Hi, welcome to my life. The life full of loneliness and sorrow, where love can not bear to stay even just for a short time. That's all because of this phobia, the phobia that banned me from loving and to be loved. 

I used to had a beautiful life before, the life where I received love from everywhere. I had parents that love each other so dearly and a lover that I thought an angel. It was so beautiful until my life turned upside down,  my parents divorced and someone that I thought was an angel turned into a demon. I still remember so clearly the painful memories of that night, 

Flashback

I was with my sister that time, eaves dropping our parents conversation. When suddenly we heard sounds of broken porcelain and shouts everywhere.

"SO YOU WANT TO DIVORCE?!" My dad shouted.

"YES! I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!"

"FINE! WHAT ABOUT OUR CHILDREN?!"

"JUST LET THEM BE!" my mom sounded annoyed.

Suddenly my sister break in the door. Leaving me dumbfounded outside.

"MOM! HOW COULD YOU?!" 

"Tae...how did you get here?" my mom voice softened After she saw taeyeon.

"OFCOURSE THIS IS STILL ME AND YOOJAE's HOUSE RIGHT?!"

"Tae calm down.." this my father tried to cooling down the situation. But I was fumming in anger so I stepped in the room.

"HOW COULD YOU ASKED HER TO CALM DOWN IN THIS SITUATION?!" I yelled at them.  They're all shocked at my sudden outburst. 

"WHAT HAPPENED TO THE LOVE BETWEEN YOU TWO?! WHERE HAVE  THEY GONE?!" I continued without lowering my tone even just a bit

Then I feel a fierce soreness on my cheeks. My dad had just slapped me with his own hand, and the ring that was on his fingers scraped my cheeks making it bleed.

"I HOPE THAT SLAP COULD MAKE YOU REALIZE THAT THERE'S NEVER BEEN ANY LOVE FROM THE START! YOU'LL BE GET EASILY FOOLED BECAUSE YOU LOVE TOO MUCH! THAT'S MY LAST LESSON FOR YOU BEFORE I LEAVE THIS STUPID FAMILY!" With tears rolling on my bleeding cheek, I stepped out from that house. It was raining but I didn't care. 

I was walking with a deep thought. I still believe in love. I still had taeyeon, and I still have Tiffany, she'll never stop loving me, right?

And man, dad was right. I should've never love someone too much. 

At the same night I sp