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This is ridiculous.

I put down my backpack with a long sigh. Gradually, I cannot take control of my breath. This is such a bad luck for me. First, telling them that I have achluophobia was not enough to oust me from joining this camp. Second, my failed excuse giving those sunbaes a big reason to bully me. Third, no one told me we have to walk over this forest to get to the camp. And forth, damn, it’s just the first day and we still have 3 days on going.

“What? Getting tired already?”

A foreign voice greets me, I turn around and my head is welcomed by the face I never met before. A girl in long brown ponytail standing behind me. She has a petite figure with a petite bag hanging on her back. Is she one of the sunbaes? I’m not sure. But there is one thing that disturbes me, she looks down on me.

“Need water?” and she adds a frown on her forehead.

I stare at her brave black eyes which somehow picture her personality well. But it’s not enough to scare me.

“I’m fine.” I said shortly before lifting my bag again.

“Wow, that’s rude, freshman!” another voice joins us. A deep husky voice, a voice which I’ve been too familiar with. I turn around for the second time and the giant Park Chanyeol is there, hanging his long arm on his waist, smirking and frowning at the same time, standing with the arrogance beside the petite girl.

Without they notice I let out a short sigh. This is getting worse. I know it will be, ever since I heard his voice things will only get worst and his frown on his forehead clears things.

“Shouldn’t a mama boy know how to behave?”

I face him then, without much thinking I bow low and quick, “I’m sorry sunbae.” No, I don’t have such time to fight my pride or things, I just don’t want to satisfy his need. And it pictures well on his face, maybe he hasn’t expected me to just lose over him.

They are so childish, those sunbaes. When I said politely that I couldn’t stay at the darkness, Byun, a sunbae with black hair laughed out loud in front of my face. He said my excuse had already taken by another student. His friend even said that I was a little bit late for telling them this thing. They laughed thinking I faked things. And it didn’t stop there, there was also a sunbae named Yoon Bomi stared at me as if I had a weird outfit. She didn’t say anything but her look was hurting my pride. Then, that Park Chanyeol came with his arrogance voice, telling me that he would take care of me. Damn. If only I could turn back time.

No. I’m not afraid of them. It’s just a waste for me to play along his game, a very lame game.

“Good, now bring Ji’s backpack with you!”

“Ye?” For a second I cannot get his meaning.

The giant looks at the girl, “give him your bag, Ji!”

“What?” and the girl doesn’t seem agree with it. It’s strange, honestly. “No, I’m fine,” she refuses. And this is getting stranger.

“Just give him, this mama boy will like to help you.”

Okay. So the giant doesn’t stop after mocking me, he wants more. I’m sure he hates me even though I’m not clear what exactly his problem is. It’s just the first day and they have already put me in troubles. I regret meeting them before.

That Ji girl sighs before taking off her backpack and eventually gives hers to me. Thanks.

“Good, I’m leaving first, take care of her, Jjong-ah!”

Jjong-ah? The giant just called me what? I cringe by imagining being their Jjong-ah in four days. This second I promise, when we back to Seoul I will never treat them as human.

Just when I see his back running leaving us, I realize that we’re pretty far from the rest students. I don’t know whom I should blame this to.

“Let’s go,” she says, motioning her head towards those leaving students. I refuse to speak more and just follow her behind.

We both walk in complete silence. The trees is getting dense, the path is getting more difficult. While I’m panting with two bags on my back, that girl is taking picture here and there. It’s true that I don’t know her. And I don’t have any plan to know her more, I just want to get to the camp soon, throwing this bags out of my shoulder, and sleep. But one thing, we’re getting farther than the rest, damn, I sense a bad thing.

This is really ridiculous. I mean this kind of program. They said it was merely a welcome party for the freshmen yet I knew since the begining that the party would not be held any soon, or I could say never - to be exact. Those upperclassmen bring us to a camp which is surrounded by a forest in a mountain, even though they said it’s a safe one, and not to forget it also has difficult path. I can picture how worse the welcome party will be.

“Wait . .” indeed, it’s difficult for me to call that girl. I can’t even breathe properly.

She turns around, sliding her phone inside her jacket, and looking at me with a question look. I can’t help it. I put down the backpack, and putting my hands on my knees. I can’t walk farther. This little mountain is not my field.

“Wanna get some rest?” She knows it. I nod, and my body eventually meets the ground.

“Ok, then”

Ok, then? I try to catch her gaze and she looks utterly fine with it. I thought she would push me to keep walking. She even look for the nearest big stone and sits on it, and now looking at me still with that look. What’s wrong with this sunbae?

Just don’t think of it! Right! I will call it as my luck. I ignore her eyes as I slid my hands under my head, folding it as my pillow. It doesn’t matter anymore even though there is a stranger looking at me, in my eyes it’s now the view of the huge trees with the blue sky upon it. I take some deep breath. This is life. Indeed.

“Damn!” I wake up in panic as I cannot see anything. Darkness is all in front of me even though I’ve been fully awake. “Damn!” she must have left me. This is not good at all.

This must be their prank, to mock me even more, to embarrass me. I’m sure those damn upper class are laughing somewhere around these dense tree.

Wait. I’m in the middle of forest, “Damn!” and alone. No no no! This is not good, I cannot br