Chapter 16

With and Without Oh Sehun

I sat still in my seat while staring in front of me without blinking an eye or moving a muscle. If someone were to walk in, then they'd probably think that my soul was no longer with me. But I couldn't help being like this in the empty and quiet room. I couldn't stop thinking about what I heard earlier today in the restroom, and now I just feel conflicted and confused and unsure of what to do. 

Do I stay silent? Or do I speak up? 

Speaking up required so much more strength and courage because I was saving one person while bringing another whole side down. The side of me with good morals and values wanted to just rip myself apart for even thinking about what to do. Wouldn't you want someone to speak up for you if you did nothing wrong? But the other side said for me to keep still and not get involved. I only had to deal with this for a couple more days before I head off for surgery preparation.

Plus, this is Yoongi that we're talking about here. You know, the guy I like to call Satan because he really is like Satan. The one who I dread to have my locker next to everyday. The one who once caused me to drop onto my knees and beg to have my lockers changed. The one who makes me feel small and uneasy and anxious and uncomfortable and scared all at the same time. Yeah, him. 

Am I sure that I want to go out of my way and get justice for him? Shouldn't he be able to do it himself? I mean, he did nothing wrong, right? Or at least from what I understand. So all he has to do is speak up and stand up for himself, right? 

"Just consider yourself lucky that you got into a fight with the delinquent kid at least. Who's going to listen to what he has to say?"

Who's going to listen to what he has to say... The thought that Yoongi could just speak up and stand up for himself quickly went away as I remembered these exact words. I was then reminded when my dad mentioned that Yoongi got arrested for being aggressive and denying that he didn't drink. He must have been telling the truth, but nobody most likely listened. And the reeking alcohol smell that my dad spoke of was probably coming from the others, yet again, nobody probably cared to check or confirm. 

I leaned forward and rested my elbow on the desk as I used my hand to support my head. At this point, I didn't know what to do anymore, and I know I was making things complicated and even as far as being an a*shole. But did I really want to get involved with this? What were the others going to do and think of me if they found out that it was me who "snitched"? And even if I do decide to speak up, was anyone going to listen and believe that the delinquent student did nothing wrong?

Just then, my thoughts was interrupted by footsteps that entered the room. "Did you wait long?"

I quickly turned my head towards the door and saw the class president walking towards me. "No. I've been waiting for only a few minutes."

Kyungsoo then pulled out a chair and sat across from me before placing a folder on the desk. "The notes and homework for the next few weeks are in here. I put them in order so just place them to the side when you're done looking over them."

I grabbed the folder and began to look through them in order to give myself an idea of the materials that I will have to teach myself during my recovery. 

"Don't be afraid to ask me for help if you don't understand something. But you don't need to worry so much. You'll be fine," he reassured. 

I let out a small grin before closing the folder and putting it in my backpack. Kind of relieved that he offered because I already knew that I was going to need his help. 

"So this is your last week of school before preparing for surgery right?"

"Yeah," I shortly replied with a dull tone.

It then went silent between us two, and it didn't take long for awkwardness to fill the air. However, I realized that I should take advantage of this silence while I can before Kyungsoo decides to leave. 

"So... I heard about what happened to Yoongi. What's going to happen to him now?"

By the way Kyungsoo looked at me, he must have been slightly surprised to be asked that... Although I don't know why he was. "He's going to most likely be expelled."

"Expelled?" I think I said that a little too loud... "But what about the 3 strikes?"

"Well, what he did was pretty serious. The school is still talking about it, but they're going to most likely expell him."

"But that's not fair. It took place outside of the school, so why-" I quickly stopped myself from saying any further when I saw the confused look on Kyungsoo's face. He must have been taken aback to see me become defensive so suddenly, especially towards someone who he knows that I despise a lot. "I mean... You know. Shouldn't his punishment be less severe since it took place outside of school?"

"I also thought the same, but we have to let the adults handle this. Yoongi was already warned before he returned to not do anything bad, so there's nothing much that we could do."

I nodded my head to act as if I agreed with what Kyungsoo said in order to prevent him from reading me like he usually does. I didn't want him to suspect that something was up with me, especially with how smart he is. He could easily piece it together that I knew something about the situation,which was why I got worked up just seconds ago regarding Yoongi who he knows that I hate with all my guts. I wasn't just ready to tell anyone about what I heard this morning. 

After meeting with him for half an hour after school, I began to head towards the bus stop with slow footsteps as I thought about what Kyungsoo said. The thought of Yoongi getting expelled was now starting to drag me down with guilt faster than I thought. He did nothing wrong and I know this, yet I was being a foolish person for not saying anything and only continuing this further. But on the other hand, I somehow managed to convince myself that this was for the best. I wouldn't have to deal with Satan anymore! This is what I have been wanting ever since he came back! 

