(Chapter song: Sofia Karlberg - Runnin ‘Lose it all’) 

   After Ellen Interview; I had many calls wanting me to come for an interview about that magazine release. I nicely denied many and forcefully rejected a lot but I came to that one interview that made me want to go for it and it was an interview about the magazine but it was with her. So I walked out of my zone and agreed on going to it. 

   I made that day start happily, and I walked to the backstage all the way to the makeup room smiling. They did my makeup and hair then I walked my way to the waiting room,

   “Should we go there for coffee first” Yuri said 

   “No I already had coffee this morning, if you want you can go, I’ll wait for you there” I said continuing my walk, 

   “But lets go there for a bit” she said as if she doesn’t want me to walk this way 

   I looked at her “What’s wrong?” I asked 

   “Let’s just go” she said pointing to go the right side 

   I insisted “If you don’t tell me I’ll keep walking my way” I said and turned to continue walking. However, my eyes met hers from far away. 

  So I held my well and continued walking, I passed her without looking at her, like it’s nothing. My heart ached a bit, I wanted to turn and look at her, I wanted to smile and say hi, I wanted to see her smile and hear her voice but I held me strong and kept going. 

   I sat down in the waiting room, “You okay?” Yuri asked 

   I looked at her smiling “Yes...Don’t worry, it’s all good now. No feelings” 

   She looked at me unconvinced but she nodded. 

   After a while She walked in the room, she sat on her phone and I made my eyes wonder the whole room. I took a couple of glances at her, how much time has it been? Weeks? Months? I’m no longer sure. 

It’s a page that I turned already, sadly I gave my emotions and she doesn’t even deserve it or at least that’s what I convince myself. But I don’t regret it, I only regret the unusual love I had for her and all of my heart beats that went to waste. 

   “Okay ladies it’s a stand by” the guys with headsets said 

   We walked out to wait to be called in, “Good morning,” she said 

   I looked at her standing beside me, “Morning” I replied,

  Seconds passed and they are the most quiet seconds I’ve ever went through. 

   “How are you?” She asked looking at me 

  I looked at her “Fine, you?” I asked back 

  “Still alive” she said, and I giggled inside thinking of Hayeon and how both of them say the same things. 

  We were called in to the show, and we left all that we had between each other on that yellow line we were standing on. Now In front of the cameras and people we have to act like friends... 

  I sat on the left chair beside the two interviewers and she sat on the right chair beside me. 

  “How are you ladies?” The man said 

  “Good” I said 

  “Fine,” She said 

  “We are so glad to be the first to have both of you on our show” the lady said 

   I smiled, I don’t know if she did. 

   “What a chemistry you two have” he said, 

   and the lady beside him nodded agreeing “It’s just a photo but you can feel it” she said 

  I giggled “It shows how magnificent the photographer is, it’s all in his hands” I said 

  The lady denied “But you must’ve had some part of it” 

  “Yeah when we see it, it just shows the harmony between you two and the charm you have” he said 

   “We were just being natural, I guess we just have it” she looked at me and smiled 

   Don’t be fool, I told my self. It’s just the camera personality. 

   “Should we check the pictures” she said 

   “We must” he said turning to the big screen behind us. 

   I don’t want to see them, I know I don’t but my head turned without me guiding it. 

   They made us go through each and every picture in the magazine, giving us seconds to see them and I looked at her in all of them. Till they stopped on the magazine cover...the kiss 

   I felt a surge of happiness looking at her, she was bursting with joy, I could see her she was hardly able to contain her happiness. I’ve seen this picture everywhere but this is the first time I noticed. 

  I turned to look at her confused, you were happy I wanted to tell her. 

  “Taeyeon you