In shock of her own reaction, Sky stared at the door. 
Did she really just slam the door in front of him? Him who saved her? Him who she fell in love with so hard? 
Why did she even push him away? She couldn't help but see Shane as soon as he got close to her. 
She wanted him by her side. She didn't want to be alone. 
It was all too much. How shane touched her, how he ripped her clothes off of her body, it was all too much. 
Was she ever going to be able to feel someones touch again? 
Moons touch?
She couldn't even think about getting close to him at the moment. 
She started shaking as she pressed her face into her pillow. Confused, destroyed and done with everything. 
Time was supposed to heal the pain, but the marks that this day has left on her body weren't erasable at all. 
She could still feel Shanes hands on her. 
His lips on hers.
His tongue. 
Everything. 
She felt dirty. She felt like she couldn't even look into Moons eyes anymore. 
He saw them, lying there on the floor, her, in her underwear. In her underwear! 
How was she supposed to face him like this ever again? 
She knew she couldn't. And she wouldn't. She didn't deserve him. And he deserved something better. 
Better than her. 
Someone who could tell him she loved him too.
Someone who could whisper him the words he wanted to hear. 
Someone to talk to him when he felt down. 
But at the same time she loved him so much. She loved him to death. 
His touch, his kisses all over her body, his smile, his voice, his love. 
The way he expressed himself. 
His eyes. 
His warm skin on hers. 
The way he jokes.
The way he pressed his lips on hers. 
He was so gentle, so calm. 
She wanted him in her life so much, but at the same time she couldn't bare it any longer. 
She knew which step she needed to make. She knew she needed to end this before it got too far. 
But how? 
Was she even able to break his heart?
She knew she wasn't. But it needed to happen. 

After a horrible night of tears, nightmares and stress, Sky woke up with a bit of sleep in the morning, her eyes burning. 
Her wrists hurting. Her whole body still shaking.
After combing her hair, she silently left the room to see Moon leaving his room at the same time, looking at her. 

"Good Morning." 

Sky lowered her sight as she disappeared in the bathroom, closing the door behind her, taking a deep breathe. 
The only sight of him hurt her. 
Suddenly he knocked on the door. 
"Sky, can we please talk?" he said in his calm smooth voice. 
Sky didn't respond. He was making it hard for her. Really hard. 
Suddenly he opened the door really fast, Sky not being able to push it close again. 
He locked the door behind them. 
"Sky." he tried to catch her sight but Sky kept her eyes lowered. 
"Can you please look at me? I'm dying right here. I didn't close a single eye this night." 
Sky still kept her eyes lowered. Maybe, ignoring him made it easier for her? 
He grabbed her wrist as she shook him off violently. 
She started shaking. 
"Why are you doing this.. I know you don't want this." 
Sky took a deep breathe while looking into his eyes