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• I can't speak Mandarin and I don't want to humiliate myself by using google translate all the time so anything underlined is said in Mandarin. 
• Some Mandarin terms I'd use would be from google translate still. I apologize beforehand to those who can speak the language if I got it wrong. :) 

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I always thought I’d be the first one to get over the relationship. But where am I now? Standing in front of his apartment door, too cowardly to even raise a knuckle and see if he’s home. There’s no point in me being here yet I still am.

Teenage cliché as it might sound but Jeremy is my life. Was my life. For six years we’ve been in love or at least I think we were. Maybe I was the one who gave all the love while nothing in equal value came back.  During high school we were the year’s best bet to getting married someday.

Jeremy was the school soccer player while I was the cheeky school journal photographer. When we became lovers we were together every day. Lunch, free period and we walk home together, hands linked like they were made to fit one another.

What happened between us, I don’t know. He just decided to finally end it with me weeks ago. Since then I couldn’t stop my tears from flowing out. Looking into my reflection on the golden doorknob I was staring into, my eyes was still swelled like marshmallows.

Then the door swung open. I snapped out of my trance only to find myself staring at Jeremy’s brown beautiful orbs.

“What are you doing here?” He asked sternly.

“I…I just wanted to see you,” I hung my head, playing with my fingers like how I have always been when I’m nervous.

I raised my head a bit to see his reaction when I saw a girl behind Jeremy, staring at me with confusion.

“Who is she?” I asked.

“Bo Mi just…leave please,” Jeremy slowly closed the door but I didn’t budge from my spot.

“Who is she?” I asked again.

“Look Bo Mi,”

“You already found replacement for me?” Words spat out my mouth with disgust. While I was in despair from breaking up, he’s already living happy with a new girl in his life? That’s just ! It’s unfair!

Jeremy massaged his temples with one hand. The face he had on, I know it, and it’s his I’m-getting-irritated-just-go-away face. He always does that when we fight, and we fight loads of times. He closes his eyes and bites his lower lip, taking deep inhales and broken exhales.

“Bo Mi, we’re over. Remember?” He tried to make his speaking as calm as he possibly could. I can tell.

“So that’s it? It’s that easy for you to give your love to someone else while I’m here in my own little world of despair?” I exploded with bottled anger and jealousy.  Tears were starting to form in my eyes. So here I am again, crying over him. Like a child I wanted him to hug me and tell me its okay but instead Jeremy just watched me.

I didn’t feel loved anymore. Like all the love in the world was just a lie.

I felt warm thumbs wipe my tear stained cheeks. I looked up at Jeremy’s face. “I’m sorry Bo Mi. But let’s be good friends okay?”

Friends?

Jeremy wiped my tears with a handkerchief he pulled from his jeans’ pockets. We awkwardly looked at each other as he contemplated whether to give me the handkerchief or not. In the end he retreated the object back to his pockets. “It’s best if we don’t give each other things to remember us by,” He gave me a weak smile.

I wanted to smile back but I just can’t find the will to. I watched his back turn on me. Through the slight gap of the open door I met eyes with the female I saw earlier.

The door closed without him looking back at me anymore.

So this was me. I was thrown away like yesterday’s newspaper.

I dragged myself to the stairs. Lost in my feelings again I became the clumsy Hwang Bo Mi. Just a few steps down the stairs, I slipped; landing painfully on my bottom. I tried to stand up but I fell down again. What else was to do than curl into a ball and just let the tears flow?

Hi everyone. I'm back :)

I've attempted to write my other fanfics but they failed badly so i had to delete them. 

(I never got past the foreword. Fail right orz;;)

I hope I'd have different, better, results with this one. 

- Kleo ♥