Tired of pretending
**Who am I in your eyes?**
**Leeteuk’s P.O.V.**
I stood outside the store and waited for Kangin. Yesterday I talked to Heechul and today I asked Kangin out. He doesn’t know that I have talked to both Eunhyuk and Heechul, so today I am gonna surprise him. I am not going to be shy, or at least I am going to try, but I was able to come one hour too early because I though I was too late. I sighed and while I waited walked Eunhyuk and Donghae past me, they didn’t notice me. They held hands and I saw Donghae kiss Eunhyuk on his lips, and Eunhyuk become red as a tomato while jumping back. Donghae laughed and other people looked weird at them, but they didn’t notice them either, and Donghae just took Eunhyuks hand again and started to walk again.
‘I wonder if Eunhyuk’s parents know about Donghae. I know they are against gay people.’ I though before I remembered that Eunhyuk’s parents think he was with me that night, and if they noticed that Eunhyuk had slept with someone, they will think its me. I stood a long time wondering about what was going to happen next time I met Eunhyuk’s parents, because I hadn’t met them since that day. And while I stood and thinking I didn’t notice Kangin who suddenly stood right in front of me.
“You look like you’re in deep thoughts” he said and I looked fast at him.
“Hi Kangin.” I smiled “No, I wasn’t in so much deep thoughs, I just waited for you”
He smiled and we started to walk. And in the park I took the first step. Without looking at him I took his hand.
**Kangin’s P.O.V**
I looked confused at him, but he avoided my eyes and blushed, and I started to smile. He mostly looked at the gorund and ignored all the looks we got.
“Is something wrong?” I stopped and asked when I felt his hand started to shiver.
He lightly shook his head “No…It’s just that…I am not used to this…So im kind of scared”
“We don’t have to tell the world that we are together if you don’t want” I said. Forcing him was the last thing I would do.
He shook his head again “I am tired of pretending”
And by that he turned toward me and to my surprise he kissed me on my lips in front of all the people in the park. First I was in shock, but it didn’t take long before I returned the kiss, and there we stood, making out in the middle of the park. And it felt good.
**Heechul’s P.O.V**
I had followed Leeteuk and Kangin a while without them knowing, and now I watched them making out together with Donghae and Eunhyuk that I had met. Eunhyuk had asken me why I was walking around like I spied on someone, and I told about Leeteuk, and he wanted to join so Donghae just had to come along.
“Good job Teukie” I smiled
“It didn’t take that long” Eunhyuk said.
“Well, the problem isn’t actually that the world knows that you’re gay. The biggest problem is the family” Donghae said.
“Can I ask you something” Eunhyuk turned to Donghae “Do your family know that we, you know, and that you are gay right now?”
Donghae laughed “No”
“Arent you afraid for them to find out? You don’t actually hide it”
Donghae shrugged his shoulders “I take it as it comes”
“Me too, and my parents are against gay people” Eunhyuk added then we turned to Kangin and Leeteuk.
They sat down at the grass, held hands and smiled at each other and Leeteuk layed his head at Kangin’s shoulders, and suddenly I got really jealous. I want a boyfriend too, but I don’t find anyone good looking and kind.
Now Leeteuk had layed himself in Kangin’s lap while Kangin his hair. I want that too. I sighed and though about that time I was with Sungmin. It was a great time…When we were alone. Iwas too afraid back then to do anything in public. More scared then Leeteuk was. I wonder if Sungmin will find someone when he moves here. In that case I will become jealous. Not about that the other guy gets Sungmin, no I am over Sungmin, but because Sungmin gets a new guy before me. Yeah, I know that sounds childish.
“Eunhyuk, Donghae…You will get a new classmate in a not long time” I said
“oh, who?” Donghae asked.
“A friend of mine, his name is Sungmin. He was visiting me a little while. Then he went home, and he will be moving to this town later.”
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