Finally, it hit me, I am pregnant again, out of wedlock.

I left the hospital feeling a lot better than when I went in. Surprising enough, even though I was not expecting for Baekhyun to pick me up knowing his schedule and I told him not to make any fuss out of it since I’m a grown up and I could go home on my own, this person who came to my ward on a Sunday afternoon was out of my expectation.

I watched as his tall and slim figure in a plain white tee, black sweats and NMDs swayed into my ward steadily with a white mask and cap. My hands that were packing my luggage stopped midway, “Yah, Oh Sehun!” I gasped loud enough for him to hear but soft enough for anyone beyond the ward door to hear.

“Annyeong, Sally-ah!” he said, as he pulled his face mask down to his chin, waving a little with a small smile.   

“Baekhyun-hyung said you’ll be discharged today and since I’m free, I volunteered to come and pick you up!” he shrugged as he walked over and scanned around the ward, knowing that all my belongings have been kept, he zipped my luggage.

After the procedures had all been taken care of, I let him carry my bags as I left with him through the secret passage to the car park.

After all the walking and hospital smells that stayed in my nose even when I was already in the car, I rested my head towards the right on the headrest, feeling a little unwell. I looked out the window as the car moved. I watched as the cars passed by us in a swift or cars behind overtaking us and I noticed how we were actually driving quite slowly. Usually, Sehun being Sehun himself, he drives as if he was racing on a F1 track. Surprising enough to me, he was driving so steadily today without a bit of impatience.

“I  don’t want you vomiting in my car and I don’t want to get killed by Baekhyun-hyung tonight.” he answered when I stared at his speed meter in disbelief.

“Are we going back to the company?” I asked. “Yep! Gotta change into another car before some paparazzi follows us back to the dorm.” I nodded my head and stared out of the black tinted window.

I could feel the vibration in the car to every tins and bits and it was acting up to me as I felt the flip in my stomach. This crazy hell of a hyperemesis gravidarum is killing me. I thought to myself. I was suddenly glad I didn’t eat anything for breakfast in the hospital other than a cup of warm water or Sehun’s car will be in a deep mess by now.

I closed my eyes and adjusted my breath slowly to swallow the nausea down my stomach.

It was a little too quiet in the car other than the very softly turned up english song that was playing since we got in and I heard Sehun’s voice, “you okay?”

I nodded my head lightly without answering him. If he saw it, he saw it. If he didn’t, he would probably think that I was asleep. The journey continued being quiet until we got down in SME’s underground parking lot.

“Sally, wake up. We’re here already. Yongmin-hyung is waiting in another car. Let’s go.” Sehun shook me a little and unbuckled my seatbelt. After seeing me awake, he got down from the car to get my bag. I opened the car door and he came around to help me out.

“You’re pale. Are you alright?” he walked really close by, making sure I was within his reach if anything were to happen as we made our way to the company car. I smiled at him to show that I was fine and we got into the SUV.

I swear I had never been more glad that we had to change a car to go back to the dorm until this very second when I realize how the SUV is so much more comfortable than being in the Aston Martin.

“Is Baekhyun coming back tonight?” I asked Sehun when he finally put his phone down.

“Of course he is? Where else should he be at?” he asked in return.

“...” I hadn’t got a call from him since yesterday and I hadn’t seen his face since he left for the film shoot. I didn’t even know if he was shooting for his drama or? Was he even in Seoul or? Well, I guess Sehun should know better than I do?

“Did hyung not tell you?” Sehun asked again after not getting any replies from me.

“No. I haven’t heard from him since yesterday.” I looked away to the sky as I answered half heartedly, trying to sound like it was nothing.

Sehun stared deeply at me for a few seconds before he gave me a few pats on my shoulder. “Hyung’s just too busy. We know his whereabouts only because we can see everyone’s schedule in the group chat and-”

“It’s okay, Sehun. I understand.” I answered with a brief smile. “Are you sure you’re fine?” He asked again to reassure and I nodded my head before looking out of the car, in my own deep thoughts.

I guess my belongings had been handled and dealt with during my stay in the hospital. They are either in Baekhyun’s apartment or in the dorm and it doesn’t really matter to me, honestly. Baekhyun tends to my business more than I do about myself sometimes. He probably took care of them all already.

Coming to think of it, I haven’t seen Jesper for a few days already. He did come to visit me in the hospital a few times with Baekhyun’s mother but the last time I saw him was probably 3 days ago. When are we going to pick him up from Bucheon? Ah, right, I will know when I get to ask Baekhyun about it. Sehun said Baekhyun will come home tonight.

I hope Sehun is certain and right about it so I can ask about my little boy. I miss Jesper.

As the car drove into the residential area for SM staffs and artists, I tidied myself a little, preparing to get down from the car.

The dorm still looks the same as before. I remember the latest passcode at the door is 0000 since Baekhyun mentioned it before and I punched the numbers in. I heard the door unlocking and I happily pushed it in while waiting for Sehun and Yongmin-oppa to come in. I held the door for a few seconds and strangely, both of them had yet to step in. I turned my eyes back at the entrance and I saw the two men stood bamboozled at the door looking at me.

“How… how did you know the passcode?!” Sehun asked.

I rolled my eyes and made a “please come in” gesture to him which he gladly followed with a quick “thank you” when he passed by my side. Yongmin-oppa did the same, but-

“Baekhyun that little brat must have told her the newly changed passcode.” he mumbled with a smile while shaking his head as he came in. I shrugged and followed after him. “I guess you know where hyung’s room is as well so I will leave you to explore yourself whilst I go back to my nest! Text me if you need anything.” Sehun said before he went up the stairs.

Following the map and pictures that I have formed in my head after all the video calls and description by Baekhyun I knew in exact where his room was and how to get to his room. After washing my hands and feet in the bathroom, I carried the bags that Sehun left outside Baekhyun’s room and entered the room. I guess the part time maid must have got it cleaned before I came as the room looked oddly tidy.

I walked around a little after turning on the heater in the room and I noticed all my personal belongings all arranged and placed naturally at where these things should belong in the room. My laptop, handbag, makeup bag, and wait… How is Kylie here in Korea?! I don’t remember bringing her here! Did I pack it with me? I looked at my favourite teddy bear on the bed in surprise and I walked towards it.

The instance I held it though, I knew it wasn’t my Kylie. My Kylie was less solid than this as it had been a really long time since I got it and my Kylie should smell like me, not Baekhyun. I chuckled a little and took one last sniff of the teddy bear before laying it back on the bed. I walked to the wardrobe and as expected, my clothes had been arranged in it al