-hyung was taken with you. I think he only goes after you because he feels guilty for being able to only save Hayoung-hyung without the whole slave deal. We all know how much you wanted to stay with us but we also knew that you didn’t want to be a slave anymore. Too bad B.A.P wouldn’t