Kyungsoo eyes fluttered open when he felt the sun rays hitting his face. He flinched as it felt warm with the sun shining directly on his face. Kyungsoo tried moving out of the bed and reached for his phone that was on his bedside table but he was not able to. It felt like he was stopped by two big arms. Kyungsoo opened his eyes and realised that he wasn't in his own room, in his own house. Where was he? Kyungsoo tried recalling what happened the night before but he wasn't able to. He only remembered that he went over to Baekhyun and Chanyeol's to celebrate the fact that Baekhyun is expecting a baby boy and they put the kids to sleep and they all had a round of drinks and Baekhyun suggested that they play a drinking game. Kyungsoo could not recall what happened next.

Kyungsoo heart thumped when he realise that he wasn't in his bed in his room. He pulled at the blankets that was covering his chest and realised that he was stark . Kyungsoo then realised that there was a pair of strong tanned arms hugging him tightly from behind. No, this isn't happening. He is not in the bed with Kai. Kyungsoo tried moving away from Kai but he fell on the ground the moment he got up from bed.

Kai woke up from all the noise but he was only greeted with Kyungsoo laying on the floor with the blanket covering half of his body. “Hyung, what are you doing?” Kai asked groggily.

“What happened?” Kyungsoo only managed to say out as he desperately tried to cover his body up with the sheets.

“What are you talking about hyung? What happened to you? Why are you on the floor?” Kai continued asking even though he knew deep inside of him what would happened.

“What happened last night?” Kyungsoo asked as anger started building up inside of him.

“Hyung, look. Nothing happened. We.. we just slept,” Kai said as he got out of the bed towards Kyungsoo. (with his boxers on)

“Don't come close to me,” Kyungsoo said as he wrapped the sheets closer to his petite body.

“Hyung, look. I am sorry. Things went wrong and it happened.” Kai tried explaining as he held out a hand to Kyungsoo.

“What happened?” Kyungsoo asked. “You ing me right?!” Kyungsoo screamed.

“No, Kyungsoo. Its not like that. You're getting the wrong idea,” Kai begged.

“Are you ing with me?” Kyungsoo said with wide eyes which are filled with anger and fear.

“No Kyungsoo. Listen to me. I am sorry okay! You came onto me,” Kai reasoned.

“There is no reason for me to come onto people unless I am drunk,” Kyungsoo reaonsed.

“You were,” Kai stated matter-of-factly.

“And you took advantage of it didn't you?! You forced me into having with you,” Kyungsoo pointed a finger on Kai. “And you did not use any when you know very well that I could get pregnant, did you?! You did that just so I will bear you a child. You took advantage of the fact that I am in love with you, you ing ,” Kyungsoo said as he slowly got up and put on the clothes that was scattered on the floor.

“Kyungsoo, I am sorry. It just happened. Where are you going?” Kai asked. “You're hurt. You shouldn't be going anywhere,” Kai continued as he grabbed hold of Kyungsoo's wrists.

“Don't with me, damnnit. You don't own me,” Kyungsoo snatched his hand away from Kai's strong grip.

“YOU BELONG TO ME. ONCE YOU'RE PREGNANT WITH MY CHILD, YOU BELONG TO ME,” Kai raised his voice for the first time in their heated argument.

Kyungsoo's eyes grew bigger as he slapped Kai's face,”I don't belong to you and I never will. Not even when I am pregnant with the child you planted inside of me,” Kyungsoo said as he stormed away to where Sehun and Luhan is sleeping.

Kyungsoo packed all of Sehun's clothing and stuffed toys into the bag that he brought as he pulled his son up. Sehun just remained from where he was seated playing with Luhan. Kyungsoo was getting angrier when he realised that his son wouldn't budge. “Aren't you going to get up?!” Kyungsoo said angrily to which Sehun replied with a shake of his head.

“Fine then! You'll stay here together with your favourite Kai appa and I will go back home,” Kyungsoo said as he stormed off the apartment.

-

Both Baekhyun and Chanyeol who could only watch in horror at how Kyungsoo raised his voice at his one and only precious baby boy, Sehun. Sehun just sat there beside Luhan with wide and watery eyes as he watched his umma walked out of the door without him. Sehun turned to a four months pregnant Baekhyun as his lips quivered. In just a matter of seconds, Sehun started wailing as he raised his chubby arms asking to be carried. Baekhyun bounced the wailing boy in his arms as Sehun continued crying mumbling umma in between sobs. It breaks Kai watching the innocent boy crying because he knows that Sehun shouldn't be involved in the fight.