However, it didn't take long for the enthusiam to die down when I was overtaken by guilt once again. I don't know. I just felt guilty and overall bad for Yoongi who was probably still sitting in jail and receiving sh*t for something that he didn't do, but nobody was willing to listen because of this reputation that he has as a troublemaker. Heck. Even I'm at fault for this. 

Suddenly, my footsteps came to a sudden halt and my heart nearly jumped out when I spotted a familiar figure not too far from me who was staring down at his phone with earphones on. What was he doing here alone? Because he sure is early for being here before me. 

I nervously gulped before continuing my steps towards the bus stop, but I couldn't help but wonder why he was here so early... Or at all. My body was even starting to tremble for some odd reason every time I took a step towards him, but I had no idea why. Was it because he was my ex-boyfriend? Or was it something else? Like something that had to do with what I heard this morning? 

Luckily, a sense of relief fulfilled me when I managed to pass him without attracting his attention, although I wonder if he did notice me but was just ignoring me. Regardless, I stood a few feet away from him primarily because the benches were already taken, and the spot that I'm standing at now was the only spot with shade left. I plugged my earphones into my ears and began to scroll through my phone in order to keep my attention away from him, and just in case he does happen to notice me that he wouldn't start a conversation... Even though it's not like he would anyways. 

However, with every second passing by, I couldn't help but have this feeling of disappointment, irritation, and upsetness that was starting to slowly surface in me. There he was, just scrolling through his phone and listening to music with ease as if nothing ever happened, and acting as if the innocent person is not taking up the punishments that should be for them. Judging by the fact that he was still in his uniform, he must have received some sort of punishment for volleyball, but as to why he's still after school beats me. Maybe they did receive some sort of punishment after all? Who knows. All I know is that it isn't as serious as Yoongi's, and I guess that must be the reason why I was starting to boil inside. 

All I want to know is if he has any sense of guilt in him at all. He was the stupid one who got drunk and started a fight with Yoongi, but in the end he and his friends got away with it while Yoongi was given the blame. Does he plan to speak up? Does he plan to admit his wrong doing and take the fault? Or is he just going to stay silent?

And before I knew it, I felt like the inside of me was starting to boil with anger and frustration. This is the last time that I am going to say this because now I can't keep pushing it away anymore.. This Oh Sehun that's standing just a few feet away from me with no worry in the world and calmly listening to his music while someone else is taking his punishment. Yeah, that is certainly not the Sehun that I know anymore. It really ing isn't. The one I know would never go out to drink and get carried away like wasted idiots. The one I know would never start a fight with anyone for no apparent reasons. But even if he did, the Sehun I know would admit his fault and not allow others to take it for him. 

But this Sehun, the one who is causing me to feel like this right now, he's not the Sehun I know. So why the heck am I so worried over this douchebag who is no longer familiar to me? As much as I do not like Satan and the way he treats me, I rather have him than bare the guilt and heavy weight on my shoulder while the people who caused this whole thing lives a simple and peaceful life. I didn't even do anything wrong to cause this, but why do I have a feeling that I feel more guilty and wronged than those who actually caused this?

Unable to withstand it anymore because of my frustration building up in me, I took out my earphones and wasted no time to walk towards him. However, he responded with a delay before taking out the left side to his earphone and slightly turning his head to look at me. 

Sh*t. So how exactly do I start this? Maybe I should've thought this through a little more. 

"Do you.... Need something?" His low and deep voice asked with his eyes staring right into mines. He must have thought it was weird and unusual for me to approach him so suddenly, and for a moment I must have lost my mind that even I thought the same. 

I nervously swallowed, yet no words came out. Where did my anger from just seconds ago go? 

"Well if you have nothing to say, then just go. I don't want Irene to get the wrong idea here." He then brought his hand up to plug his earphone back in. 

But wait. Really? Irene? That's who he only cares about out of everything? Her possibly getting the wrong idea about us talking is all that he cares about? 

And at that point, I was set off. With a heavy breath and with my emotions slowly coming back to me, I decided to let it out without any more delay. "Shouldn't you take responsibility for your actions?"

He took out his earphone again and shot me a confused yet taken aback look. "What?"

"Why are you making others take your punishment?'

He must have been so taken aback to see me talk to him so suddenly in such a way that the only thing he could do was let out a small surpressed laugh."Care to explain a little more?"

