(Chapter song: Calum Scott - You Are The reason) 

  I opened the door and popped my head in, 

  “Hey you came” she put her book down 

  “The nurse told me you just woke” I walked to her 

   “Not really I was reading” she tapped on the bed beside her. I sat there and she laid her head on my shoulder “You came” she said 

   “Of course I did I would never let you go through this alone” I said holding her hand 

   “Thank you, I love you so much” she put my hand on her heart 

   “I love you more” I kissed her head 

   “So tell me how was the shoot?“ she asked and reminded me 

    “I kissed her” 

    She pulled her head up fast and looked at me “Really?!!” 

    “Yeah but she went off on me and destroyed the hell out of my heart” I said with such a pain 

    “What?!! She did?” She yelled shocked 

    I nodded my head and tried to hold my tears “she thought I was using her, I don’t know why I did that, I've always been that girl that has to play it safe but this time I didn’t” I shrugged “I don't want to want her like I do but it’s not in my hand” 

   “Why did she think like that?” 

   “I don’t know, It's been days and I'm still trying to figure out why she said those words” I said frustrated 

   “Maybe it’s just a trust issue, it’s only wrong time, I don’t think she meant what she said” she tried to make me feel better 

   “I know it was a wrong time but I don’t think she didn’t mean it because she made sure I know that she meant each and every word” I said 

   She shook her head taking her favorite candy out, “Don’t think like that” 

  I sighed “It’s my fault I should’ve been more carful but it wasn’t in my hand It's been a very long time since I've felt the way that I do now because of her, she makes me feel like I need her but I don't know how. I swear to god I meant it from the deepest of my heart but the way she showed me that she didn’t, tears me apart and even though it hurts in this moment I know that it was my mistake” 

   “There is no mistake in love, you didn’t do anything wrong. You just showed your feelings in the most pure way without force”

   Love?! 

   I looked at her “you think this is love?” 

   She nodded “It is in its purest form” she said eating her candy

  “Then I guess I loved and loved and I lost over and over again” I said taking the candy from her 

  “You are going into a surgery in a couple of hours, and we are talking about me” i turned to sit in front of her 

   “It’s okay, talking about something other than the surgery makes me less nervous” she said smiling 

   I put my hands on her check “It will all be okay, I want you to know that I’m here by your side and I will be by your side when you finish, you are not alone you will never alone” 

  “I know...that what makes me stronger, you make me strong” she said wiping my tears “you should not cry, you cried enough now you...we should focus on the happy things in our life...we both now how short life can be” 

  I nodded my head “We do” 

  “Should we pray a little bit before the surgery because I might act cool but I’m a little bit scared” she giggled 

   I rubbed her head “of course” 

   We sat down and were about to start praying but suddenly we heard a nose outside like shouting 

   “What’s that?” I stood up to check 

   “Oh ,” she put her hand on her head 

   I looked at her worried “Are you okay?” 

   She stood up “Here she comes” she said sitting on the bed 

   “Who?!” I said and the door opened 

   “I DIDN’T SIGN THIS” Taeyeon entered the room yelling 

   I looked at her confused, she looked at me then turned back to her, like she didn’t notice me well 

  “You will not go through the surgery again, I’m not allowing this. How in the name of god can you do that without talking to me” she walked to her 

  “I have to” she said 

  “NO YOU DON’T HAVE TO, we talked about this before” she turned again to me when she felt my presence, she got extra anger and her face turned all red “What the are you doing here?!” She asked me and I stayed quiet because I can’t do that, her angry face break me

   “She has nothing to do with you, I’m going to do the surgery and I don’t care if you  agree or not” she stood up to walk to me 

   Taeyeon looked at me “we will talk later”  she said 

   “Leave her alone, I said she have nothing to do with her” she stood beside me and held my hand to lean on me

   “I’m not letting you go through it again, you can’t survive it again you will not survive it, I’m not letting you go. I’m your sister I’m your guardian I will not let you do it again” she sat on the chair looking at me, oh my god Taeyeon is her sister?!!!!!!

   “You are no longer my guardian, I signed Tiffany as my guardian” she said and I looked at her shocked...she did?!!