"J'ai tant besoin de toi,t'es mon amour à moi
J'ai tant besoin de toi,j'irais partout où tu iras
J'ai tant besoin de toi,t'es mon amour à moi
J'ai tant besoin de toi,j'ten pris ne me quittes pas"

*Marc Antoine - J´ai tant besoin de toi ( I need you so much)

( A/n.: I know it doesn´t suit the chapter as I wanted but i really like the song and it portraits Seungri´s feelings in the begining)

Seungri´s Side: 

It´s been three days exactly since Seungri spoke with Top. After the big bomb was dropped he stormed out the party and Seungri hasn´t hear anything from him since which worried him more as the hours past.

He tried to chase after Top but missed him in the middle of the crowd. After that he thought maybe he would find him in his apartment after all where could he go in the middle of the night but no luck there either. Top was nowhere to be found.

Defeated, Seungri decided to wait at his place and hope he would enventually show up but it has been days already and still no sign of his boyfriend. He called a dozen times and left thousand of messages but no response from Top there either. Clearly he wasn´t going to talk to him any time sooner but Seungri couldn´t help but worry.

The incident played over and over in his mind but nothing made sense to him yet. All he knew he was mad Top kept something from him but then again Seungri couldn´t throw the first stone either. Himself had lied as well and hasn´t been honest about his relantionship with Jiyoung. He just should have told him about it in the beggining and brake all ties with his ex and maybe none of this would have happened. Looking back know Seungri couldn´t help but feeling dissapointed of how many mistakes he has made, plus managed to hurt the ones he cared about but how could he fix everything now?

He couldn´t help but feel angry at Jiyoung either. What he did was wrong yet he seemed to know so much more than he did about his own boyfriend. He thought about going there and demand some answers but he wanted to hear Top first. It all could have been lies but Top admited so there was no mistakes or doubts, he had served time for assault. That just made no sense at all to Seungri. Never up until now he saw any signs on his boyfriend be the violent or angry guy but then again he has been wrong before. On the other hand Jiyoung and Top were entirely different people and his ex didn´t exactly beat him either in their entire relantionship up until that dissagreament. 

Seungri was stuck. There were too many theories and unasnwered questions right now for him to make a solid opinion or any decision. 

First thing he had to do was find Top, but where? That was the million dollar question. 

He had no relatives besides that uncle he met but he claimed he hasn´t seen him in days so he didn´t go there. Top never talked much about his family and clearly there was tension in between them giving the incident so they were out of the question.

Another source Seungri could go to was hid friends, but that was another problem. Top didn´t seem to have many friends either. He was very private and reserved person making it difficult for Seungri right now. 

There was Minho. Of course Seungri thought of him but he didn´t have his number and they only met once. That was a bumer but he had to find a way to contact him so he decided to go look for him at work. Blaming his idiot mind for not thinking of that sooner, Seungri took his jacket and stormed off.

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The secretary informed Seungri that Top hasn´t come to work in three days. Exactly three days since he has been missing. Aparently he took a few days off due sickness and they refused to let him inside since he wasn´t a worker there making Seungri feel more helpless than before.

Defeated, he stepped outside and sat down on the bench in front of the building. Seungri had no luck, especially on relantionships. Something always went wrong. 

Sighing, he looked up at the cristal clear sky. Where are you?

But just as he got up to leave he noticed a figure move quickly towards his car. He squinted his eyes as he observed the familiar figure realising it was Minho. Storming off in light speed, Seungri quickly made his way towards him not wanting to miss him.

- Minho - he screamed as he waved his hand but the man didn´t turned - Minho - He tried again this time sure the man had heard him but decided to ignore.

- Damn you wait, Minho, it´s me Seungri! - He screamed as he positioned in front of the car doors blocking Minho from getting to his car.

- Oh, hi there...I didn´t see you - The man released a nervous laugh.

- Don´t bull me I know you heard me - Seungri said furiously.

- Look I have to go, I´m late, now if you don´t mind... - the man shoved the younger away with his hand.

- I´m not going anywhere until you tell where Top is. I know you know where he is.

- I don´t know. Isn´t he your boyfriend? You should know better than me - Minho raised a brow.

He was dead furious but also curious. He didn´t managed to catch a thing from Top the other nights from all his drunk mumbles. He felt like he needed to protect his friend. Honestly he didn´t know what Top saw in Seungri. Sure he was handsome but from what he heard so far he has done nothing but hurt him. From Minho´s point of view, he didn´t deserve his friend.

- Look I don´t need this right now. I´m worried about him. I haven´t heard from him in days.

- Maybe he doesn´t want to be found. I think you´ve done enough so my advice stop hurting my friend and do him a favor and leave him alone. He´s better without you - Minho shouted all the anger he had bottled inside and with a quick hand movement he shoved the younger away from the door as he got inside his car and left.

