I dont like guys
**Who am I in your eyes?****Hankyung’s P.O.V.**
“Why so angry?” I said with a jokeful voice “Do you wanna dance too?”
He looked at me “……do you wanna dance with me?”
‘He’s not that shy I hear’ I though.
“Sure, why not” I answered friendly. But at the dance floor Heechul suddnely became very shy.
“I can’t dance actually” he said, and I chuckled “That doesnt matter, just have fun”
He though a bit, and started slowly to move, and then he danced…or at least tried.
“I told you I couldnt dance” He said when I chuckled, and stopped.
“Sorry, try again, I won’t laugh” I said, and started to dance myself. Heechul stood there a bit then he started to move again, but it still looked kinda funny.
And there we stood until the song stopped, and we went back.
“I feel stupid” he complained
“Why?”
“You danced so awesome, and I…just made a fool out of myself”
“Dont think about that, at least it was fun right?”
He though a bit before he slowly nodded “I guess so”
**Heechul’s P.O.V.**
The rest of day went fast by, we chatted, joked and became friends. Soon the clock was 11pm, and it was time to close the club.
“Bye” Hankyung said to the other workers.
“Bye” they said back, and we went out.
“What direction do you live?” he asked me, and I pointed to the left.
“Me too, then we can walk together” he smiled.
“Wanna hang out tomorrow?”
“I have work tomorrow” I sighed
“I meant after dinner” he chuckled
“oh…sure”
I wanted to jump around in happines, but kept calm.
“What do you wanna do then?”
I shrugged my shoulder “I dont know, what do you wanna do”
“Emm…maybe we can watch a movie?”
I nodded “Sure”
Again I wanted to jump around, but kept calm…or this time my feet moved a bit and I stumbled.
I closed me eyes and waited to hit the ground, but Hankyung had grabbed me, and pulled me back up.
I opened my eyes and met his, we were only a few centimetres apart from each other, and my heart beated fast.
“You ok?” he asked worried while still holding me “it looked like you were about to faith”
I swallowed, and did something I didnt plan on…
I leaned myself a bit toward him, and started to kiss him……and it felt like the whole time stopped… and he kissed me back
…or at least I imagined it
He pushed me lightly away “What are you doing?” he didnt sound angry, just confused.
“Sorry” I blushed hard “I…I just couldnt control myself…I…”
He sighed “I know you like guys, and that’s ok…but…I’m not gay…I don’t like guys that way…sorry”
Like a stab from a knife the words hitted my heart, and I felt my tears come, but fought them back.
“It’s ok…I shouldn’t have done that…I…” I cutted myself off by starting to run. I didn’t wanna cry in front of him.
“Heechul!” He shouted after me, but I didn’t look back.
‘Why did I kiss him?...why?...I should have known the reaction…’
I didn’t stop before I closed the door to my house behind me.
‘I guess he hates me now’
**Hankyung’s P.O.V.**
I stopped when Heechul closed the door behind him…I tried to catch my breath after running after him while shouting…
‘Good job Hankyung…’ I though to myself, and turned around to walk to my own house. But on the way I kept thinking about the kiss, and how it felt…it was my first kiss with a guy, and it had felt more right then the kisses with girls…and that’s why I kissed him back before pushing him away.
‘Aish…you’re a damn jerk Hankyung’ I though when I came home and sat down by the kitchen table. ‘Why can’t you just accept that you are gay, and have always been?’
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In case it confused you I just say it now.
When Heechul kissed Hankyung…Hankyung kissed him back before pushing him away, but Heechul though he imagined it when he felt Hankyung kiss back.
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