Chapter 9

With and Without Oh Sehun

The weekend consisted of only staring at the ceiling and turning every now and then to look at the wall. My back was starting to ache where every movement came with hesitation and a small sharp pain. But what else did I expect when I've been laying on my bed for every hour and second of the day. It sounds impossible and you might think that I'm just exaggerating but really I'm not. The only time when I got up was to use the restroom or grab a sip of water before heading back to my area of comfort.

My mom did wake me up early on Sunday morning to go to church, but I told her that I wasn't feeling well which was somewhat true. I had the crappy after effect of crying all day and all weekend. I was just scared to step out of my room and face the world that's been so cruel to me lately. 

I felt so emotionally drained and tired and exhausted and everything else, but more than that, I felt alone. I was alone. And this was the time where I really wished I had a sibling or close relative who I could talk to and spill everything out to. The regret of not developing friendship with others because I was foolishly relying on my ex-boyfriend to accompany me for the rest of my life was starting to develop in me also. 

I wanted to cry my eyes out to someone and feel their warm words console me that everything was going to be okay and that it was going to take time, but I only had myself to do that and it should be obvious of how that was going. And just like you are probably tired of seeing me constantly cry, I am no different. I'm tired of feeling emotionally and physically weak, but I can't help myself. If I knew that this was the path I was going to go through and face after a relationship, then I would have stopped myself from the very beginning. But how was I supposed to know that?

I didn't know my boyfriend was going to dump me so suddenly and then move on within a few months while I'm still trying to let go of everything and accept the fact that he was never coming back to me. I didn't know his friends who I thought were also my "friends" were going to show me a different side of them and turn on me by spitting the cruelest words you could ever say in front of your friend's ex-girlfriend. 

As hard as I was trying to drain out the words of what I heard a few days ago at the bus stop, I couldn't and it continued to consistently repeat in my head. You see, our mind just has this weird function of repeating things despite how much it is hurting us, and it also has a way of making us feel angry and sad and hurt and heartbroken and vindictive and despondant all at the same time. 

When Monday finally came around again and I was left with no choice but to face my problems, I wanted to just break down and trap myself in my room. I felt so scared and apprehensive that my body started to literally tremble when I stepped out from my house. I was scared of what was going to happen to me today since I have met nothing but bad luck and trouble ever since school started. But whatever it was, I just prayed that it didn't lead me to become worst than I already am. Please, have some mercy on me today. 

My footsteps jerked a couple times as I tried to not bump or collide to anyone. I was keeping my head down while grasping on tightly to the straps of my backpack as my bangs blocked half of my view of where I was going. But yet again, I just felt a lot safer and calmer that way since I was not able to tell if people were staring at me. 

And just like usual, I peeked my head around the corner to make sure that the people who I wanted to avoid was not there. When I confirmed that they were not, I quickly fastened my pace over to my locker and opened it, ignoring the sharp pain in my fingers that I have come to somehow ignore and still have not aid yet. I guess it was getting to a point where I couldn't even tell if it hurts or if I did but just like the pain of it. What have I become.

I grabbed the last of my book and slammed my locker shut before walking away. I let out a small breath of relief since it finally seemed like I was receiving luck for once because I managed to finally get what I needed from my locker without crossing path with any of the others. I then noticed that I still had another 15 minutes left until class started, so I decided to go to the restroom and wait in there until it was time for class. 15 minutes was too long where anything could happen within that time, and I wasn't willing to risk it. I mean look at what happened the last time when I decided to skip out on going to my locker and went straight to class. 

I was relieved to see that the restroom I hid myself and cried in that one time was empty as usual. I splashed cold water on my face, hoping that it would not only wake up my tired eyes but also my conscience that I seemed to have lost ever since Sehun broke it off. I continued to give a couple more splashes to my face, finally realizing the benefit of not wearing any makeup. 

Suddenly, I slightly flinched and my ears twitched when I heard the door squeak its way open. It might be stupid of me to say, but I didn't expect anyone to come in here. Regardless, I allowed my hand to thoroughly wipe the dripping water on my face in one sweep before walking towards the napkin dispenser. But just as I was doing so, my body came to a sudden stop when I saw through the mirrors who was the person that entered. 

"Oh? I didn't expect to see you here."

"What are you doing here?" I asked without realizing how dumb that sounded. 

A confused look appeared on Irene's face before she let out a surpressed laugh that popular girls like her like to do in order to make people feel stupid and self conscious. "Well I'm here to use the restroom obviously. And plus, my locker isn't too far from here. What are you doing here?"

I wanted to throw the stupidity right back at her, but at the same time I could understand why she questioned me being here in this particular restroom. It was on the complete opposite side of where my locker was, meaning I had plenty of restrooms to choose from and really had no reason to be in this one. "I- I was passing by here," I stuttered like a fool. 

She let out a pout and puffed her cheeks while nodding her head, but it was obvious that she didn't believe my words, and that scared me. I didn't want her to know that this was one of the few places I sometimes hid myself in just like last time. Where else was I supposed to hide if she decided to add this place to her evil schemes of ruining my life? 

