do kyungsoo (feat. lee jieun) - in relationship

To stay in a relationship, do you really need to love your partner?

Jieun was flustered and said I was out of mind when I asked this particular question. I used to think it wasn’t a big deal, but seeing her reaction, I guessed it was indeed a problem.

“What do you mean?” asked her with eyes still wide open.

“I mean exactly what I said.”

She furrowed her forehead and still in her expression reflected well how she described me, crazy.

“You don’t love Kyungsoo?”

“What?” now it’s me getting flustered. Not expecting her questioning my love for my boyfriend.

Jieun leaned forward, getting more attached to my sudden weird question. I guessed it’s indeed weird. We were talking about her upcoming album and my inner thought slipped out without I was even aware of it.

“Then why you’re asking?” she added.

“Of course … I love him.”

“You’re hesitating,” she accused me, one of her eyebrows lifted, obviously not convinced.

“I love him … right?” And I did sound hesitating. And she’s huh-ing me. I read muttering crazy again.

“Did you just ask me?” she replied with another question.

“OK. I love him. Of course I love Do Kyungsoo, he’s my boyfriend, we’ve been in this relationship for three years-

“But?”

Grabbing my lemon tea, I avoided my best friend’s demanding gaze. Something didn’t seem right, and I knew it was me.

“Come on, Eunji. You can’t love someone just because you’ve been dating him for three years or so. You know it’s not about that,” she corrected me, and feeling so bad I actually agreed with her.

She joined me with her cappuccino, “you’re strange, Ji. What is wrong with you?”

I don’t know. I actually don’t.

“Loving your partner is why you’re in relationship with him,” she emphasized her sentence.

I looked up and met gaze with hers. My heart beat so fast, finding me indeed was strange.

“I don’t know,” I admitted weakly.

“What you don’t know?” again she chased me.

She’s worried, I knew.

“I just don’t know.”

I was helpless, and clueless, as if being trapped in my own riddle. This realization slowly got me anxious. I didn’t know until now that I might have been wrong.

To simply describe my relationship with Do Kyungsoo, one of amazing singers, and men, I’d ever met, was … nothing special. We met through a friend, he befriended Jo Insung, and I did too, he introduced us and we got along really well. We’re both idols and loved singing and acting so much, we never had a problem with talking. One day, he naturally asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend, and I thought we would be fine together. And bam, we’ve been in this relationship for three years.

“Jieun-ah,” another realization hit me.

“Wae? Mwo?” she’s panicking, even before I spilled out my thought.

“I think I’ve never said I loved him.” I was truly flustered. My eyes fluttered open, flabbergasted. For a pregnant silence I was like into a limbo.

Right. Now that I recalled, I never even once said that I loved him. That word seemed so new to my lips. And … neither did he.

“What?!”

“And neither did he.” I looked at my friend, terrified of my own discovery. “We’re strange! Oh my god! What should I do?!”

“Yah!”

“What if … what if … we’re not in love with each other?”

I felt a weird cold stumbling under my feet, slowly crawling inside my skin, trying to dominate my body.

“Yah, yah, don’t panic!” Jieun tried, she held my hand and patted it. I was still seen weird in her eyes, but I could see she’s getting really worried.

“I think it’s just because you’re in your period. Don’t be over thinking of something unessential like this,” she continued.

“Yah! You said I was crazy before, for asking you my weird question. Now you said it’s not essential. Which one is right?”

Dropping her jaw, Jieun g