Sehun stretched out his arms as he saw Kai standing at the corner,”Appa!” Sehun begged to be carried.

Kai did like he was told to as he rubbed Sehun's back constantly; doing the exact same thing that Kyungsoo did when Sehun started wailing,”Its okay, Sehunnie. Umma will be back soon, Kai appa promise.” Kai said over and over again like it was a chant.

Sehun's crying died down to soft sobs as he clutched onto Kai's shirt like his life depended on it. Kai felt like that it was a natural reflex coming from a a child as young as two-years old. What can he understand when his mother suddenly leave him? When Sehun finally calmed down and fell asleep on the couch next to Kai, Kai got up and took a shower and got into another change of clothes because he felt dirty from all the previous night activities. Once Kai got out of the shower with a towel to dry his hair, Kai sat down on the table with a hot chocolate waiting for him along with Baekhyun and Chanyeol.

“Mind telling me what happened this morning?” Chanyeol asked as he eyed Kai carefully.

“Umm, you guys remember how we entered the guest room last night?” Kai asked as he watched the other two carefully. “Well, after we went into the room, we kind of had . And when Kyungsoo woke up this morning, he forgot what happened yesterday and he got angry seeing how he was already in bed with me. I didn't know what to do and tried explaining to him but he got even more angrier and accused me of him,” Kai finished off because he doesn't see the need in explaining what happened with Sehun.

“Do you actually him or was he willing?” Baekhyun asked.

“He was willing, hyung! He even asked me for more and stopped me from using the !” Kai said.

“So, it wasn't forced?” Chanyeol asked.

“Kai, I think Kyungsoo's problem is he isn't ready for yet and the thoughts of waking up in bed with someone he loves just shock him. I also think that he isn't very good with alcohol which kind of explain why he was oh so seductive and willing to have with you,” Baekhyun reasoned.

“Really?” Kai asked.

“Yes, really. I think you should give him space to breath then try talking to him just in case he is really pregnant with your child,” Baekhyun finished just the same time when Sehun got into the kitchen and climbed into Kai's lap.

Jongin hyung, I am sorry for what I did to Kyungsoo hyung. I hope I can make things right with him again.

-

The moment Kyungsoo stumbled out of the apartment, he heard Sehun, his son, wailing. He then heard how Baekhyun was calming the boy down. All that Kyungsoo had in his mind was that Baekhyun isn't doing it right. Sehun likes it when someone rubs his back and allow him to grip onto your shirt. Sehun especially likes it when someone sings to him any lullaby as it lulls him to sleep. Sehun prefers sleeping his sadness away. The one and only song that always manages to calm Sehun down is called My Turn To Cry because Sehun understood it as how his umma didn't want him to cry. Kyungsoo stood by the door humming to the lyrics that he knows very well. But his humming were stopped short when he heard Sehun shouting appa. Kyungsoo heart clenches at the mention of the word. The small flashes of what happened the night before came to mind.

Kyungsoo limped all the way down to the lobby of the apartment. Kyungsoo could still feel the stinging pain on his lower body as he sat on one of the couches. Kyungsoo sobbed into his arms as he forced himself to remember the events of the night before. He swore that he could not remember a single thing but Kyungsoo was convinced that they really did had . The pain, the dried on his chest and the clothes that were strewn on the floor. Kyungsoo felt like this was dejavu. He was in this position before but it was with Jongin and that led him to being pregnant with Sehun. He didn't want this. He never wanted any of this to happen.

Kyungsoo reminisced the time when Kai was so persistent in courting him. Kai courted him and Kai managed to win his heart. They started dating and Kyungsoo promised himself that he would never allow Kai to touch him in an intimate way. His body belongs to Jongin and no one else but him. Kai broke his promise of not going beyond the limit. Kai forced him to have with him. So, what is Kyungsoo supposed to do now?

Kyungsoo took out his phone and dialled the number that he is so familiar with,”Joonmyeon hyung? Can you pick me up at Baekhyun and Chanyeol's apartment?” Kyungsoo said softly as sadness and fear were evident in his voice.

Jongin? Are you still listening to me? What am I supposed to do, baby? I slept with Kai and I think I might get pregnant. What if I am indeed pregnant with his child? Am I supposed to keep it? If you were me, what would you do, Jongin? Jongin, I miss you. I wish you're here to comfort me and make me feel better. I miss you, Jongin. I love you, Jongin. I love you so much. Kyungsoo thought as he played with the ring in his finger. Kyungsoo removed it because for the first time in his life, Kyungsoo thought that he don't deserve to be using this wedding ring when he slept with another man other than his deceased husband.