Realizing that there was nothing but an awkward silence and a girl who was originally here to use the restroom, I grabbed my things from the counter sink and slipped my way around Irene. I then bolted the door open and stepped out, fearing that she was going to change her mind any second now and do something to satisfy her witchlike soul. But before I could take a step away from the door and tell myself to breathe with ease, my footsteps came to a sudden halt and jerked back as if I had just been hit with a gust of wind. 

I made a desperate escape to get away from the witch... Only to cross path with the Devil. He was standing right outside the restroom and across from me with his head leaned against the wall. And before I could even blink or think about what to do, I felt a jump in my heart when his head turned and our eyes made contact. 

When was the last time that he looked at me with those kind of eyes? 


My pace was picking up fast since I only had 5 minutes left until class started, but it also felt like I was running away from someone who was stalking behind me. The look in Sehun's eyes that I saw just a few minutes ago in front of the girl's restroom was making me feel anxious for some reason. There was no harm in his eyes, but I just don't know how to describe it and how it exactly made me feel. I didn't expect to come across him so suddenly, yet at the same time I should have known better that he was going to be nearby if his girlfriend was in the same place as me.

Regardless, I decided to shake it off and just continue my way to the classroom after convincing myself to not make such a big deal out of this small encounter that wasn't going to help me through the day. Just as I was approaching the staircase with a mind of ease, it didn't take long for it to disappear where my footsteps also came to a stop. The outrageous and loud chuckles and laughter was tempting me to take another staircase, and for a moment I didn't care if I was going to be late. As long as I didn't have to be near these clowns who I foolishly once thought were my friends. However, with reality kicking in that I wasn't going to be let off the hook this time by Kyungsoo, I had no choice but to proceed my steps.

I slowly and silently followed the group of tall clowns up the stairs, hoping that they wouldn't turn back to look at me. I kept my eyes focused on their shoes because I couldn't bare to stare at the back of their heads. A silent prayer was going through my head as I continued to climb up the steps and stare at their feet, wondering when this journey up the mountain was going to end. I was now starting to feel impatient with how slow these clown's long legs were walking up the damn stairs. They were focusing too much on their conversation instead of their steps that I was ready to knock them down like bowling pins and storm past them, but with reality kicking in again, I'd probably be the one to be knocked down.

Suddenly, before I could think any further to myself, I came to a second of late realization that their feet were no longer moving and were instead slightly turned towards me. Sh*t. I then felt a long arm wrap around my shoulder before I was brought in closer to this person. "Areum! What's up girl!"

"Oh... Hi Chanyeol." I forced out with a crooked smile while trying to wiggle myself away but struggling to do so because of his tight grip.

"It's been a while since we've talked or hung out!"

Yeah, and it's better if we keep it that way. I let out another forced smile and chuckle, hoping they would somehow have the brain to understand the uncomfortable situation they were putting me in.

"How about we catch up at lunch today?" Nope.

"No it's fine," I stated as I unwrapped myself from his arm and stepped away, wondering if I should take a bolt for it.

"Come on Areum. Just because you and Sehun are not together anymore doesn't mean that we can't hang out." Jongin joined in this time. No, the fact that Sehun I are not together anymore means that we shouldn't.

And before I knew it, we made it to the top of the stairs but it only made me realize that maybe they don't have a brain afterall. I continued to back away while trying to find or think of an excuse to get myself away from them, and the patience and calmness in me was starting to run out. Do they not understand the word no? And plus, how could they just turn around and act like nothing was wrong and they never ignored me for the past few weeks? The fact that they were also trying to act innocent as if whatever happened last week at the bus stop never occurred was starting to set me off a bit too. I couldn't help but wonder if this was part of Irene's plan who's made Sehun's friends as part of her army too.

Suddenly, I saw Chanyeol's hand reach out towards me while I was still walking backwards, completely ignoring the fact that there were other people behind me who also came to this school. I must have been so desperate to get away from the clowns that I forgot where I was for a moment. And before I knew it, my foot managed to step on someone's heel and I bumped into the person despite Chanyeol's grasp to stop me from doing so. And as if that wasn't embarrassing and bad enough, I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand up with my body completely frozen, not wanting to turn around and see what was behind me.

"Aish." said the familiar and agitated voice.

I forced myself to turn around in a flash in order to save my life as much as I wanted to only save my face. "So-sorry!" However, it didn't take long for me to realize that I should have never turned around because I was now staring into his satanic eyes.

"Are you blind now too?" His contemptuous question coming along with a strong gust of cigarette smell.

"Sorry! I didn't mean to-"

But before I could finish my apology, a pull to the arm with a tall giant now standing in front interrupted me."Yo chill. It's not like she did it on purpose." A sense of thankfulness and relief filled me although it was ironic that he was the cause to my irritation just seconds ago.

However, the sense of relief was replaced by a gulp of fear and nervousness when I saw Satan raise an eyebrow as if he wasn't too fond or impressed of Chanyeol's brave action. I then remembered that it was not only Yoongi and Sehun who never got along but also Sehun's friends who didn't like Yoongi. Realizing that the tension could cause the situation to escalate for the worst, I took a pull at Chanyeol's blazer and stepped right back in front.