Seungri was alone again. All his efforts were in vain. Still no news about his boyfriends location or state. Maybe he should give him some time? After all that might be a hard topic to discuss with him but honestly he thought they became closer and trusted each other more. Seungri could be wrong and he was afraid he´d loose him. But what if Minho was right? He didn´t bring much into their relationship and always managed to hurt Top´s feelings. It took him a long time until he realised his feelings and now that he did he felt like it was too late. Maybe Top would be better without him and all his exes drama. But what about all those times they spent together? Would it go to waste now? Haven´t they broke enough ground already to create a steady relantionship? He thought so up until now. 

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~ Ding Dong  ~ Ding Dong ~ Ding Dong ~ Ding Dong

Seungri dragged himself lazily towards the door as his slippers rustled against the floor. Whoever it was, was very persistent on not going away. He had given up eariler in the morning after the encounter with Minho and decided to wait. He wasn´t sure if this was the best tactic but he had nothing else. Top celarly didn´t want to speak with him so all he could do is wait. One thing Seungri was afraid that moment won´t come.

~ Ding Dong

Looking through the pickhole, Seungri´s eyes widened. The last person he wanted to ever see was standing outside his apartment door right now.

- I know you´re in there. I can see your shadow beneath the door. Please open up - the man said but Seungri ignored as he leaned on the door. He shouldn´t have drank.

- You didn´t give me much of choice. You´re didn´t answered my calls.

- Take a hint then - Seungri said angrily. He didn´t want to see anyone unless it was Top.

- I´m not leaving until we talk - the man insisted.

- There´s nothing to talk about. Go away Jiyoung.

- Look I know I didn´t handle that very well and I´m sorry I hurt you but I´m not sorry for what I did or said. He´s dangerous and I´m afraid he´ll hurt you.

- Don´t be. He will never hurt me, I know that - Seungri was sure. Whatever happened in the past he had faith in Top and he knew he would never hurt him.

- Haven´t you heard what I said the other night? He almost killed a man for crying out loud - The older man screamed as he naged on the door in frustration startling Seungri whom took a few steps away from it.

- I don´t want to hear anything, just leave. You´ve done enough - Seungri yelled as he stormed inside his bedroom and threw himself on the bed. Tears threatened to fall from his eyes but he managed to calm down. Seungri didn´t want to give his ex the satisfaction of getting under his skin. 

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- Go away. I already said I don´t want to talk to you ever again - Seungri opened the door and yelled thinking it was Jiyoung perstering him again as he rang non stop on his door.

- Oh really? Because I thought you would be very interesting to hear what I have to say but oh well - the man said as he turned to leave.

- No, no, no Minho wait. I thought it was someone else - Seungri quickly grabbed his arm as he realised who it was. He couldn´t believe he came by himself, especially after what he had said in the morning.

- Who did you think I was? - Minho raised a brow. Top should be number one on his list of concerns in fact he should be kissing his feet for coming and giving him a chance in the first place. Though, then again his deathly curiosity inside him wanted to know who Seungri was mad at that he was so shaken.

- No one important. So you´re here because of Top - Seungri looked at the man hoping he would confirm. He was dying to know anything at this point and he thanked the heavens and all Gods for bringing Minho at his door.

- Yeah, I am. First I want to apologise for being so rude in the morning but I still stand by what I said. I don´t aprove much of you but I think you´re the only one who can do anything at this point.

- What do you mean? Oh gosh what happened? Is he hurt? - Seungri started to ramble as he asked a million questions.

- Wow, calm down man. Nothing serious but he´s a mess. Look, I don´t know what happened between you two but I haven´t seen him like that in a long time.

- Well, it´s about his father - Seungri examined Minho´s face as it darkened as soon as he heard about it.

- - Minho exhaled as he ran his hand through his hair. Of course. What lese could have sent Top out of his rails but his father. That old man brought him nothing but misery.

- I didn´t know you knew. He doesn´t talk much about it - Minho said.

- Actually I don´t know anything. Like you said he doesn´t talk much about his family. All I know is that they had a diagreement - Seungri said not wanting to reveal how much he knew. Minho would kill him if he knew it was all because of him and his ex drama and Seungri didn´t want to loose his only way to get to Top now motter how much of a he was being.

- Ya?! Disagreement - Minho snorted. If Seungri only knew - It was more than that, trust me but that´s not my story to tell. Right now I need you to get dressed and come with me. I hope I won´t regret it - he whispered the last sentence to himself as he watched Seungri storm out to his bedroom.

Maybe he did genuinly care for Top but Minho had his doubts. He has seen his friend get hurt too much and he ddin´t wanted to trust him with Seungri yet. He had to try harder if he wanted his approval and Minho wasn´t going to make it easy for him. But first he had to get to the bottom of this. Too much happened that he didn´t know yet.

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Top´s Side: 

- One year and a half - Top admitted as he fell down on his chair defeated. 

His demons from the past were out and most importantly his opponent knew. It didn´t matter to him much right now, all he could think of was his father on the floor shaking as his mother screamed at him. She always protected him instead of her son. Didn´t she love him? Why did she allow his father treat him like that all his life? What had he done?

Right! Top knew exactly what he had done. His father punished him every time he got the chance for it. All his life he was mocked and abused for being different, but what