I dont like guys

**Who am I in your eyes?**

**Hankyung’s P.O.V.**

 

“Why so angry?” I said with a jokeful voice “Do you wanna dance too?”

He looked at me “……do you wanna dance with me?”

‘He’s not that shy I hear’ I though.

“Sure, why not” I answered friendly. But at the dance floor Heechul suddnely became very shy.

“I can’t dance actually” he said, and I chuckled “That doesnt matter, just have fun”

He though a bit, and started slowly to move, and then he danced…or at least tried.

“I told you I couldnt dance” He said when I chuckled, and stopped.

“Sorry, try again, I won’t laugh” I said, and started to dance myself. Heechul stood there a bit then he started to move again, but it still looked kinda funny.

And there we stood until the song stopped, and we went back.

“I feel stupid” he complained

“Why?”

“You danced so awesome, and I…just made a fool out of myself”

“Dont think about that, at least it was fun right?”

He though a bit before he slowly nodded “I guess so”

 

**Heechul’s P.O.V.**

 

The rest of day went fast by, we chatted, joked and became friends. Soon the clock was 11pm, and it was time to close the club.

“Bye” Hankyung said to the other workers.

“Bye” they said back, and we went out.

“What direction do you live?” he asked me, and I pointed to the left.

“Me too, then we can walk together” he smiled.

 

“Wanna hang out tomorrow?”

“I have work tomorrow” I sighed

“I meant after dinner” he chuckled

“oh…sure”

I wanted to jump around in happines, but kept calm.

“What do you wanna do then?”

I shrugged my shoulder “I dont know, what do you wanna do”

“Emm…maybe we can watch a movie?”

I nodded “Sure”

Again I wanted to jump around, but kept calm…or this time my feet moved a bit and I stumbled.

I closed me eyes and waited to hit the ground, but Hankyung had grabbed me, and pulled me back up.

 

I opened my eyes and met his, we were only a few centimetres apart from each other, and my heart beated fast.

“You ok?” he asked worried while still holding me “it looked like you were about to faith”

I swallowed, and did something I didnt plan on…

I leaned myself a bit toward him, and started to kiss him……and it felt like the whole time stopped… and he kissed me back

 

…or at least I imagined it

 

He pushed me lightly away “What are you doing?” he didnt sound angry, just confused.

“Sorry” I blushed hard “I…I just couldnt control myself…I…”

He sighed “I know you like guys, and that’s ok…but…I’m not gay…I don’t like guys that way…sorry”

Like a stab from a knife the words hitted my heart, and I felt my tears come, but fought them back.

“It’s ok…I shouldn’t have done that…I…” I cutted myself off by starting to run. I didn’t wanna cry in front of him.

“Heechul!” He shouted after me, but I didn’t look back.

‘Why did I kiss him?...why?...I should have known the reaction…’

I didn’t stop before I closed the door to my house behind me.

‘I guess he hates me now’

 

**Hankyung’s P.O.V.**

 

I stopped when Heechul closed the door behind him…I tried to catch my breath after running after him while shouting…

‘Good job Hankyung…’ I though to myself, and turned around to walk to my own house. But on the way I kept thinking about the kiss, and how it felt…it was my first kiss with a guy, and it had felt more right then the kisses with girls…and that’s why I kissed him back before pushing him away.

‘Aish…you’re a damn jerk Hankyung’ I though when I came home and sat down by the kitchen table. ‘Why can’t you just accept that you are gay, and have always been?’

 

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In case it confused you I just say it now.

When Heechul kissed Hankyung…Hankyung kissed him back before pushing him away, but Heechul though he imagined it when he felt Hankyung kiss back.

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kiwicolada
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Chapter 34: Zhoumi is such a sweet and caretaking boyfriend, be nice to him Henry ^^ I like the interactions between the siblings. And maybe it does Wookie good to have his hyung around in town. So he won't feel that lonely anymore. Especially when he still has to deal with that love squall between Kyu, Yesung and himself. Thank you for this chapter ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak 0 points #2
Chapter 33: Finally. Teuk is so cute with Kangin. They're an adorable couple. Hope no one will ruin what they have. I like how supportive Heechul is. The best buddy. But it's sad he feels lonely. Wish him to get a new boyfriend before Sungmin XD Chul deserves to be happy. Thank you again ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak 0 points #3
Chapter 32: Henry is an adorable twin. But I don't know what to think about Kyuhyun's letter. His final action on Wookie was so horrible, he can consider himself lucky if Wook agrees to stay friends with him. I mean they seem to keep a special place in each other's hearts forever, that's nice if this is ok for them. But staying friends with an ex gives me weird chills. Just saying. But thank you for writing ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #4
Chapter 31: I would understand if Wookie never wants to talk to Kyuhyun again. Yeah, it was not fair he was falling for someone else, but Kyu's action in the end was really cruel. So Wookie is right ignoring all his calls. I'm curious what Yesung would think about the entire mess, if he had all informations. Would he punch Kyuhyun in return? Thank you for sharing ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #5
Chapter 30: Oh Hyuk is s carefree about it. Not having in mind his buddy could get fired. Oh Teuk, Hyuk told you about Donghae, the same afternoon you later denied that you and Kangin have a connection, when he came to your apartment. Seems like he forgets somethings at times ...
Thank you for writing ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #6
Chapter 29: I doubt that Hyuk is telling lies. Before he said Teuk was drunk on that day and obviously won't remember that. So here we're with a confused Teuk, who really believes he never touched his bestie. I'm curious how they will solve this XD Thank you ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #7
Chapter 28: This was cruel. Kyuhyun was hurt, ok. That he may wanted one last kiss, fine. But what he did was so unfair. It feels like he wanted to break Wookie on purpose, so no one else could have him. This was really against all rules. Now I'm convinced that Wook would be in better hand with Yesung. Hope Wookie won't do anything stupid. Please hurry and find him, Yeye.
Thank you as always ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #8
Chapter 27: I would like to hug Kyu. He's suffering but still wants the best for Wookie. Letting him go shows how much he loves him. Even being a big Yewook shipper I feel pity for Kyuhyun. Hope Yeye takes good care of Wookie and never makes him cry. Thank you for this chapter ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #9
Chapter 26: I feel sorry for Kyuhyun. But still I'm thinking Hyuk wasn't in the right to spill the tea. And it was silly from Donghae to expect that his new boyfriend doing such things for him. It feels like Hyuk was getting used. But what about Kyu and Wookie now? Will Kyu hate him? Thank you for sharing ❤️
kiwicolada
1615 streak #10
Chapter 25: Poor Kangin, he must feel betraited and rejected. Can't wait for Teuk's explaination and if his boyfriend will forgive him. But I can see why he's so damn insecure. Kangin is still his student and as teacher he risks his job. Thanks again ❤️