A/N: Dont hate me Araso?

MINJUNG’S POV

I’m thinking about it repeatedly on my mind. I keep staring at the ceiling thinking what will be the pros and cons to my decisions. Should I call mom? Maybe she’s sleeping or busy at work and besides, I want to handle this on my own.

Is it time to cool our relationship for a while?

PROs

1.       We can take a break for a while

2.       He wont be so stressed out about me

3.       He will stop worrying about me

4.       He can focus at work

5.       I can just fly to Japan with my mom and accept the Universities offer

If you’re wondering what’s their offer, I’m gonna tell you. I really wanted to become a writer or a journalist or a painter someday so I asked mom and she said, the schools in Japan are great. I sent some scholarship form and they accepted it. I wanted to give it a try but something is holding me back to stay here in Korea. I haven’t sent them my decision yet. I’m still thinking about it. I haven’t told Jinki because all we do right now is to fight and throw arguments at each other.

CONs

1.       I will miss him

2.       I will miss him

3.       I will miss him

4.       I will miss him

5.       I will still LOVE him no matter what

I stared at my phone and looked at our pictures. We are so happy, just like a normal couple. We were so young and we are so in love. I cant even imagine how much we have changed. How much we treat each other. How much we don’t trust each other. Unconsciously, tears rolled my eyes again. My vision blurry, as I stare more of our photos.  Should I be the one to take the move to talk to him? Seems like he doesn’t care. Seems like he is happy with someone else.

“Jinki, I miss you”

I flipped to the next photo and this photo was the most special photograph of us.

This is the first ever picture we took together on our very first date when we started going out as a couple.  He was a little chubby back then which I think was really cute but he thinks of himself as an obese child.

“Jinki, we should at least take one photo right?”

“But I am not that photogenic”

“Whatever. I love you”

He looked at me and smiled. Just by that, we took a photo. He was really cute. It’s our first date and this photo will be forever special to me. The first time we ever hold hands publicly, the first meal we had, the first cute gestures he does for me just my tying my lace. I love Jinki, Im madly in love with him.

I sniff and cried all night, just thinking about him. Just thinking how I miss him. All of my life, he was there with me. We had little fights but it never made us like this. Jinki has this charm that he will do something just to sway me but this time, maybe because he’s busy, he cant even give me a little of his time.

I search a photo of Jung Ah. I don’t even know her before this. Jinki haven’t even told me she was his friend. Maybe we are just the same. I haven’t told him about Jae Won. See we don’t even tell everything to each other now

“she’s pretty, she looks like a doll, she’s y. Totally opposite of me” I whispered to myself

**

[The next night]

I never went out of the house. Last night, I slept with tear stains on my face. I cant even breathe while sniffing. I will be staying here until I feel better. Until I will