"It's fine Chan. It's my fault for not looking at where I was going-"

However, I was interrupted once again but by a different person this time who let out a scoff and a smirk. "You and Sehun must be pretty close that you go around sharing girls too huh?" Going around sharing girls? As in me? Is he getting the wrong idea here?

Small gasps heard around the hallways made me realize that this situation has attracted the attention of a few people. They were staring and just on edge as I was when they realized that Yoongi and Sehun's group of friends were face to face, something that caused them to remember the tension between the two who never got along before Yoongi left. My heart was beating fast with anxiety and fear because of Yoongi's words that has added even more fuel to the fire, and it was obvious that Chanyeol was starting to become angry at this point. His ears were red and his breathing was picking up as he continued to stand still and stare at Yoongi, possibly thinking about what to do.

I began to panic and tremble as I thought about what to do, but my mind was completely blank with no solution. I was so scared to move a finger or say a word that could possibly contribute more to the fire in some way, but the fact that this all started because of me was pushing me to hold a sense of responsibility and do something about this situation. But what could a small and frail girl like me do in a situation like this with a group of guys who were 10 times stronger than I was?

"Yo Chan. Let's go." Jongin said as he grabbed his arm.

However, Chanyeol pulled his arm away as he continued to stare at Yoongi. "Shouldn't a returning delinquent like you watch what he says? Unless you want to be sent back when it hasn't even been a week since you've returned."

"Chan stop it." Jongin continued as he and his other friends pulled him back in order to calm him down.

The cocky smirk on Yoongi's face slowly disappeared as his cold eyes glared at Chanyeol, and the fact that I didn't know what was running through his mind made chill run down my body. I was so shaken up by this point and my heart was ready to explode with the fear that Yoongi could snap at any second now. But before any more words could be exchange and the tension could continue, a voice appeared from beside me that I have never felt so relief and grateful to hear. However, it was completely replaced with doubt and even more anxiety when I wasn't sure if his presence would make the situation any better.

"What's going on?" His serious eyes staring back and forth at Chanyeol and Yoongi.

"It's nothing. We'll tell you later." Jongin brushed off. It was obvious that he was just as desperate as I was and wanted to bring an end to this tension. "Let's go Chan." He roughly took a pull at Chanyeol's arm in which I was relieved to see that he was willing to step away from Yoongi. Sehun and the rest also followed while Yoongi walked right past me and was headed towards the opposite direction, causing my fast heartbeat to jump and pick up again.

But within another second or two when I saw that everything has calm down and everybody was getting back onto their feet, I let out a deep breath after the suffocation that I was faced with over the course of not even a minute.

However. "What just happened?"

I slightly flinched and turned to see who this person was and saw that it was Irene who still hasn't surprisingly left yet. "Oh..." Was it necessary to tell her? Regardless, my words was interrupted again.

"Babe! Come on!"

I turned and saw Sehun motioning to his girlfriend who was still behind with me, in which Irene shot me a confused look before walking away to catch up with her boyfriend. Meanwhile, I stood where I was as I watched Sehun wait for his girlfriend to catch up before grabbing her hands tightly and continuing his steps. A solemn feeling then overcame me when I couldn't help but think that that used to be me not even long ago, but now there was someone else who took my place.

However, I shook my head and let out another deep breath when I remembered that now wasn't the time to be thinking about that. I should be happy that nothing bad happened from that situation just moments ago. But oh boy, what a wonderful life I have.

 

~End of Chapter 9~

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CSanWS
#1
Chapter 47: I love both yoongi and sehun. But damn can you just let her ended up with yoongi? After she had been dumped by Sehun, eventho i love him. I can’t.
Iheartren
#2
Chapter 47: I’m finally caught up I recent stumble your story the story so far it’s interesting and I can’t wait for the next update i wonder what is going to happened next, keep up the good work 😊
Sey-ra
38 streak #3
Chapter 47: Omo ,you came back.And for Aereum don't go to the same part again.
fishaelee
#4
Chapter 46: it’s quarter to 4am now and im finally catch up with the chapters! i must say that reading this fic is such having a ride on a roller coaster. at first with the break up of sehun and areum, the pain she felt and how badly everyone treated her... also yoongi’s side story too... im pretty sure there will be a triangle love happening in the future too xD
fishaelee
#5
Chapter 29: yesss areum did it. i hope there will be justice for yoongi soon
fishaelee
#6
Chapter 28: AREUM !!!! :((((
fishaelee
#7
Chapter 27: areum don’t u dare let him slip away like that-
fishaelee
#8
Chapter 16: and how sehun started dating irene, the girl who had been the anti of his previous relationship since day one? oh man i fking hate it here, tf did u just do sehun ah
fishaelee
#9
Chapter 16: okay i’ve suffered enough with the first 9 chapters and i am just so frustrated and my heart hurts so bad for what happened to areum. I CAN FEEL THE PAIN thru the words u wrote...
Sey-ra
38 streak #10
Chapter 42: Sorry but I am still frustrated with Aerum.