Onew walked me home after the trip to Key’s house. He sent me to my new home and when I opened the door the furniture and everything is complete. I remember that mom is travelling this Sunday and I cant help but to feel sad

“Can you just send me in our home?”

“But your mom is not there”

“How did you know?”

“She told me to send you here. She’ll be here tomorrow”

I stood up in front of the porch holding his hands. He kissed my forehead and told me to get inside

“How about you? Don’t you want to come in?”

“I need to be in our dorm today so I should sleep there. Why?”

“Nothing” i bow my head

“Tell me. Do you feel lonely?”

I nodded. He smiled at me and lifted my chin

“I’ll do my best to come later, if manager hyung leaves”

“Arasso”

“Dont show me that face baby”

He wrapped his hands around my waist and looked at me in the eye.”Look at me” he said

I looked at him and smiled. But not the beaming smile he was expecting. I felt the grip on my waist and he pulled me. Real close to me. And kissed my lips for the last time

“I’ll call you later” he whispered

“Ne”

“Dont miss me so much” i smiled at his statement. He is the only one who can make me so happy even with this kind of emotion

**

[the next day]

I opened the browser in my phone to check on the latest news. I do this random stuffs when I’m really bored. Onew is not here since they have a schedule and he called me last night that he cant come cause of his dongsaegs which I understand

“SHINee’s Leader Onew, spotted with an anonymous girl while holding hands in the streets near their dorm”

i spilled my coffee at the moment i read the headline. I scrolled down and saw some of our pictures. Who took this? Oh My Gosh, we are in big trouble. I scrolled again and read some comments from fans

+Who is she? Is she our oppa’s girlfriend?+

+that +

+we will hunt her down and kill her+

I trembled at those comments. Maybe this is the reason why Onew doesn’t want to reveal our relationship.Maybe this is why he is being careful cause he knows this will hurt me or the both of us. I wish i had been more careful. Dang!

I tried to call him but he’s not answering at all. Maybe he is in an interview or a performance. Maybe he hasn’t read  about this yet.

My heart cant stop from beating 1000000 times per second. What if when i go out in that door some fans will throw something on me. How will I