However, this stupidity of his that was trying to play it off and act as if he has no idea what I'm talking about only caused the anger in me to grow. The way he seems so unmoved by my frustration as if what I said had no significance at all only pushed me to the edge. A little quicker than I had imagine to be quite honest. But you know what? Fine. If he wants to act stupid, then so be it. 

"You and your friends got drunk and started the fight with Yoongi, but in the end you got away because of Chanyeol somehow while the blame went to Yoongi. Does that sound a little familiar to you now?

The calm and rather doubtful look in Sehun's eyes slowly disappeared and widened with his pupils moving back and forth. Away with the calm and doubtful looks was also the confidence in his face and body language. His lips began to slightly quiver as he opened his mouth to speak, but only silence came out in its place. His eyes were now drowning with a panic and frantic look as he took a moment to repeat in his head of what I just said. 

"Wha-what?" he tried to play it off. 

By this point, a little part of me broke because of the way he seemed so shocked and tried to act clueless. I don't know what was up with me. It was as if I didn't believe, or rather want to accept what I heard earlier this morning, but it wasn't until now where his speechless and shocking state confirmed it all, and I could no longer push it away. "I'm disappointed in you Sehun." Now, I wasn't even sure why I was doing this anymore. Was it because I really wanted to help Yoongi and get justice for him? Or was it because I wanted to confront Sehun about the way he has changed for the worst? 

But yet again, he managed to surprise me with another small laugh and grin. "I don't know what you're talking about Areum."

I let out a scoff of disbelief. Never did I know that he could be so ignorant, but I was really getting tired of this. "I hope you didn't forget that my dad works in the police department." With those as my final words which I hope was enough to make him realize, I turned around to return to my place. By this point, I was much pretty done with Sehun and didn't want to look at him for another second. Never have I wanted to be so far away from him. Never have I been so darn disappointed. But more than that, never did I know that the day would come where we would be on complete opposite sides.

I could feel my face burning a little because of what I just did. It wasn't just because I confronted my ex-boyfriend, but just solely because I confronted somebody. I never thought that somebody or something would trigger me so much to cause me to speak up my mind. Yet again, it never crossed my mind once that it would be my ex-boyfriend who would be the first person that I confront. 

However, the wish of being as far away as possible failed to come true before I could even take a few steps away. I nearly lost my balance when I felt a sudden and rather unsettling tight grip to my hand that brought an end to my footsteps. I turned my head in shock to see what was preventing me from walking forward, only to be filled with even more shock when I followed the trace of the tight gripping hand back to the owner. 

"Please Reum. Don't do it."

A sudden sharp ringing noise began to fill my ears as I thought about the words he just spoke. Reum...? When was the last time that he called me that? 

My heartbeat was now starting to pick up quicker than ever as my eyes locked with his hazel brown ones that was begging for mercy. And with the way his pleading voice was echoing into my ears and his hand still tightly gripping onto mine, the many emotions from earlier quickly disappeared without a trace. I wanted to pull my hand away and punch myself for being so stupid and easily moved, but there was no way to prevent this.

He knew my weakness, and now he was using it against me. 

 

~End of Chapter 16~

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CSanWS
#1
Chapter 47: I love both yoongi and sehun. But damn can you just let her ended up with yoongi? After she had been dumped by Sehun, eventho i love him. I can’t.
Iheartren
#2
Chapter 47: I’m finally caught up I recent stumble your story the story so far it’s interesting and I can’t wait for the next update i wonder what is going to happened next, keep up the good work 😊
Sey-ra
38 streak #3
Chapter 47: Omo ,you came back.And for Aereum don't go to the same part again.
fishaelee
#4
Chapter 46: it’s quarter to 4am now and im finally catch up with the chapters! i must say that reading this fic is such having a ride on a roller coaster. at first with the break up of sehun and areum, the pain she felt and how badly everyone treated her... also yoongi’s side story too... im pretty sure there will be a triangle love happening in the future too xD
fishaelee
#5
Chapter 29: yesss areum did it. i hope there will be justice for yoongi soon
fishaelee
#6
Chapter 28: AREUM !!!! :((((
fishaelee
#7
Chapter 27: areum don’t u dare let him slip away like that-
fishaelee
#8
Chapter 16: and how sehun started dating irene, the girl who had been the anti of his previous relationship since day one? oh man i fking hate it here, tf did u just do sehun ah
fishaelee
#9
Chapter 16: okay i’ve suffered enough with the first 9 chapters and i am just so frustrated and my heart hurts so bad for what happened to areum. I CAN FEEL THE PAIN thru the words u wrote...
Sey-ra
38 streak #10
Chapter 42: Sorry but I am still frustrated with Aerum.